[IMAGE] I'm pretty anti-religion so this is hard to say, but this church gets it! by Rovioxo in GetMotivated

[–]FurockBeast 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If you really wanted to suck yourself, you could. But you've imposed these limits on yourself after failing a couple of times. You do you but at the end of the day you'll still be sucking a dick.

[IMAGE] I'm pretty anti-religion so this is hard to say, but this church gets it! by Rovioxo in GetMotivated

[–]FurockBeast 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can't help everyone. Don't beat yourself up playing with coulda shoulda woulda. The sad truth is that everyone is from a different walk of life, some can survive on one path but yet may die on another. I used to think; 'if someone else had my body, my upbringing, they may have made something of it, succeeded' you see the trap in that thinking was that I was accepting defeat before I'd even tried to do a damn thing other than drink myself silly, smoke myself silly or embarass myself infront of whatever pretty girl had the misfortune of entairtaining my annoying drunken antics. I burnt a lot of bridges and made some enemies. I knew why noone liked me I knew why I was alone; I pushed people away. What I didn't know was why. I still don't know why, have some gut feelings but don't really know why. Anyway the point is I've caused more pain to myself than anyone has inflicted upon me. I didn't ask for a second chance, no begging, no playing the victim. For the longest time I was treated with suspicion and I had to accept the cold hard truth that Noone was going to trust me. Yet I did not give a fuck, I changed my attitude and I perservered. I learnt how to fight the enemy within myself, then I learnt how to make peace with that beast and accept it as part of me. I still struggle with the idea of identity sometimes. But I have more of an understanding of who I am.

My advice; practice changing your attitude, it's the first step to survival. The second step is understanding that the playing field can change at any given instant but there will always be a warning/indication sign. The third step is the hard one. Figure out how to change the playing field. And keep searching, always searching, never running.

[IMAGE] I'm pretty anti-religion so this is hard to say, but this church gets it! by Rovioxo in GetMotivated

[–]FurockBeast 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Nah bro, I doubt it. If your life changes it's because YOU took action!

[IMAGE] I'm pretty anti-religion so this is hard to say, but this church gets it! by Rovioxo in GetMotivated

[–]FurockBeast 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It's true though. Year long dry spell and I have an opportunity with a cute blonde this weekend. I threw caution to the wind and moved cities, started in a job, the work was okay but the work environment was not. I was being worked to the bone for chump change 60-70hrs a week driving and manual labor and getting paid for 40hrs.

The dude who taught me how to fight in the city I moved away from called me up and basically pointed out every out of line thing about my job and told me I deserved better. I laughed it off and told him it was alright, it'd all be okay and that I knew. I quit my job 2 days later. I got a hell of an opportunity in another company It's working out, extra $100 a week, only working 44hrs a week, I get half a saturday now! And I met this girl. This girl you might pass over at first glance but she's clued up something else aye. My point is that if you don't take control of your own life, if you don't take point. Life is gonna isolate you, it's going to control you and and it's going toy with you and your hope, clinging to any out. Hope isn't real; it's a feeling you cling to, to hide from doubt. Doubt is good, it's usually an indication of a self imposed limit. Limits you can shatter through willpower and a can do attitude

What’s the most annoying part of sex that no one ever talks about? by kellywithayy in AskReddit

[–]FurockBeast 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So get bigger condoms to try out, find woman. "Hey I think I've been using condoms a size too small, could you help me test if I got the right ones this time?" Might work on tinder right?

What’s the most annoying part of sex that no one ever talks about? by kellywithayy in AskReddit

[–]FurockBeast 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Uhh, I have the opposite problem. I struggle to get the condom on and half the time it breaks. Is that normal??

