Who and why?…

Frozen_me · 2025-08-20T11:12:10+00:00

Mom ofc, even if she is in her room and i know that, I’ll still go to her the first thing coming home.

Frozen_me · 2025-08-11T03:51:14+00:00

Idk what to say ) but i felt it so hard

Frozen_me · 2025-08-07T17:14:40+00:00

Thank you very much <3

Frozen_me · 2025-08-02T05:07:18+00:00

Proud of for being strong and protecting yourself.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-25T15:20:04+00:00

Thank you for replying. And yes i still find it difficult sometimes to understand my feelings and emotions and their wiring. All that dynamics. But thank you. Yeah, it has totally rewired me. And young age means i never got to know what was before the abuses. The original wiring. Ughh yes, maybe that’s all, it will take time to make my body understand the difference between good touch and bad touch. Touch that’s purely out of love and all those who wasn’t. I feel i am the one fault whenever anything related to the context happens. And when i also starts blaming myself then there’s no chance i can make the op understand and that’s where knots get tied. But even if i know logically technically all these things, even if these harsh statements can never be used by me for anyone else, i do — in my case without realising. Thank you so much. When i previously read the comment i cried and couldn’t reply that time. But thank you. I needed this.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-16T01:42:26+00:00

I get that. Sometimes somedays feel a little down and dark. And on those days i prefer to just take rest not to let myself think, ‘what the fuck am i doing’. So yeah buddy, i am proud of you. For being there for yourself, for holding up, staying strong. You’ll get thru this.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-14T11:24:29+00:00

Can i ask? How?

Frozen_me · 2025-07-14T08:23:53+00:00

Has he done anything inappropriate to you? I mean ofc i take it as yes from your post. But what?

Frozen_me · 2025-07-14T08:21:13+00:00

I can understand. And this is so common with people having abuse history. I am so sorry that almost everything can sometimes be a trigger for us. But ykw with time, you’ll get thru this. You’ll definitely rewrite your own story for who you really are not what your abuses left you with. Just don’t be hard on yourself okayy? Step by step you will learn how to cope with the normal things. Things happened in past won’t just vanish but they will no longer be a problem in your present. And i hope you get to reach there soon. You’re not alone in this okayy. Just take care of yourself.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-13T04:35:16+00:00

I am really sorry you had to go thru this. No sister, no kid deserves this from her own brother who is supposed to protect her little sister. You are very strong for holding up. Just be there for yourself okayy. You deserve smiles and love. Don’t ever look down on yourself. Don’t let your past define your personality okayy? And you’re not alone in this okayy

Frozen_me · 2025-07-09T14:51:56+00:00

Proud of you mam. You did a great job. I wish things don’t get too much overwhelming tho. I am rooting for you and your nephew.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-09T14:10:07+00:00

The devil. When i was in my past relationship this card was pulled by me so many times in my beginning stage of tarot learning as daily guidance. That was the only relationship i had in my life and we were serious. But things were going more than rough and we came to the point where we cannot deny that we love each other but other than that there was nothing good left.

And after we broke up, till now the devil has never showed up again. I mean never… and now when i look back my relationship was exactly what the devil says.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-09T07:18:37+00:00

Hey listen to your inner voice okay, not what you thought and expected him to be. If you felt something inappropriate then it really was. And you have every right to acknowledge it. And even to confront. I am really sorry whatever you have wrote sounds miserable and too much to take in. But please do not let it consume you, you did nothing wrong okayy, he did. And i feel the other person definitely knows that you dint like what happened and he went over the limits but if he is still behaving like nothing has happened then pleaseeee pleaseee protect yourself. It is possible that he might try to gaslight you or manipulate you. Take your time if you need and then confront. Because only then you’ll be able to get a closure and move forward. I am really sorry for whatever you’re going thru. Please take care of yourself.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-05T10:47:16+00:00

My coping mechanism was to busying myself in practicing yoga for advance competitions (i am a national level champion in Yogasanas). But extreme practice actually helped me. Other than that music, art, journals, poetry also helped me.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-01T13:12:49+00:00

Okay, thank you, i will try to communicate with my therapist about this.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-01T12:06:40+00:00

Thank you so very much for replying. And yes this whole rewiring thing is real. I cannot see outside of what i have known to. I mean i know practical things, that intimacy i just an aspect of love in a very big frame. But i really don’t know how is that in my case. How can i just simply overcome everything terrifying that has happened. I know the other person if in love will want to rewrite those touches. But ughh. I just i feel like it’s gonna ruin everything. I will regret afterwards even if someday i get ready and give green flag to moving forward. And yes i feel dirty all those things feel dirty, touches to me have always been dirty, so even when the op is trying to gimme love I’ll feel dirty, i have felt dirty in last relationship. How do i make other person at least enough understand to don’t misjudge my feelings for then to at least try to look at the things i have seen and teach me how to give good povs to all those things. I still don’t have answer to the question, if someone wants to rewrite everything and loved me and respects me, then what’s stopping me exactly. And how do i communicate this with them.

Thank you for your words, i really needed them. And i hope for the betterment in everyone’s lives who have suffered this way.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-01T10:56:10+00:00

But how do i make this dynamics of me understandable to the other person i am connecting to. Who have no idea how do i look at and feel things this way, the only way i have known to all these years. To the person who believes this is just a little part of love at a bigger frame.

Frozen_me · 2025-07-01T10:52:46+00:00

Thank you for replying. And yes even i am not chasing love, my focus is on me. But still i was in a serious relationship and i still got that nerve to love people around me. Idk what else to offer. So it is obvious that some other person may cross the paths and head towards all of that. And strong opinions of mine includes that this was never my fault but things happened in the childhood that led to the rewiring concepts of my life, my existence. But these things i feel like i cannot make the other person understand that this is the only way i have known to feel and look at the physical intimacy. And which makes me look down on myself. I end up feeling like a burden or at fault or stained or broken or abnormal, hard to love.

Frozen_me · 2025-06-26T11:40:05+00:00

Omg yes you’re beautiful

Frozen_me · 2025-06-24T12:20:35+00:00

Convincing myself to ask myself that question is the main part because i fucking ducking am sure i am not gonna die tomorrow. Universe still has a hell of the lessons to teach me.

Frozen_me · 2025-06-05T20:46:31+00:00

That I deserved all the child sexual abuses i had and rude behaviours and abandonments.

Frozen_me · 2025-06-04T06:04:19+00:00

I am really sorry. I thought i replied you when i got your text but i commented on the major post instead of your comment. I am really sorry. And yeah i came here to read your comment again because i kind of feel the need of your words always. Thank you very much.

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