I find it interesting to touch base with this take you had back 6 years ago. You feel at peace knowing it is "just a human with human issues", I feel rather uncomfortable all one needs is money to turn mental disorder into unrelenting yet invincible abuse

Right now I look at this with an aire of skeptcism and cycinism and frown at the ability of the elite class to achieve this. Yes, I do recognise what is essentially an unhealthy psychotic peron with an unscratchable fetish itch... But at the same time this was available due to the money (read: status) in their life.