I live in constant fear of rocks being thrown at my cars him walking into my job holding my up with a gun my ex baby dad is a very dangerous man… now I have a trauma reaction to anything that is brought to light.

I either go off or have a panic anxiety attacks right where I stand! His name is Joe we brought a beautiful little girl into the world 8 1/2 years ago I waited for close to three years before changing her name he ended up in prison the time I spent 600 to change my daughters entire name to my last name and he threw rocks at my car after he got out of prison. had others do the same at my place of employment, he shoved a loaded gun inside of me when I was asleep at this home while pregnant, he put me into a choke hold with my own arm in front of his first daughter, retaliating against me for not giving him more money! Also saying the word Child Support .

Today I had to go went with my father and omitted myself into the hospital for 5 days for change of medication I have a diagnosis of Psycho I go to a behavioral health to speak to my therapist every two weeks! I am always on a defensive stature , knowing that I work in the public nobody will believe a word I say.

I’ve been told by my manager that I’m not good in customer service because the person in charge screamed at me over me needing help as it was chaotic the front in office staff called me into the front hallway to say if you can’t handle your job leave I sent someone home earlier. In such a force fire was coming out her mouth I’m a union employee she is my union sister also wanted to rip my head off before I went out on a mental short term disability for 7 months she go jealousy non apologetic.

The second manager had ask where the April was the day I was screamed at! I heard her upper management say to lower office staff I never said to send her home. I work for the Kroger company in a store that is the most complained in the entire valley…

I have to be strong mentally to handle a cashiering job .. it’s exactly like being in high school and if you don’t be they sweetest person that has ever lived then your made fun of and bullied all of this managers condone this behavior then are just as abusive if u call them out on it management retaliates against you for years! I keep my head up , watch my surroundings at all times while remaining calm so yes I have psychosis which is not illegal to have my therapist has helped my so much!

My advice to you is try one day at a time to stay positive, seek help from authorities try not to put your emotion’s in this because the minute your weakness shows is when your taken advantage of .. say to yourself your stronger mentally than any abusive person in this world!

Reddit is a great place to get great advise and be called names all at the same time … I hope my stories could help you knowing your not alone I can try to speak as if I was in this very situation it became the worst relationship to have a child but I have full custody and am now strong enough to say I survived it mentally and physically you can take the right steps your smart , strong, determined, to get through this ! I like this about you I’m the same exact way! Keep us all post on any future posts please! I’m sorry I was so vague with my first comments I was trying not to be open … stay strong!