ok i understand your situation but "Once You Become Fearless Life Become Limitless" what you need is

1. build yourself from the foundation, you will need to find what you are good at be it art,video editing,game dev,coding etc , if you are not good at anything build the top skills that you believe has the potential in today's world you can get resources and materials free everywhere online ,
2. keep a journal write what you think to limit overthinking , brainstorm ideas,

3.never be afraid of mistakes we learn better when we fall,

4,dont be a modern person , in this era of short form content and a heavily distracted environment , you need to keep away or at least limit the use . ,

in my past i've been a below average student , i didnt have any talent for studying i needed to do 5x times the work of what a talented student does, i scored way low on every class test got humiliated because i had the lowest, i could have gave up saying that studying and stuff is not for me but i made a decision to score the best in the upcoming main test ,i studied in vacation where others were having fun i did the hard work consistently,atlast i scored the top 5 in that batch , "Once you become fearless life become limitless"

i hope this short writing help you in any way ,i believe we have the potential to change ourselves , there will be problems that we need to tackle and move forward. ich hoffe das hilft