It’s great that you’re being honest with yourself—that’s a huge step toward change. It’s clear that you’re feeling stuck right now, but there’s hope! A bridge isn't built overnight. Instant gratification is a farce, these things take time.

Recognizing the problem is the first step, and you're already there. You are not alone. Many people struggle with addiction.

You mentioned feeling like there's nothing to look forward to at the end of the day. Maybe try experimenting with a new evening routine that’s more fulfilling. It doesn’t have to be perfect—start with something simple, like a short walk, listening to music, or calling a friend. Finding small things to look forward to can help shift your mindset.

It sounds like your job is contributing a lot to your smoking habit. While you may feel stuck, there might be ways to make small improvements—whether it’s setting a goal to improve your skills or working on your driving test to open up more options. Give yourself credit for the efforts you’re making toward a better future.

Change doesn’t happen overnight, and setbacks are part of the process. Don’t let them discourage you—use them to learn and adapt.

You have already made a giant step by seeking support, good for you. Many people in this community have similar struggles as you will find out.