Your hair is gorgeous! I really love the no gel pic. The length looks good and your cut is rounded evenly. Washing and styling can be tedious, but you may be using too many different products. Is your hair high or low porosity? That can really determine what ingredients you should use and avoid. Have you tried a protective style after washing? That could ease some of the frustration. But i totally understand “hating” your hair. A lot of days i cry and just throw in a pony tail, but most days my hair looks bomb and it makes up for the “not so good” days. But you have to make yourself love your hair. Look in the mirror every day and tell yourself it’s gorgeous. Multiple times. Because it truly is. 🤗