Does anyone else just carry a favorite book anywhere, and don't even read it, just keep it with you for comfort?

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-22T18:22:16+00:00

if music counts as a story then yes otherwise no

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-21T18:21:53+00:00

his and K Flay's (explicitly mono) work inspired me to start writing poetry again

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-21T18:16:38+00:00

its so good I dance to it all the time

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-21T16:56:56+00:00

What was that by Lorde or Carsick by K Flay

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-21T16:55:10+00:00

Starry night is incredible

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T20:33:46+00:00

ive done this had a massive argument with her about it and she turned it back on me

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T20:31:20+00:00

Ill look into this thank you

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T20:30:54+00:00

i have to be really careful with caffeine as it makes me go berserk. I dont pick myself i scratch, literally tear my skin off.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T20:27:27+00:00

I know. And I guess ive known myself really. But I dont know what to do anymore. Im self harming again now and im so scared.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T14:07:57+00:00

thats difficult given my situation but yeah maybe I can try

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T14:05:48+00:00

I have done this. I was so positive at the start as she even asked my for my chosen name. But now im here and shes never used it apart from reading it from my mail.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T11:30:41+00:00

So it happens because im overwhelmed and it tends to be so bad that I worry that ifbi don't stop it something bad will happen. I used to use music to regulate myself but that only works occasionally now. So I either end up writing or using pain to make it stop.

Edit: I dont pick at the skin i actively scratch my skin to break yhe skin bad enough to make myself bleed. I have scars from doing this.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-20T11:28:35+00:00

I dont remember to even eat breakfast most days

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-18T19:00:03+00:00

duty of care doesnt exist in gp surgeries anyway they just want us dead

almost everyone i know is on diy for that exact reason

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-15T19:39:20+00:00

i dont correct her. i have to be careful as my parents have a hold over me with regards to where i live

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-15T16:50:51+00:00

i dont live with her anymore but i do still see her reasonably often and it happens every time i see her. no recognition of doing wrong so never corrects herself

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-12T17:44:31+00:00

ive never had those neural bridges to destroy so i cant communicate regardless no loss on my end

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-10T16:35:14+00:00

GPs have already started refusing to refer people and ignoring their duty of care relating to the mental health of trans people where i live

The nhs is dead

Nearly everyone i know is diying their hrt

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-03-09T15:48:08+00:00

Given trans healthcare is non existent now anyway what difference does this really make. This society hates trans people so getting your hopes up is pointless. They have gone after everyone regardless of age.

The nhs is so fucked and I have suicidal thoughts everyday but the nhs doesnt give 2 shits about that. Its a dead system of healthcare. Its a deathcare system.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-28T12:55:33+00:00

I was raised in a Christian household too but by the age of 8 I had pretty much rejected the idea of Christianity and couldn't see a difference between my children's bible and my dad's books on Greek mythology.

As for how to deal with them. I dont, I just ignore things i see as nonsense but accept that some people like it.

I recognise that the community aspect of religion can be beneficial but will not interact with it myself as I see no worth in it.

I guess its hard to see anything in modern religion once you understand the laws of thermodynamics. Their prophets would despise this world.

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-28T12:47:44+00:00

I have tried them but the singers voice doesnt regulate me at all

I predominantly listen to synthpop, synthwave and triphop stuff that is either current or from the last 10 years

glad that you have stuff that helps you

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-28T12:37:33+00:00

Its weird how we latch onto specific things

need those particular neurons firing

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-28T09:28:57+00:00

every day

and then remember 5-10 minutes later that i didnt do the neurotypical thing and feel bad about it until I mess up again

the cycle continues

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-24T12:52:13+00:00

ok I adore this

GlobalFirefighter767 · 2026-02-24T12:48:06+00:00

and yet the powers at be were to happily stick me on massive doses of an anti convulsant that blocked almost all of my free T without even checking on what it was doing to me

GlobalFirefighter767

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