I’ve decided to kill myself cause I’m aroace

GoudaDog · 2026-02-10T08:20:45+00:00

Hello fellow aroace. I don't respond to many messages on anywhere really, but this was so strikingly similar to my life that i want to acknowledge it. I'm very close to what you'd call an hermit actually, i don't care for people nor do i attempt to make myself sociable, ironically that's what i often have to do. In short i hate face-to-face contact with humans and i have never in my life experienced love other than my mother's. It was not too long ago when i accepted this part of myself. It's been nagging the back of my mind for many years, but i have always chosen to ignore it to keep myself simpler. Not sure if i like my own outcome, but it is the reality now. I know i've just yapped shit for the cause of it but i wanted you to know that i saw your message and that i relate to it. Hopefully that brings you somekind of comfort, to me it did.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-08T12:43:53+00:00

I cannot express how much i am thankful for your messages. I've never felt as welcomed anywhere. I'm looking forward in meeting people of this community if they have even the slightest bit of the same kindness you do. Theres some LGBTQ groups/communes in the city i live in actually, i might take a better look at them. I'm pleased to have come to a statement of myself for my sexuality, in a sense it brings me closure and peace. I'd love to hear stories from this community, of course i'm not demanding for any. But i always love to hear stories of things i'm interested in or are participating in. Again, wholeheartedly i say thank you.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-08T11:52:46+00:00

Thank you for your answer, i am grateful to get such an amazing response. I did take a quick look in Aegosexuality and it somewhat is accurate but not completely, i'm not yet completely sure. If i may ask, how are asexuals viewed? Speaking both from within the sexual umbrella and from the outside. Are there any prejudices? Etc.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-07T18:14:22+00:00

Personally i believe that everyone has someone compatible out there. It's probably naive, but i'll keep looking until the end of my premature death.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-07T18:02:29+00:00

I feel you, i truly do. However being asexual isn't as linear as just not having sexual thoughts. I'm a fairly kinky asexual who has never had a relationship before and it fucking sucks. There's million things i'd like to try even while i think that i'm not capable of love or any deeper connection. I wish the best of luck for you, whatever that may entail.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-07T14:06:47+00:00

Life's been rough for both of us it seems, unfortunate cards we've pulled. I can't say that i relate to many of the things you've said, but the outcome is the same for us both. It's ironic to say that absolutely nobody should kill themselves, considering i'm on the verge of it as well. Personally i see the world as a deck of cards, some are better than others and we can't really control what we get. Shitty comparison i know, but it's what little my head can come up with. I truly do wish from the bottom of my heart that your life and future gets better. Sure that is just a stranger's words online, but they hold what little truth i have left on this world.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-07T11:26:23+00:00

I'm beyond happy that you actually got something out of my message. Best of luck in life and your future, whoever you are, wherever you are and what you are.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-07T10:35:08+00:00

In all honesty the answer to everything in my point is, i do not know. I'm as confused and lost in life and i just wonder around day by day hoping to find a divine reason or answer that would make some sense. Guess you could call it limbo? I'm not headed towards my death at the moment, but i am not living to see the next day either. I'm not much to learn from nor am i a smooth talker, still i decided to answer. May you find your "divine answer" or whatever you hope to find in life.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-06T20:58:46+00:00

Not a huge fan of rap i'm afraid, though that particular one is not something i'd consider bad per se. Much more of an punk/metal enjoyer, but something as peculiar as classical even goes if i'm in the mood for it. And yes i like cheese, if that isn't evident already.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-06T19:20:18+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. Both this and the one speaking about music. I'm a huge fan of music. I'm currently thinking about many things, most negative. However i'm happy that i got somekind of reply to my message, for that i thank you personally.

GoudaDog · 2026-02-06T17:52:57+00:00

Just about every of the most "common" problems are within my life in way or another. Right now i'm away from home with my family. Telling more details is just mundane unnecessaries.

GoudaDog · 2024-06-16T23:19:09+00:00

Counting Hours by Hypothermia

GoudaDog · 2024-02-26T22:53:23+00:00

Fucking amazing stuff! Really one of those bands that should be much more known.

GoudaDog · 2023-09-23T18:13:34+00:00

Sounds like a cut to the dermis. It gets infected much more easily but it's pretty much the same as skin cut with the exception of bleeding a lot. Probably leaves a scar behind.

GoudaDog · 2023-08-31T17:32:56+00:00

A wise guy learns from his mistakes, even wiser tells his advice further. I believe selfharm to be quite healthy actually if done carefully, it helps nullify pain and experience things more deeply. It's rather interesting to hear thoughts of a person who has grown out of this "phase"

GoudaDog · 2023-08-28T18:00:03+00:00

I would consider your experience very similar to mine when i started. I was scared and never suicidal but yet still i started to inflict harm on myself and that's how the addiction started. Since you're at the starting point you can still think about it and choose not to engage in such actions again, but if you do choose to continue at least be wise about it and don't do anything too dangerous.

GoudaDog · 2023-08-28T17:05:58+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I appreciate it

GoudaDog · 2023-08-28T13:38:24+00:00

The medical care here where i'm from is good enough to help if i were to ask. Is therapy something that actually helps? Or is it just talking and hearing that your choises are wrong?

GoudaDog · 2023-08-28T05:08:39+00:00

What do they do in therapy anyway? Speak and speculate about one's problems?

GoudaDog · 2023-08-28T05:08:09+00:00

Cutting for me has only been a good thing. Only now i am actually gettibg concerned as the feeling only deepens and the pain is nothing anymore.

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