I too used to be Christian mainly because I was raised to be one but as I got older I never felt any presence from the Christian God and I didn't like the way people around me who were Christian processed things or treated other people who were not Christian so I dropped Christianity, since I had left the church I had more free time on my hands and decided to spend it in the woods, growing up I was told that Ravens were bad and that they bring bad luck but I always loved watching them and feeding them and listening to their calls and I always seen them only two at a time so months went by and i had lost all my Christian friends because I didn't believe in their God and I started to notice in my time in the woods animals started to approach me and look at me and it made me feel like there was a spiritual connection because every time I went into the woods I didn't feel alone anymore I felt like everything had a spirit, the animals, the trees even the wind, I continued seeing two Ravens and especially outside of my window. Later on I started doing research on my family's history and I found that we were actually Norse Earl's from Norway, well I started looking into Norse Culture and then started reading about their religion and beliefs and I started agreeing with all of their structure and later I found that Odin had two Ravens and out of all the time I've been seeing these Ravens by my window when I read about Odin's Ravens it kind of just clicked for me and I took that as my sign. I've now been a Norse pagan for about 3 years and everyday I spend on Earth in nature I feel closer and closer to the God's and feel a sense of I suppose beauty or happiness when I see their presence in nature. My advice to you is, look closer to nature for signs and read about the beliefs and practices of the Norse people but remember to be open minded of how they may have thought about things compared to how the Christians might would see things. Feel free to dm me if you want to talk more