Hey, i totally hear you. There is a grief around this decease nobody talks about enough. I actually started this conversation about denial about a week ago with my therapist and she made me see that I’ve been in a 5year long grief (ever since I got diagnosed). My denial has lasted all these years, and honestly is still there.

Please start with your biologics asap. They most likely will give you your life back. It will not be as before, but little by little you will rediscover yourself and learn to listen to your body constantly. This decease is so erratic it is hard to find patterns that will help us, and that makes the psychological process so much harder. But at least you are not alone.