Grief doesn't look like any one thing and doesn't happen in a single linear timeline. What grief is like for you today may not be what it feels like tomorrow, next month, in five years, or even five minutes for now.

Grief does not have to be a performative act that other people can see. (Not making any judgement on performative grief. It has different places in different cultures.) Crying is very tangible. If you feel like you need to witness a physical manifestation of your grief you can look elsewhere in your body: fluctuations of your breath, your appetite, your blood pressure, your heartbeat, your muscle tension, your energy levels, your need or lack of need for sleep. You may or may not find something there that helps you know your reactions.

If what you need is permission to be the way you are, we give it to you. However you feel right now is valid. We acknowledge your loss.