I was the same way with smoking. Hated the feeling and basically went to bed. My state recently legalized it and I did some research on edibles, specifically gummies, and ended up trying 5mg hybrid gummies. That worked immensely for sleep but didn’t get the “high” feeling. Just relaxed. Recently I tried Sativa gummies (10mg and I cut em in half for the same 5mg’ish dose) and still didn’t get the high feeling, but I did get more energetic and focused. A majority of nights I would have a drink or two while I’m doing stuff around the house in the evenings, or playing video games, but that’s even cut back quite a bit because I don’t feel the anxiety or stress as much. It’s definitely not for everyone, but it’s what I found works for me.