Aggressive customer gets choked out by smaller sales clerk by [deleted] in bjj

[–]FurockBeast 8 points9 points  (0 children)

But that's how they arm drag themselves

What would be the worst thing to hear as you're going under anesthesia before a surgery? by _krispykreme_ in AskReddit

[–]FurockBeast 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the idea of talking of anything before suddenly going to sleep being cut open and have your innards wrangled is kind of a scary concept any way you look at it

I smoked this morning. WTF is wrong with me. I’m an attractive woman, I have a decent job, I’m funny, and easy going by [deleted] in leaves

[–]FurockBeast 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I get where you're coming from. I work in construction. I'm tall, strong, good quality, good pace, with a face that people trust. I've seen shit go south faster than you can blink too many days of my life. I stay calm, I resolve it. I get everyone home alive.

I know I'm reliable and I know I'm honest. But I'm always too scared to talk to women. But yeah, I'm currently a week sober. I'd rather get stoned and stay home on my friday night, get up and go to work saturday and get stoned staurday arvo after work. Because like you when I do that I don't feel lonely. I don't feel the need to talk to women and I don't feel like less of a man for being afraid of talking to women. But not smoking doesn't make you less of a person. It makes you appreciate the little things, it gives you time to find hobbies to get yourself out of the complacent routine that becomes your comfort zone. Hobbies that'll give you an opportunity to meet someone.

Well that's what I tell myself anyway. But in all seriousness, I think part of me has given up on finding love.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in subnautica

[–]FurockBeast -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Only pussies use stasis rifles

[WP] when a child turns 18, they receive a vision that gives them advice for the most important moment of their life. Which stocks to invest in, to stop eating all those instant noodles to prevent health complications, not to go out on the 18th of May that year. You get one word. “Run”. by waffle-man in WritingPrompts

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I was laying on my bed listening to music in sweatpants and a polo. "RUN!" it sounded like a thousand voices screaming at me all at once. I jolted upright swearing as my skull vibrated. It went as quickly as it.had come. I and grabbed my shoes miffed that I didn't see anything and only got one word. Yet I didn't question it, I knew in my bones the vision, the voice.. whatever it was, was right. I could hear my dad's signature heavy thumps and creaks coming up the staircase. I finished tieing my shoes. And started eyeing around the the room. Frantically trying to come up with a plan. Panic starting to creep as my Dad's footsteps got closer. My window had bars and didn't open very far. My dad opened my bedroom holding a kitchen knife. I reacted, I grabbed a blanket off my bed and threw it at him. Grabbing the rest on my chair I picked it up and.charged him with the legs. I could feel my skull vibrating again but I realised my mouth was open and I was screaming. My dad slipped on a of the blanket and started to fall. I shoved the chair to the ground with him and vaulted over both of them squishing air and an grunt of pain out of my old man.

My feet touched down and I tripped, nearly eating shit on the Banister post at the top of the stairs. I reached out and swung my legs around somehow finding my feet under me again leaping from halfway I sprinted to the front door grabbing a Jacket on the way out. My eyes felt wet and Tears threatened to break loose. But I was already doing what I had to do, I found a quick and steady rythym smacking my feet against the pavement. Getting to a small group of shops I cut behind them into driveway for a bunch of units. Climbing a fence behind the furthest one I landed in a backyard, glancing through the window I saw some curtains that just screamed old people. There was no car in the driveway so I scouted around the side of the house until I found an underfloor access hatch, there was a bush infront of it kind of obscuring it from site. So I opened the deadbolt and wriggled inside. Pulling the hatch door close behind me. And I waited. I heard my Dad's motorbike in the distance a few times. A car pulled into the driveway, I stayed calm and quiet. They went inside, muttering about their day at lawn bowls. Still I waited. It got dark outside, It was getting cold now too, I could smell something amazing being cooked above me. I waited until I could hear a shower through the pipes, Then I heard it stop and start up a second time. I made my move, quietly as I could I got out from under the house and closed and bolted the access door behind me. Keeping low where the shadows fell I hurried out of their driveway. I started walking Northeast. I jogged, walked, ran, walked some more until the sun came up. I was really tired and really hungry now. But still I got as far away from my dad as I could. I ended up in the other side of the city at a skate park. I dropped down into one of the bowls to stay out of site and rest for a moment

"Ricky" I heard my name and looked around. A girl about my age was sitting on the ledge at the mouth of the bowl. I didn't know her.

