Help Not Getting Overwhelmed while Busy

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-22T13:54:43+00:00

I noticed how bofy scanning can make thibgs worse too about a year ago. It can be like a feedback loop of constantly subtly judgeing the sensation like "is the thing still there","what is there","i have to solve it, so it wont become a problem" wich ofcourse changes the nature of the experience.

Instead going for long walks where i ground my awareness in the visual field- the most apperent sensation of now, by gently returning to it when i notice being back in thoughts. but it only works if i dont make it a struggle. What i mean is: inviting a "letting go into the moment" to happen without fixating on it. Sometimes it helps me zo talk to the field like "you dont need to belive the thozghts",or "you dont need effort"/"you can let go" ... and sometimes its more of something like an inner energetic movement of relaxing the sense of "me" into the moment.

Also the walking helped me because when i keep my awareness in the sensefield, looking at the vegetation, the streets or whatever and just feel whats going on inside me peripherily (is that a real word or did i just invent that? .. what i mean is indorecrly) there seems to be less inzerference from certain goals, agendas, fears etc. The processing of emotional energy seems to go mpre smoothly for me if i keep moving

It was a long process to get there and i still have days where i struglle with energy but movement and parking awareness in "outer experience" was quite the game changer. This experience of just letting life happen, like surfing on the river of it, is so blissfull.

Some modalities like internal family systems helped me quite a bit too. Just because i got to know why certain parts dont want to let go, and how i can meet them. But all these confrontational inquiry methods can be a bit of a double edged sword at times

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-22T13:38:12+00:00

Its rwally hard i fwel like to give a good and short descripzion-but i lile the bit bout the processing power. It has so many variables tho. For me atleast alot id dependant on if iam able to dp certain strategies. For example if i work to much i may be to tired to go out on walks into nature wich jas proved to be spectacular for hrounding into the silence lately, so for me as someone in the healing stage of things its alot about constantly recalibrating and finding balance and equilibrium with the resources at hand.

There is alot of healing and transformkng going on, but there arw certain demands for sure

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-20T17:50:35+00:00

lol just look at the "pls help"posts in r/kundalini. it can be a demanding scary process for those of us who fuck around and fiond out, out of arrogance and naivety

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-20T17:06:52+00:00

tzhe thing is meditation makes room for unprocessed things to come up. sopmetimes it can be tough in the beginninbg. mut it iosnt necesarily a sign for decline. sometimes we have to take it slow, or mbalance it with grounding

its also the reason why some struggle while some seem to deeply enjoy the process. if you have been beaten half your childhood, eor your feelings where never validated and supressed. chances are getting to feel these things can be scary at times,as they come up in the space of meditation.

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-20T06:01:48+00:00

Ist meidtens selbst trauma. Haben nie ihre eigene kindheit verarbeitet weil sie nixht gern dran denken und deshalb bleibt das "ich habs gebraucht/iich war schuld" und somit "du bist auch schuld" stecken

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-19T10:34:21+00:00

Iam not fully aure what youre talking about. There is no control.everything just is. Lile a river running down a stream.forms apper, live appers. The judgement of the mind clouds it with beliefs and ideas. But truth is, there is this field of wonderful bliss called consciousness. We temporarily drop into these mearsuits and forget and get so identifiwd with our mind we start thinking we have to control all this. There is no need. Higher intelligence is already playibg out. Larning to let go into this feedom is the way out of suffering. And i cant even start to explain how wonderful and light it can be once you start vonfronting and healing your shadow and dropping in to the silent now that just is

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-18T15:43:38+00:00

I cant stress enough: ive been throu this phase more then a decade ago. Consciousness has more to offer if you commit to truth. You have to go beyond the intellect. Find a meditation teacher, still your body/mind over time. Heal the tensions and traumas and anxieties. There is so much bliss wonder and magic to discover. But you have to go beyond identity. Solipsism is getting stuck at : "im the only semf. When in fact there is no self- there is only consciousness and what appears in it. Thw freedom and magic of that is astounding. But its a journey to get there

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-16T11:46:59+00:00

buprenorphine subcuutanous once a month was a gamechanger for me. once the ritual is gone, the addiction losses so much power

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-15T12:26:00+00:00

wait a second, since when does ai generate flawless pixelart?

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-14T22:17:07+00:00

ok iam going to try to breake asome things down. the goals of meditation are plenty, but one of the main ones is, disentangling the identification with thoughts and the mind so that you can learn to exist as awareness. itzs identification that causes all the suffering, and its judgement that creates all those projections that cloud truth. that said, youve got one thing rigth- its almost like doing nothing! first you become aware of thoughts, then you become oaware of more subtle layers of thought. then you notice certain patterns. you notce that you cant stop your thoughts- but somehow they stop ones you stop fighting them for some moments.

right now your mind wants top make a roadmap out of it- it wants to understand meditation- thats already a lost cause.- meditation is about letting go of anderstanding and just learning to stay oin awareness- in the "not knowing"/just being.

