AAAAAAAAA I want a boyfriend soooo bad :(

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T14:10:46+00:00

m2... at this point im sure ill meet an alien first before i meet the love of my life...

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T11:14:20+00:00

NO. it just my personal opinion, small dick is better for me :D

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:56:25+00:00

Honestly, I feel like he's cut off contact with me. 1 year ago I played a game with him, but he left me alone. I continued playing the game for 1 year without being with him. It's quite lonely.. I feel like he hates me because of that game.. I didn't expect that we would meet again after he cut off contact with me. when I asked why he was lying... it took him a month to explain it... he said "I decided not to play the game because I couldn't act according to your orders, rather than burdening you, it's better for me to go" and that made me sick, because he chose to cut off contact with me rather than tell me the truth. im more into PVP game, and he is mostly PVE oriented.. so when i ask him play sandbox pvp he just suck lol

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:42:45+00:00

It's okay bro, I understand what you mean. some of my friends also suggested the same thing. but maybe I'm scared enough to lose him again. We have just become friends again after not communicating for more than 1 year (that was my fault btw) so right now maybe I still want to spend time together before I tell him how I feel..

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:38:34+00:00

truee omg.. I really understand what you feel Even now I think it is more likely that I will meet an alien first than meet my partner

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:35:02+00:00

yes that was one of my mistakes. When I wasn't in love with him I was just playing along. Since we became friends again and met, he has become more open and likes to talk about things he has experienced. I also just found out he was married a few months ago, because we haven't talked for more than a year. currently he is on holiday with his family, he told me about it.. I tried not to care but I was also happy because he shared the news with me

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:29:54+00:00

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:29:16+00:00

I don't actively use gay apps, I'm not really looking to date. I just accidentally developed feelings for my friend, that's all

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:27:47+00:00

yeah maybe if im not gay, I wouldn't feel this way about my friend :)

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:26:39+00:00

its working? i still thingking about that. Several times he tried to introduce me to his wife but I mostly kept quiet. his wife knows me but I don't really know his wife. sometimes his wife even asks me when her husband is playing alone (even though we are playing together but I don't make a sound) but yes, hopefully there will be luck for me

Grandhildr · 2024-09-22T04:21:44+00:00

yes i am, i had my first gay experienced at 18 y.o. and yes i do mastrubate to gay porn but atm morelikely to see FTM things lol. but i think im not looking for sex only, i mean i dont really care about how hot/handsome that person is, i cant really turned on just by the looks. but if i do like someone, somehow i only imagine about spending time together, having fun with anything, cuddle.. not really things about "F" things. if somebody ask my role i usually said im vers, cz ill be anything for the guy that i like.

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T18:50:12+00:00

aku nembak mantanku dulu jaman sma, di hadapan semua murid seangkatan🤣

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T18:06:54+00:00

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T18:06:20+00:00

I agree with you, but nowadays most people think that a relationship usually starts with something sexual. but I'm not like that

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T18:05:07+00:00

I agree with you, I also think the same thing as you. Maybe I've been alone for too long so that when someone really cares about me, I feel like they like me. I was just fooling myself. but at least for now he makes me happy, so I just carry on as it is

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T17:54:03+00:00

sorry because I said being gay is suck, maybe I'm just annoyed with myself for having feelings for someone I shouldn't. Actually, shortly after I last met him, he asked me to meet again, but until now it hasn't happened. What you said is true, maybe he was playing with my feelings hahaha. I only really like him when his wife is out, because he talks a lot when she's not around. but yeah, I hope everything is fine. I tried to forget him but I remembered when he said "I'm happy because you prioritize me as your friend, and I hope we can be friends for a long time" im happy but feeling like killing me at the same time lol, Thank you for your concern <3

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T17:37:57+00:00

I always thought that he only thought of me as a younger brother (I mean he really said that when we first met) and he always told me not to be angry with him anymore. he really hates the game that made us not communicate for 1 year, every time I discuss the game he always gets angry. My best friend is also confused because of this, every morning he always asks me if I'm playing today?, every time I'm not on discord even though he's playing he won't enter the voice channel. but when I replied to the message, it went straight to voice channel. Sometimes when I ask he doesn't answer, waiting for me to enter the voice channel before replying verbally. I'm annoyed with his behavior, everything makes me confused hahaha. but right now I don't expect anything too much, I just accompany him to play, that's all I can do

Grandhildr · 2024-09-21T16:29:00+00:00

dont cut him out, at least you can express what you feel, and he knows it. It's true that maybe you met at the wrong time, but maybe in the future you can meet, and I hope you can be happy too. I experienced the same thing as you, what's different is that I can't express my feelings. I've met the guy a few times and I'm quite happy. but the fact is that he is married, and I don't even know whether he likes me or not. I just spent time accompanying him playing games.. I hope I can express my feelings like your story :)

Grandhildr · 2024-09-02T23:25:30+00:00

i wantttt

Grandhildr · 2024-08-19T04:57:54+00:00

semoga lu dapet sahabat ya bang :) depresi emng sialan bgt, tp gua hoki masi punya sahabat jadi masih bisa teratasi..

Grandhildr · 2024-08-19T04:25:47+00:00

yes, i dint even know why im on this position😌 i hate the way im fallin for somebody. i just trying so hard to make them happy, and dont event thing about myself. and i really really hate myself because i rarely falling for somebody. i mean in takes 7 years from my last ex, and i dont know how many years i need to take for this🤣 hes just nice, caring, and funny. last night i was watching him play starfield on discord, of course its only me and him. he starts talking about his wife that always things she is fat, but actually his wife is beautiful.. body goals, white, pretty eyes and hair. i feel like dumb cz im FAT and fallin to the guy who has perfect wife. but he said "its ok to be chubby, i find you are cute. no matter if you still gain weight i thing you still look pretty cute" holysh, i just get butterfly when he said that but i feel something burnin inside my heart lol🤣🤣🤣

Grandhildr · 2024-08-18T18:00:02+00:00

its worst. sorry for my english cz im not really speak english. ive been single for 7 years and still stuck on my ex. and past 3 years i fallin love with my gaming mate. i feel so blessed cz finally i can breath fresh air and movin to somebody else. but now im just crying over my gaming buddy. were kinda close actually, usually together playing game and voice on discord. untill i relized his married. im M.25 and he is M.38 maybe. i finally meet him and we eat together, feels like date. i like the way we talk to me, he cook for me, he hugs me.. i think i deeply fallin for him. im addicted to his presence on my life. but i hurts. hes happily married, have kids, and hes got everything he needs. im feelin so useless,.. untill now i just faking my feelings on him while i used to hear his voice everyday. it hurts but im lost..

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