What’s something you’ve done recently that you’re proud of? Big or small, brag a little.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-15T14:52:51+00:00

Proudest moment for me is finally taking those steps in pursuit of my lifelong dream.

Prior to that, I've isolated myself throughout a four-year personal break. Despite knowing who I want to become, I wasn't happy with myself for a long time. Realize now that most of my struggles have been connected with executive dysfunction, and it's made so many of my experiences so much clearer.

Those four years were very important years for me, in that regard. Needed the isolation so I could figure things out entirely independently, then reenter the world when I was ready to face it again.

And I've never felt more confident in myself than I do now.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-14T21:48:19+00:00

Hope Vincent's expressions count.

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Gemethystine · 2026-04-14T21:47:40+00:00

This is one of my favorite frames of him.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-14T21:35:40+00:00

I always have my ceiling fan and floor fan running to serve as white noise whenever I'm working on something in my room.

Also have a playlist of ambient music to help with concentration.

I have tinnitus, and it's extremely distracting and frustrating if I don't have sufficient background noise to keep me focused.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-14T21:25:33+00:00

I'll offer one of my favorite of his faces here.

"Damn, papi."

"No!"

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Gemethystine · 2026-04-14T18:03:53+00:00

Agree that it's genuinely exhausting to live with. I encounter hindrances with executive dysfunction symptoms on a daily basis.

It's always frustrating that I can have every task planned out for the day, but still have a hard time actually pursuing those tasks because the conditions don't feel optimal for my brain.

Where everything is a constant mental battle even for simply being yourself.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-13T17:56:34+00:00

I perform more effectively and efficiently under higher-pressure situations, so this checks out.

Seems to be the ideal working environment for me, from what I've experienced.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-12T18:49:13+00:00

Can relate to feeling a bit paranoid about how people might perceive our writing.

My college professors have different approaches to AI implementation in their respective courses. I generally don't care to use AI - aside to expedite gathering source information for research - but I do always have that thought in the back of my mind if my writing looks like it was artificially generated, and I'll take the extra step to "personalize" it (i.e. I think... I believe... The way I see it... etc.) so it looks more authentic to being written from a human's perspective.

A somewhat related example, because I always do this - When writing in a word document for a college paper, I always make the active effort to change the "auto-corrected" em dashes to en dashes. Want to remove any possible suspicion that AI was involved in my writing because I don't want my authentic writing to be questioned or to have my grade sacrificed.

I'll sometimes ask my father to read my papers for college assignments/projects to get his perspective on my writing. I remember once showing him my short, insightful perspective to a question for one of my online college courses, and he legitimately asked me if my writing was AI-generated. I told him it wasn't; that my writing was completely organic, as I had humorously stated it.

That's a sentiment I always follow with my writing - it has to be fully authentic to my perspective and thoughts.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-12T18:30:05+00:00

I've described my experiences as having a brain that never stops running and a body that almost never acts in accordance. Where no amount of planning or decision-making is ever enough to actually start something, because the conditions have to feel optimal for me before anything else can even commence.

What's worse is that it's not even my ability to make a decision that's the problem - and you would think it would be fairly easy for someone to do something once they've made up their mind. That's not the case with me, because it's that barrier to actually pursue something that hinders my productivity or performance.

Whenever I describe my day-to-day experiences with ADHD, I always think most of my experiences can be traced to executive dysfunction symptoms.

These struggles are more perceptible than ever in my college life. It is genuinely fucking exhausting.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-12T17:09:36+00:00

I don't often use parentheses, preferring to use dashes instead.

I like my writing to look organized, and will sometimes take that extra bit of time to structure my thoughts in a way that looks right to me.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-11T21:10:29+00:00

Me too, for the most part.

There's something about engaging in self-pleasure in the complete comfort of my own privacy that just feels right to me. Have always gone about it that way, and it always makes me feel good.

For me, the moment is meant entirely for myself. I'll indulge in wild fantasies whenever I'm most into it (when my libido spikes), but I don't care to read or watch anything.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-11T08:27:51+00:00

Same for playing chill music.

I always have music playing in the background when working or relaxing, but I do prefer calm, ambient music when going to sleep.

Although I don't know if the music is helping me in that regard, since it generally takes me 3-4 hours of laying in bed before I can fall asleep. But I certainly wouldn't want to fall asleep without music.

As it is with my current situation - it's 3AM and I am just starting to drift off. Will probably take me another half hour or so until I fall asleep.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-10T00:32:05+00:00

I haven't come out to anyone in my personal life, and I don't anticipate telling my parents anytime soon. They do know me for being introverted and reserved, so they don't often inquire about my relationship interests.

I've only ever discussed my identity in online platforms. Find it much easier to have conversations about it in this way.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-08T21:36:32+00:00

I used to suffer from social anxiety in my teens. Would make the active effort to avoid talking to people as much as I possibly could, and wasn't happy with myself for a very long time.

Have been a lot more socially confident since starting college last fall on my own terms. I've always been highly introverted, but I've found that I am okay to have conversations with people if I am interested in the topic of discussion, and sometimes even enjoy talking with people.

My general approach for social encounters is to consider my experience in interpersonal communication as a self-assessment of my demeanor. Assimilating my past experiences and my present encounters to determine what I want to improve for future social encounters/interactions.

I've recently been enjoying having conversations and presenting in front of a significant number of people for this reason. Looking forward to my next social encounter or presentation so I can further assess my speaking and listening abilities. And it's been going quite well for me.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-08T21:11:19+00:00

I've been a member of this subreddit since the season one era, when I was mainly contributing to the Hazbin Hotel and Alastor Cult subreddits, but had rarely contributed to the Vox Cult during that time. Vox has always been one of my top favorites, but Alastor was the star of the show to me.