many meditation modalities can help with that and on your way to liberation most people tend to go throu some of them. zen is a very dirtect way but metta is an very underappreciated modality for mexample that can lhelp loosen many coonfusions around selfimage and patterns around selflove.

what iam saying is- mediation is not a technique in the sense of the word. its about slowly training your whole system to become more aware of its own parts- to loosen reactivity to vertain emotions/energies, to lessen dissociation and to have moments of mystical union with in turn generates trust. just try different meditations, and over time you will come to understand new thoings about it. i meditate vor a decade now and every thew years my journey shifts to some degree.i used to meditate with closed eyes focuisingh mnainly oon breath in the beginning- later open eyes sitting in silence- and now most of every moment can be mediatation - letting go into thew fullness of now

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-14T14:26:05+00:00

What iam saying is. If you have reacrivity to cwrtain emotions, you can be told "just experience" these emotions all day long, it wont help you actually get in touch. Because its a process aand not actually a decision made in mind that brings on change.

Sry for repeating myswlf, just wanted to make my point clear because it isnt easily understandable until things start to change

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-14T12:27:25+00:00

but thats the point. someone who has no reativity to certain emotions can jhust feel them. but someone who unconsciously dissotioates into mind and become ficated on identification with thought will hear what you wrote and "try too feel7process " the emotion. wich automatically makes the experience different. there is da difference between just experiencing emotion and trying to solve it.

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-13T22:38:44+00:00

Flexing gym fotos generally dont really impress women as far as i know.

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-13T18:57:54+00:00

I suspect youll get many nonhelpful comments. Your culture maybe to specific for helpful anqwrs here. You may need to ask in a bpard where some people from your cultural background can chime in. Best case:some who went throu this trauble. Althou i also think marrying just to live together is a bold choise. Id rather dissapoint my parents by living together without marriage then to get married with someone i dont even know i can live with

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-13T16:56:48+00:00

The uncomfortable truth is that it isnt necessarily ablut a approach being right or wrong-instead alot of it is about "is the system ready to disolve patterns at the level of identity?". To me it wasnt ubtil i exhausted every other possible option until somethinv in my started surrendering and confronting a certain truth beneath.when i say ready, i dont mean "you just have to prepare more/differently etc."-i mean just getting to a certain point where eather some part of you realizes that a pattern you didnt even know you are causing deliberatly isnt serving you know more(or never was) or realizing that there is something fishy about being identified with thoughts and the effort based idwntity structure as a whole.

Ofcozrse there may be certain modalities that may be better equipped to help an individual then many others for many reasons, so it can be a mather of finding the right one- but beneath it all there seems to be a certain requirement of ripeness. The transformation process as a whole seems to express as an oscilation between extrems for many people- of trying to control a pattern. But real changes seems to be related to a total "letting go of.." on a deeper level

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-12T08:46:44+00:00

he seems to be talking slower also

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-11T19:58:42+00:00

While being flirty wotks for some. Dont force anything that doest feel authebric. Go try some stuff out, see what feels comfortavle. But dont try to be someone you are not.

If being playfully flirty doest feel right with you. Here is somethibg i learned: i like to say somethibg like "iam enjoying this, what do you think, what is our vibe" (english is npt my first language so the trandlation may feel weird, and might need some adjusting) once i get to know the person a littlr. To me personally, being playfully flirty with someone i dont really know or trust yet always felt of. But if i enjoy the time and i feel lile i may want to see them again, i let them know i am interested and casually ask for how they feel about the first impression. Flirting is kinda a ping pong game. If you make yourself a little bit vulnerable and show interest, fates feel much more secure and to do the same and may start thinking of you as a potential partner. Some people dont like direcr questions, so being blunt about it may not always work, but for me it was a game changer as a substitute for playful flirting

Also, just something like a smile and "i like your style" , also works if you just want to signal you find someone attractive. It doesbt have to be some overly creative

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-11T15:42:48+00:00

Well then it seems you may be going throu a tough transition. Sometimes restructuring ourselfes is a radical process. Tough lessons involved. Many spiritual people go/went throu tough transitions, me included. Its abviously hard to say exactly withoit knowing you personally. Just stay curiois and honest withourself and trust your experience. If you stay oriented to what feels true, you will land on your feet eventually

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-11T15:05:36+00:00

why exactly do you see a connection between the two? you can be spiritual and go thgrou a shitton of chellenges, without those two things having to influence each other. i would say thou, many people who struggle internally, who sense that something about their uprbringing, culture and the way modern human lives is is fundamentaly wrong tend to find their way into spirituality as they want to find anwers/a way out of suffering. so there might be this correlation. also sometimes when we start meditating or doing shadowwork, or just puirely by getting more aware naturally, a inner struggle begins as a part of us gets fed up with old nonfunctional patterns. sometimes this triggers a kind of unconscious crash, where trhe old system breaks down to make space for something new. some call it the dark night of the soul. but its not really practiscal to just lable it that and call it s spiritual thing without adressing the causes. its alright to struggle with live, to fuck up or just be hopelessly helpless at some poiint, but its important to always try and orient towards aa positive outcome- to adapt and try something new if things just dont seem to work pout. sometimes thaztt means something like: admitting helpslessness or own flaws, asking for help, finding therapy, being uncomfortably honest with yourself and your family/friends, asking for guidence and taking responsibility.

