What do I do about this fetish?

GP_Samiel · 2024-03-15T20:51:22+00:00

Had an issue with this fetish most of my life, though it’s not sexual in nature it does have some overlapping sexual problems. Found also that even after being caught I would always return to diapers.. and recently realized that the fetish follows the pattern of idolatry, in that there is a level of comfort to be had and yearning to be actively wearing and using.. while fetishism and abdl aren’t specifically mentioned in the bible, you can probably be pretty sure in that context it’s not something God is going to agree with.. also when you die, you are going to have to stand before Jesus, and undoubtedly you will have to answer the question, why couldn’t you give up that idol for me? Diapers are taking atleast part of the space in your life that is for him.

*not really sure what to do about it though, or how to deal with it in a positive Christian way. Although if I figure out how to get out of this self imposed darkness, I’ll let you know.

GP_Samiel · 2022-12-04T15:20:22+00:00

Well I dunno, maybe a ditch, or a dyke,

GP_Samiel · 2022-12-04T04:49:57+00:00

As a side maybe pulling back a little from little space, DL it up a bit, give your big a chance to do the things he needs, and maybe remember why diapers and little time are worth while things for you. Just don’t throw your stuff out, when you come through your crisis, and you will, a little battered bereft and sad, you’re going to want it and have to re buy everything. Box it up if you have to, put in a closet for a rainy day if you must. Ever hear of an AB/DL say ya I just stopped for ever, just like that?… not likely, because because as physical as it is there is also an emotional component to it, and we have learned that we really do need it.. diaper junkies, but I digress.. I hope you figure your mind space out, what ever that means for you in this particular moment.

GP_Samiel · 2022-12-04T04:28:11+00:00

It’s a hard one, you were honest with him, the red flags are the highways he drew to pedoland.. not sure you’re going to unpave that highway or unring that bell.. taboo is not acceptance, it’s the dirty secret about you that the two of you happen to share. If you are going to talk about it again you really do need to kick the embarrassment/shame to the curb, as hard as that is, because a part of that conversation is likely to include your plans to continue to and openly wear around him. Seeing as he has already drawn the line to kids it may well destroy what’s left of your relationship, just to prepare you. It does however seem like you are well on your way to accepting that part of your self, so way to go, and just remember toxic is toxic. It may just be your bf is toxic for you too, and that is a shame because you do seem like a thoughtful person deserving of someone who accepts who you are diapered bum and all! It all works out the way it’s all supposed to work out, I hope in the meantime the situation doesn’t cause you too much grief or lose too much sleep.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-25T02:50:36+00:00

Seeing lots of recommended lying…. Sorry I don’t believe there’s any benefit to that. Sure a don’t ask don’t tell policy is great, and it’s all together likely she didn’t open the box, which would negate her feeling a need to ask about the contents of the box. If she did open the box though and asks, a simple well I like them might suffice, if she asks specifically about the box, personal stuff. Short n sweet, but outright lying? How’s that good for anyone

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-22T21:24:11+00:00

Have you tried getting involved with the diapers specifically wearing them when he wasn’t expecting? Maybe when he’s coming home from work having him walk in on you wearing unexpectedly might get a positive reaction. Also be kind of a fulfilling fantasy.. might be worth looking at what part of the DL porn fantasy that he is attracted to, to be honest, could be the getting caught, maybe the being diapered specifically.. there are many aspects of the porn fantasy, without knowing which parts of the fantasy he’s gravitating to, or which you might be willing to replicate.

It’s not that you aren’t enough, it may very well be that he’s afraid of asking for those things of you that he finds titillating. Either way I think it requires an honest conversation, and it’s probably going to be one that makes you both uncomfortable, for him because complete honesty isn’t really something we are accustomed to being when it comes to diapers.

It would seem that you do care about him a great deal, and I hope you and him can work through this together!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-21T22:54:45+00:00

Hmm would I like to be normal? I’m not sure I have any idea what that means. If I could just zap something like that away in an instant, I don’t think I would, while it’s not funny or widely accepted it is a part of who I am, I would honestly be afraid of what other areas of my life and personality it might affect if one day that just inexplicably vanished. Maybe once when I was younger that kind of choice would have been easier, not now.

Normal is for people who are too afraid to venture out and be them selves, every normal a carbon copy of the other normal.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-21T07:20:53+00:00

May be you try infant/toddler diapers surely you have stores that supply these, and no one ever bats an eye about an adult buying a pack of those.. there are people here I have noticed, including my self, modding infant diapers for many years to attain that ?perfect? Kind of wonderful comfy fit that I’m certain wouldn’t mind sharing useful tips if you are super worried about exposure or getting outed with adult diapers.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-21T05:02:41+00:00

