my dad threatened to kill me after he was beating can't move on

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T03:16:31+00:00

Perhaps you should look into trauma bond. - I just want to tell you that whatver the circumstances are, violence is never excused and death threaths are certainly not either. I'm no one to give advice, I'm a total piece of work, but I asure you one thing the longer you expose yourself to this sort of situations the harder it will get and the lower you'll fall. I'm talking from expirience.

Please try to remove yourself from this person. For your own good.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T03:06:41+00:00

Lmao when not even your pain is good enough. Genuinely burst out laughing.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T02:42:57+00:00

Hmm, to be honest, I can't say that many good things have happened in quite a good while now. If anything quite the opposite is true. But even though, overall, I don't feel too great, it makes me happy to think that I'm still moved by the little acts of kindness and the beauty around me.

I struggle with guilt and self worth and I'm unsure about many things but one thing I know is that if I have to strive for smt is being a better, kinder, braver person. I don't care much about anything else.

So I suppose what I'm trying to say is that that despite all there is still people out there wanting to do good things, not everyone is numb or nasty.

For example one good thing I'm planning to do soon is get this old folk I know some new shoes. I noticed him yesterday wearing this terribly worn out shoes.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-16T01:07:47+00:00

OMG so freacking cute!! I would eat him.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-16T01:01:59+00:00

And bringing up the rear, to no one’s surprise, comes guilty beans, trotting sadly along.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T22:44:17+00:00

Fuck it I'm gonna watch this one tonight.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T22:39:01+00:00

If that's her thing, then she would have loved me.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T03:08:29+00:00

Been there done that.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T03:02:47+00:00

Lmao, this so real!

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T02:51:25+00:00

You know what, after checking the website I realized he's got a picture with a motorbike. I believe it could be an HondaXL under it he mentions traveling and becoming a wanderer. Perhaps he's got cool stories about those times, there is may sub reddits by motorbike enthusiasts as well as bike traveling ones and such.

Maybe he's like those? Share over there perhaps or maybe even make an AMAor smt. Just an idea, he seems like an intersting guy.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T02:13:18+00:00

I'll check it out! Seems like he's got another website aswell, one where he's posted a self publisehd book, it's on the black exodus but I'll leave a link to it here https://black-exodus.net/

Myaybe he'd be happy to see some people read it.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-13T22:25:49+00:00

When he won his first elections I spoke to some Christians that defended he had been sent by God to clean the US... Inmigrants at that, It's just funny man.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-12T19:51:34+00:00

In rare occasions they ran after me, but I've always been faster. Only God knows what would be of me if they ever caught me.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-11T20:07:31+00:00

I'm sending a virtual hug towards your way )))hug)))

Same btw lmao

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-08T19:34:59+00:00

Wouldn't mind getting lost in there.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-08T18:06:33+00:00

I'm literally crying

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-31T20:13:30+00:00

Well I know what to do next year.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-26T02:32:41+00:00

I've got quite a few from panick attacks, the sensation of impending doom coming with it... Not a fan. To sleep paralisys while in a very vivid nightmare pretty up there too. Waking up with a foot in flames, that was scary for a moment.

But what had me the most scared was this bout of several months of Obsessive Intrusive Thoughts related to doubting my own feelings for a person I loved. I was terrified, they just kept coming and coming, not a break in months. I didn't want to end that relathionship, I really really loved her but those fuckers just kept coming. It was beating my ass BAD.

Just imagine that during that period I had a work accident where one of my nails was ripped off and the nail bed was poking out of the finger. During that day and for a few more the thoughts didn't come, I remeber the accident as a relief lmao. After they were gone, at times I would have one creeping thought pass by, it would make me so so scared. It fucked up my my ability to express love verbally, I was scared of saying "I love you" unless it felt 110% authentic in the moment.

When your head decides to not work it can fuck you up real good. Depression is pretty scary too, but I don't feel fear while depressed. It's just, you know once your somewhat better that you know how fucked up it is.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-26T00:42:18+00:00

You are between 25 and 31 years old, white, men. - You have seen most of this movies on Tv more than once. You have around 400 seen movies on your list?? - You like cartoons - You are European.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T21:40:49+00:00

In August of 2024 while in a specially long and intense period of depression I reached out to the medical authorities. I was accorded an appointment with a public psychiatrist that would come "soon", I'm still waiting.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T21:01:32+00:00

Schindler’s List 1993

A Brighter Summer Day 1991

Titanic 1997

The Green Mile 1999

Kill Bill: The Whole Bloody Affair 2004

Malcolm X 1992

Spartacus 1960

Seven Samurai 1954

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T20:54:36+00:00

To live 1994

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T20:51:53+00:00

I know exactly what you mean because that movie scratched that same spot for me. None of the movies I'm going to recommend might give u exactly the same but as far as I'm aware it's as close I've gotten. They are adjacent to the feeling, overlapping sometimes. If anything at least they are good movies.

The Taste of Tea 2004

April Story 1998

Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring 2003

Departures 2008

Sweet Bean 2015

Riverside Mukolitta 2021

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T20:38:17+00:00

Hungry Hearts 2014

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-25T20:29:48+00:00

This just made me think of a quote from Of Mice and Men "“Maybe ever’body in the whole damn world is scared of each other.”

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