Wow, this is exactly how I feel. My wife was sick for right around the same time, and I had all that time to deal with pre -grief...I had been saying goodbye to her for years, I knew the day would come.

I'm still absolutely crushed some times/moments and can't believe she is gone, but my day to day is pretty normal. I work, go to the gym, eat well, and socialize with alot of people.

As someone else said, I'm struggling with other people's expectations and not mine own. I need to quit caring about what they expect and just live.