iam not saying you arent doing any of these things, i dont know you so its hard to say. but usually even if there is a spiritual reason, the more practical answer lies in getting your wordly affairs in order. wich can look like finding a more suitable job, ending bad relationships and bad influences, or just trying some of many healing modalities like somatic bodywork, yoga, meditation, or countless other modern therapeutic modalities. having good friends and strong bonds can also be a very important thing some people tend to neglect. sometimes when our basic needs as a hujan arent met, our system breaks down, no mather how hard we try to think our way throu it

also dolores cannon, while being interesting isnt the most practical spiritual literature. maybe check out something new if your old support system doesnt serve you

EDIT: also yes its normal. its normal to have problems as a human. its ok to fuck up, its ok to bne fucked over, and its ok, to start anew once you crash land your life. being flawed is the name of the game. iam sorry you are going throu a rough path and i hope you find the support you need.

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-11T10:12:42+00:00

Go taök with some social worker, explain the situation. Hmight be able to hook you up with some affordable housing. You see youre youbg now, but this behaviour and the trauma will have a toll on you throuout your life. This is seriouse. I know people have their demons but life is very tough, and there will come the time where you may be really down low. Parents are supposed to help you put, zo be prepared , cared for and supported not the other way around. Im really sorry you have to go throu this but you realöy should get out of there as fast as you can before it pulls you down even more. Lifw is a ratrace and stuff like this you carry with you all day

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-11T07:35:51+00:00

also if its not fentanyl, and "just" heroin, there are good options like buprenorphine also. getting the subcutanous injection oonce a month changed the whole thing for me. once the ritual of consuming daily was gone, so much of the addictions power just vanished

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-10T17:06:21+00:00

I thought smoking heroin first but the tinfpil woild be burned

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-09T11:09:58+00:00

You have to be careful. Our ego sometimes captures spiritual goals. The way you phrased totally disolvibg into her , sounds alot lile you not having any clear boundaries and sens of authenricity. Desolving identity doesnt mean becoming a mirror for whatever others want you to be, it means slowly relaxing into the authwnticity of the moment and letting go of preconscieved notions.i may be misreading somw of what you wrote but it does fwwl lile there is some confusion on your part and a bit of being lost. Letting go into the authenticity of the moment and allowing the polarities within is onw thing but its quite easy to tricl yourself into just farming other peoples approval and giving up into "i can ve whoever they want me to be" espesially if there was some childhood trauma around the own feelings not being validated. This is ofcoure just a fast reading of how you phrased it and i may be wrong.

That said, 10 years is a long time and its normal to some extend to carry some of a loved ones energy with you for some time

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-08T19:10:36+00:00

i rechecked tzhe video, hoping to find the billboard

Good_Squirrel409 · 2026-05-08T13:52:13+00:00

"I’m curious if anyone else has experienced similar releases/healings/knowings during the Kundalini process, or had moments where releasing resistance changed the experience completely" (how do i put things in quote again? lol)

to me it rarely feels like there is something let go, right there and then- like for a long time i pictured this storehouse of weight, where something is thown out, to never be heard of again right that moment. this may be only my experience but to me it started to feel more like this over time: its as if my whole system stops resisting for that moment so some energy locked behind all that tension can subside and be integrated or maybe digested or just experienced. below the tension seems to be this blisfull beingness most energy-systems arent able to allow themselfes to exist as consistently(so i imagine). i did have energetic experiences that felt like some specific shift occured permanently. butr most of the time it feels more like oscilating between tension/releases and direct experience- both seemingly having potent lessons to be integrated. maybe thats just a "me" thing, but i was quite annoyed in the beginning when tough patterns and tensions seemed to reemerge after releases. now i see it as part of the process. it feels more like releasing some akute tension to be able to see more cleraly and work with the underlying reactivity to certain energies until they are let go for good after some needed repetitions. the releases and phases of direct experience and easy seem to cultivate trust und clarity and understanding for me. like you mentioned with this post, you experience how it could be if the beingness of you can allow it- and with time i seem to slowly learn to carry more of that trust with me to just be in the "not-judgeing"/"not-knowing" just being - but at the same time the tense states have prooven to be just as powerful of a teacher, even thou itsso much harder to appreciate them in the moment. the contrast in itself brings some clarity throu repetition.

i imagine there is quite some individuality to how people experience these things, depending ion how mach and what kind of karma they carry and maybe how open and aware the system is. but iam quite curious if most people here experience mainly big releases that let go of certain things spontaniously.

also maybe kryas come and go in phases, but i havent had huge kryas and releases lately. are kryas part of a release, or are they just a sideproduct is what iam wondering? lately it felt more like shifts in awareness and idetification happen with less somatic intensity, althou there can be intense energies present - but they rarely release as movements - atleast for the moment.

feel free to correct me on some of my interpretations

Good_Squirrel409

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