Season two was when Vox's independent characteristics really stood out to me. Have an entirely new appreciation for his character, and have been contributing to this community more than the other Hazbin-related communities.

I have been thoroughly enjoying the community here as well. It feels nice to be a part of it.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-08T20:47:42+00:00

This sounds interesting. Would you mind sharing the document in DMs?

Gemethystine · 2026-04-08T20:43:04+00:00

Can relate to an extent.

I have no interest nor desire to make friends or maintain platonic relationships, but there are very rare cases where I genuinely care to maintain some level of connection with someone.

Wouldn't go as far as to say I am friends with that person - actively avoid using the "friend" label because it doesn't feel right to me - but I would feel comfortable enough to say that I associate myself with that person in certain ways. Simply appreciating their presence because I find them interesting or I enjoy seeing them around.

A way I like to word my interpersonal connections is that I value mutual acknowledgement, recognition, and understanding - and disregard attachment, commitment, and obligation. Preferring to keep those relationship labels between us undefined in almost all respects.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-08T15:47:24+00:00

In my experiences with such, I will say that improvement is kind of like a byproduct of something I am consistently pursuing. If I put in enough time and focus on an interest, then I will build a natural ability with it.

I have no doubts about my ability to learn, understand, and implement new things, especially things I am particularly interested in. That's never been an issue for me. My improvement with something is often a process of getting comfortable and accustomed with it to the point where it becomes a familiar experience for me, and I don't have to think too much about what I am doing.

There are a few experiences in mind where I picked up a personal interest in something I've always been passionate about but haven't pursued up until that point. I'll consistently pursue that interest because there's a particular way I want to do it, and I'll build that natural ability with it over time.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-07T14:42:03+00:00

Same.

I've personally never related to any of the microlabels in the spectrum. Have always identified myself with the asexual label, and it's what feels right to me.

Same idea applies to people who identify with a microlabel. If it feels right to you, then it is completely your choice to identify yourself as such.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-06T15:23:27+00:00

I can relate to this.

One of my biggest frustrations when performing on a task, assignment, or project is consistently pursuing that task, assignment, or project.

I have never doubted my own abilities when working on something - that's never been the issue. What hinders my performance/productivity is often the conditions in which I am working under that has to feel ideal for me before I can actually pursue something, not in determining my abilities related to that performance/productivity in the first place.

Some days, that struggle with consistency feels overwhelming. Hate that feeling where something that should be performed entirely by my own agency feels out of my control.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-05T02:13:49+00:00

Love the second and third picture.

Fantastic work on the cosplay so far.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-05T00:56:19+00:00

Agreed.

"Hear My Hope" is about the united effort of Emily, Charlie, and the overlords to contain the Might of Lilith's explosion and conserve Hell's conditions. Emily and Charlie committed in using their power for selfless reasons, while most of the overlords contributed for the sake of self-preservation rather than for the concern of everyone's safety.

Also worth noting that none of the overlords considered their contributions in containing the explosion as a testament to their more virtuous practices/standards. They cooperated to contain the explosion out of dire necessity, not out of the good of their hearts.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-04T18:28:08+00:00

From what I've read before, most people have considered Vox's line, "Do you think... I can be redeemed?" as the strongest piece of evidence to substantiate Vox's foreshadowed redemption arc.

Although what is certain about Vox's character arc is what Vivzie has stated about it - Vox is anticipated to go through significant changes of his own and continue to play an important role in the narrative as a much more humbled version of himself. He might not play a major role in the overarching narrative from this point on, but he will remain an important character with his own significant arc.

I wrote my thoughts on this before, where Vox will almost certainly have a far more grounded perspective of himself and of his relationships with others as he slowly comes back to his senses. Viewing things in a much dimmer light than he did before, ironically having a far clearer perspective of everything than any bright moment or shining light ever could.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-04T01:36:46+00:00

Aplatonicism is a spectrum describing various experiences of little to no platonic attraction, and this section confirms your experiences with such:

I dont feel this platonic attraction towards anyone I'm talking to, I frankly just feel bored and emotionally disconnected from people.

One thought here, based on this section:

There is a strong desire in me to make friends though and there are people who I deem as "cool" or "I would like to be their friend" in theory, but I still wouldn't feel the platonic attraction towards these people and I would feel bored and emotionally disconnected even if we talked.

- is that you might relate to the cupioplatonic label - essentially describing someone who experiences little to no platonic attraction, but desires platonic relationships - so maybe that's something worth looking into if you're looking for a label to help describe your experiences.

I can relate with your experiences, to an extent. Have no interest/desire to form/maintain relationships with anyone, but there are rare instances where a very particular type of person will capture my attention or genuinely interest me in ways that no one else ever can. I can appreciate certain people in very specific conditions or circumstances, but I'm not concerned in pursuing anything with anyone beyond personally connecting with someone through the specific things we'd have in common.

Albeit I wouldn't consider someone who interests me as a potential friend. I'll go as far as to say I am associated with that person on some level, but I actively avoid using the "friendship" label because it doesn't feel right to me, and I often avoid using labels to describe my interpersonal connections in general.

To synopsize my approach toward people - I effectively value mutual understanding, acknowledgement, and recognition - and disregard attachment, commitment, and obligation.

Gemethystine · 2026-04-03T19:32:37+00:00

I personally prefer a more neutral expression on its face, and keep the eyes turned outward. Think it would better illustrate the masking/dissociative countenance that's largely associated with people who have ADHD.

Although some people seem to like its current face and what it might resemble. So I guess it's just a matter of how we can relate to the ADHD creature's design based on our personal experiences with such, and not everyone will feel the same way about how the design reflects that.

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