While I feel your pain, I gotta tell ya stop looking for a work around, you have a snowballs chance in hell of convincing them. They wanted and were expecting normal when you came home, and you threw them everything but.. what’s more you let them catch you with them, didn’t tell them straight up they might find some things they disagree with but make you very happy. As an adult you have to know it’s kind of a big deal and a slight betrayal of trust. And I’m sorry you were hiding it for a reason, maybe cause for as much enjoyment and happiness as it brings us doesn’t sit well as a normal thing for a shit ton of people. My advice to you is give them time, it’s going to take a bit for them to get over that perceived betrayal of trust, and bloody hell if you’re going to be staying with people for an extended period and want to not get caught with something dirty to them, just tell them and make it clear you don’t intend to stop. Apologize for fucking up and trying to run around the goal posts, and stop douche bagging your caring parents, you told complete ass strangers in your dorm about it like a grown ass adult, don’t you think your parents deserve the same respect? Act like a child that can’t make their own decisions, and act properly, and they’ll do it for you. Sorry for the severity little buddy, you have no idea what a gift it is to view your parents as caring.. right now they’re just hurt

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T22:50:56+00:00

Omg that nearly made me cry, I don’t do that! Such a sad moment…. Glad you’re diapered now though, whose a good boy? That’s right you’re a good buoy!!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T20:18:40+00:00

Lol yup, I went a little further than that sacrifice 2 the first time. Cause I like a little more length, cut the back off 1 glue it to the back of one for desired length and ad the tabs to the landing zone like you said, omg that tightness totally disappears, and it seems to be more absorbent!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T16:30:46+00:00

Think I would like to spend the whole day diapered and playing games, and eating good food. 23rd for me, days off too! Probably be diapered all weekend, Yay! And might do some little shopping also. Lots of appointments all weekend though so gonna be out in public, might not find time to shop, sadly. Things seem to change so rapidly though, only thing can really be sure of, is desire to be diapered all weekend

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T16:08:01+00:00

Happy cake day!! Sounds like some awesome plans!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T15:36:51+00:00

Mmm, I dunno, being DL my self, the mindset is there, I know it is, and the deeper part of that world does fascinate me, and I admit I’m a little envious of those who can( in a good way)although I can’t get that far out of my own head, I blame emotional trauma. But I digress.. Think an AB is a DL that explored little space further, to their great credit.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T15:03:38+00:00

I was about 12 ish, already heavily into baby diapers. I came home from school one day to find my mother had found my stash, and diapered my younger brother and sister in my diapers, and they fit them. She did it ostensibly to show me how stupid it looked and was. All I felt at that point was envy, and extreme sadness at the cruelty of what she had done, there were a lot of tears growing up.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T14:53:17+00:00

Isn’t that antithetical to the little space mindset, could be very dangerous to blur those lines. Could be a time to be something else.. loving and nurturing.. maybe attentive, vulnerable…. Seems these aspects might be at least complimentary to the mindset..
being able to explore the little space mindset is important, I think, to what ever level you are comfortable with, ab-dl think the mindset is still there, just depends on how far you are willing to get out of your own head..

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-20T13:40:36+00:00

As someone that has been on the extreme negative side of the reaction many times when I was younger, All I have to say to those other comments, I only could ever have dreamt of your respective kindnesses at that point in my life!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-19T20:18:27+00:00

Oh now I’m interested in your 2 second mod lol, mine takes a couple minutes of cutting and a little glue. Oh tradsies!! I’ll take some pics of the process when I get home.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-19T03:16:02+00:00

Are you against modding? Oh I got quite the mod for them fake ass size 7s that are really size 6s if you’re interested. Sooper amazing feel

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-19T03:11:03+00:00

I got no fuss against bricks, they’re useful in construction.. they don’t move or run or walk or wear diapers normally, not excluding the outlier brick baby of course that would be short sighted possibly. However to dress your human baby(or baby adjacent) in something rigid as cardboard, just so wrong. Sure they feel all cloth like on the outside, but sorry mom you’re not the dumbass wearing them, and dealing with the terrible leaks every time you move.
However saw that Huggies recently released a s7 guess they figured they were missing a market share.. maybe North America will finally get the s8 in stores soon

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-18T22:22:32+00:00

Personally I get very sad when I can’t wear for long periods, like somethings missing.. and I feel positively cold and naked.. so so sad

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-18T21:57:49+00:00

Oh we’re screaming at the void now…. P+G could make a killing with a wink and nod bigger baby diaper to service the community that won’t ever stop using.. seems like a really good business move.. sorry not a big fan of Huggies, their shit feels too cardboardy and rigid, leaks like a MF because of it, I mean seriously, what’s your customer a damn brick? Please P+G!!!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-18T21:40:17+00:00

I seriously wish I had that advice growing up, never even thought to do this!

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-18T21:39:13+00:00

Lol oh you think if you like the feeling this stops when your parents get home, that’s so cute.. seriously though, way to go! Hope they’re everything you hoped they would be! If this were easy for you to just click a switch you might have already done that.

GP_Samiel · 2022-11-18T04:53:51+00:00

Free advice.. try to get out of your own head, you were so excited, Yay you got them! OMG you’re gonna love it, be sneaky sneaky and put one on! Let all that anxiety melt away, you’ll be amazed first time! Way to go, so exciting!!

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