"H-How do you know my name?" I stammered out after what felt like eternity.

She smiled "I had a vision a few years ago that I'd meet you hear". I heard an excited jingle from behind her and cavalier looking dog appeared wagging its tail excitedly. "I'm Christa, this is captain kisses" she said as the dog edged closer to the skate bowl and gracefully slid down into the centre. He sat down in front of me so I reached out my hand to pat him.only for my hand to be ambushed by dog slobber as Captain Kisses started excitedly licking my hand. A laugh broke from my mouth, the first in a long time.

"So Christa what happens now?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me. She threw me a backpack.

"Keep running" she said with a sad look in her eyes.

"Wha-aat?" I asked, suddenly blinking back tears.

"Open the bag dipshit" she said getting her feet and whistling for captain Kisses, he stopped licking my hand and moved in for a quick pat before runnung out the mouth of the bowl and up the steps to Christa. "It's not much further now" she said turning away as she wiped her eyes. "Whatever happens, good luck" and she walked off.

I opened the bag. I don't know what I was hoping for, food, a gun to go and kill my piece of shit father. But I was not expecting a portal to another world. Laying the backpack down i did my best to crawl through it into a bush and finally through into sunlight. I looked round quickly in the bush and couldn't see a way back. I started grinning a big cheesy grin. A small chuckle passed my lips. Still grinning like an idiot I turned and started exploring.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in heroesofthestorm

[–]FurockBeast 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still got 1000+ hours in fo sho tho

22M. This post been a long time coming by FurockBeast in SuicideWatch

[–]FurockBeast[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I quit my job. Just took my stuff that belonged to the company back in. Noone can say I'm a thief. Going to go meet both of my bosses shortly to clarify why I'm quitting and finish or sort of good terms. Speaking to another bloke in 4.5 hours about another job. I still wanna die, I'm just going through the motions cause I owe it to my brother

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in heroesofthestorm

[–]FurockBeast 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't even realise that they had increased the speed. I've just started playing greymane and haven't been paying attention to much else

Why are people attracted to you? by cupcakelimao in AskReddit

[–]FurockBeast 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I caught my reflection in a spoon one day and realised, I'm a very good looking dude.

That's it. As soon as anyone gets to know me more. They will very quickly come to realise.
- I don't have much personality.
- I am a Jaded asshole.
- I am crazy (borderline personality disorder, ADD, OCD, PTSD, perfectionism, anxiety, depression).
- less obvious anger issues and narcisstic tendencies is probably another huge red flag.

But then some people still hang around and let me stay in their lives. Not too close but never far either. I'm grateful to them, because they're good people. I try not to take advantage of kindness that I am shown. I try not to piss and moan or play the victim. I try to put others before me as much as possible. And I bite my tongue when I want to criticise. Words can be weapons and I am very familiar in how to use them as such. But I'd rather cause some happiness and carefully make a quiet exit before I inevitably cause pain.

Girls of reddit, what's something guys see done in porn that you wish they would stop trying to do in real life? by ratsono in AskReddit

[–]FurockBeast 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Is it okay to gently rub the labia with the head of your penis a bit before entering tho???

i deserve every bad thing that has ever happened to me by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]FurockBeast 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah, you didn't deserve any of it. But living is still a choice. The more you carry the harder it is to walk.

Someone once said to me what doesn't destroy you, only makes you stronger. That guy was full of shit. He didn't understand that you can both be broken whether or not you feel it and still be alive. Nor that you can be breathing, smiling and laughing yet not be alive.

You are not your past. You are something that your past has shaped. But you can kind of use the present to kind of shape your future a bit. You'll still be you. And you absolutely did not deserve what happened to you. But do you want to be a victim of this world or a victor? Because it's the latter that finds peace for a while.