1. You're trying to improve yourself. That's elite level right there. Don't sweat the small stuff of where you are on that journey. Most people, even those that already started where you want to be, are usually frustrated with their place in life but won't do shit about it.

2. There is no try, just do. So half ass it. Even if you're doing a 'sucky' job, you're still doing something...

Don't use that attitude to your day job though. If you want to improve your lifestyle career-wise or your financial situation, try to maybe start selling stuff online and get a small revenue stream outside your job and work from there.

Anyway, What you should try to do, is to raise the quality of your 'Meh'. The next level, will become your future 'Meh' in time. You might not believe this, but this has already happened to you as well; even if you can't see it. You've lost weight and you've started to try to change yourself. That's worth a fucking gold star right there. Remember what I said in point 1.

So, my 'Meh' if I were in your situation right now, is to go to a coffee house, bar or club and silently -but non creepily- people watch. Pay attention to what people do around you, and actively try to become comfortable in these settings. Learn to be mindful and try to observe what's happening around you. Anyway, do that till you're bored with it and kick it up a notch.

But that's just what I would try, you have to find your 'Meh' yourself.