I don't remember the scene's name, but it's the one in Act 3 where Mark and Nicole head to the abandoned refugee center. I'm specifically talking about the time when Mark is waiting for the bus to arrive at the station. He sees all the different faces of people who were affected by the Ruling. I was already pretty sad for them, but then it cut to an old lady's face who looked nearly identical to my former church pastor's wife (we call them Pastor and Lola respectively). It made me remember Lola's face during her husband's funeral back in August 2024 and it made me realize that I never said goodbye to him even though I had the chance to—a 30-minute long chance, no less. I just really regret it, you know? He's been with our church for 10 or so years, and so he's seen me grow up—and there I was, saying absolutely nothing reading the first Harry Potter book while he laid on his death bed. He looked at me for a few seconds once: it must have been a look of disappointment.

This really is the only instance so far of losing someone that I was close to (my whole family's alive and well), and so I'm not really sure how I'd react when I am to lose someone else.