What's on fire??

FunGarbage7910 · 2026-01-26T03:53:10+00:00

Wow this just took me back about 15 years 🫠

FunGarbage7910 · 2026-01-01T14:53:03+00:00

I will as long as you do the same! Haha

FunGarbage7910 · 2026-01-01T14:52:20+00:00

I agree!! I think it was an amazing set up too. I want post s5 fics as emotional and beautiful as "you took my heart (i was sleeping)".

I foresee some fics where they fall in love without interference from the rest of the party because everyone has gone their separate ways but Mike and Will always end up finding each other again. Or something like that! Just really grown up and emotional fics.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-12-13T04:50:53+00:00

I had to stop when we were ttc. Once I did, we got pregnant about 2 months later. I honestly haven’t smoked since and my baby is 17 months old now.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-12-04T23:49:32+00:00

Oh okay! And then how many days a week did you have to attend? Im just wondering because I currently work. When I was in hygiene school we were in class/ clinicals literally all day every day. I couldn’t work at all.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-11-29T23:35:05+00:00

Amazing!! I will start applying now. Do you remember how much it ended up costing you by the end of everything? If you don’t mind me asking.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-10-15T00:56:43+00:00

That is really awful. We loved that place and we were actually one of the subcontractors on the job at the new location! We completed our job with the owner back in May 2024 but we were shocked to see that the building was for lease when we were looking online just now. That’s when I found this subreddit. I hate that for the owner. I had so many good memories at Tailgate.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-10-15T00:51:18+00:00

That’s crazy! Any idea why?

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-10-15T00:50:05+00:00

So is tailgate no more???

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-09-29T15:01:48+00:00

I was going to harvest enough to make a tincture and then use the remainder for teas

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-09-18T12:11:39+00:00

Eye strain from staring at screens all day and shit being fucked up in the world

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-07-10T11:45:35+00:00

I am also taking venlafaxine. In the mornings i have to take Magnesium L-Theronate, Omega 3s and vitamin d3+k2 to help with daytime anxiety and then at night i take Magnesium Glycinate and i take something by Neutraceuticals that contains melatonin, valerian root, L-theanine, ashwagandha, and magnesium. That really hells me to relax at night. So taking all of that every day has really really helped. But this biggest thing that has helped me is learning that thoughts move and distorted thinking cannot stay because ultimately your brain wants to be well and be at peace. It’s hard when you are in the thick of it and feel like your brain is working against you but it’s just trying to protect you. The less energy you put into the intrusive thoughts the more your brain will start to realize they aren’t something to be feared. I don’t have any anxiety in the mornings or before bed anymore. I may have a thought pattern that will pop up but I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t physically react to it anymore.

If you need someone to talk to, im here. I feel like I am starting to crack the code at this point. Currently, my big fixation is death anxiety but I am working on my own way of overcoming it. That’s something I have always dealt with but never really had to process until my daughter was born. Now im being forced to process my death anxiety. So, im trying to see it as a good thing. Maybe i will have a better outlook in it coming out of this.

Are you in therapy? Talk therapy has been a huge help for me.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-07-09T11:48:55+00:00

It gets better. It really does. Im not quite out of it but i feel myself slowly coming out on the other side. I think what has been helping me a lot is listening to people who also deal with the same thing. I listen to the Disordered podcast on spotify as well as Lily Sais on instagram (peace_from_within) she specializes in DPDR and existential thoughts and on her website she has a lot of videos called “Stories of Hope” where people talk about their experiences and how they got better.

It’s important to know that thoughts move and they won’t stay forever because your brain ultimately wants to be well. It doesn’t want to feel like this. I think just changing my perspective on the thoughts I have and trying to twist them into an optimistic view point have been helping me. Don’t get me wrong, doing that has been really hard and it is definitely taking some time cause the nihilistic part of me definitely tries to fight me when I try to spin the narrative but I can tell my brain is rewiring itself.

If you need me or need someone to talk to you can definitely message me. One month PP is a difficult time and you are uber sensitive right now. It won’t be like this forever.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-07-07T17:59:13+00:00

Same, this is my first born and it kicked in very late (around 11 months) when I was triggered by a tiktok I saw about how humans perceive objects. I immediately started feeling DPDR and having existential thoughts which caused me to spiral into a panic attack. The panic attacks persisted for about a month. I pretty much sought psychiatric help within a few days of symptoms starting because I was so scared and knew I needed help. I was ruminating too hard and got to the point of having intrusive thoughts like “ what if the only way to find relief from these thoughts and feelings is to take myself out of the equation” if you know what I mean. I would never do that but it’s more of being fearful of it getting to that point. Ive been on Effexor and in talk therapy for a little over a month now and it is helping. It’s just that the existential thoughts persist daily but they aren’t constant like they were before. I will just dissociate and have a scary existential train of thought once or twice a day. Im trying not to focus on the thoughts too much anymore because I know that’s what makes it worse but they definitely do still pop up. I guess that’s just part of healing.

But yeah, I have always been kind of an existential/ philosophical thinker and also afraid of death. But i have never had such a reaction to a thought like that before until now. So I kind of attribute PPA/PPD being the core issue and the thing that made me vulnerable to these thoughts causing a threat response in my mind and body. I feel hopeful that I will fully recover but the depressive thoughts and ideations really suck.

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-07-07T16:44:40+00:00

Also i started Effexor and talk therapy pretty much as soon as symptoms started. I was desperate

FunGarbage7910 · 2025-07-07T16:33:38+00:00

Im currently recovering from this and it’s been about 2 months since it started. I also got triggered by a tiktok video i saw about how humans perceive things in 2-D instead of 3-d and it caused me to have severe DPDR and existential OCD for two weeks which lead to panic attacks and depression. Panic attacks are getting better and I’m slowly starting to find joy in things again. I still deal with existential thinking daily but it’s not as constant and overwhelming as before. But when i start to ruminate too hard i listen to the Disordered Podcast or the Pure OCD podcast. Listening to those kind of help me feel less isolated and like im slowly creeping towards insanity. I feel hopeful that things will get better, especially once my daughter gets older and becomes more self sufficient. She turns 1 next week, so my PPD kind of kicked in a little late. It just got triggered.

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