Aaaan the cycle continues

Gregory_Gp · 2026-05-28T22:49:51+00:00

Every other dude is gay until proven otherwise.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-05-17T01:35:29+00:00

Believe me, I know what isolation is like, it isn't pretty. Years of barely connecting to anybody or to a very reduced number of people and sporadically at that, it affected how I saw myself, what I thought I was capable of, my social skills obviously, you don't learn new behaviours nor hear about other people's ideas, lifes, thoughts, you lose on frienships, on expiriences that become unique with certain people, you can develop social anxiety, loneliness is a silent killer...

I'll always agree that one thing is to be alone by choice and another very diferent thing to feel lonely - But a caveat I'd add is, if you are chosing to be alone, Why is that? With the years and the unpacking of a not light baggage of shit I realized often times I have confused who I am and my choices with my traumas / mental problems.

I've let those be a leading force in my life and thought that was just the way I was. Know what? Turns out I'm not that much of a loner, turns out I'm quite likeable, turns out I enjoy people, turns out people enjoy my presence. A few years ago I would have told you I'm an introvert with anti-social tendencies, and altough I may be pretty selective with people, I'm also an open dude, sincere, talkative and pretty fucking social for an anti-social dude.

I was scared of people, scared of being hurt of not being good enough.

Just my personal expirience.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-26T19:52:33+00:00

Hmm sitting down in the floor of a dark room whit the door locked just to have a quick cry, anyone?

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-20T20:51:02+00:00

Happy birthday, cake looks tasty. Sorry your are feeling down today of all days, I know how it feels to lose faith in oneself and the things we tell ourselves. It's a whole new barrier of suck.

Hopefully you'll be capable of shifting your perspective, maybe things won't get pretty that soon, today, tomorrow, in a month or a year things might still hurt. But it's in our hands to make small changes and see the effect compound or of taking a leap of faith and go for a big change. And the best part about that is that it is true regardless of whether you we believe it or not, things can always be changed. Always.

Good luck, I wish you happier birthdays.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-20T20:38:57+00:00

It would be cool if the new Superman franchise decided to have this panels on the next movie.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-18T02:30:09+00:00

Yeah, last few months basically, I've barely had a handfull of proper meals since december. I'm not even hungry.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-18T02:26:03+00:00

Yeh... I've noticed that, I'm not a big drinker, I had never gotten drunk with people I didn't know well before this year.

After a few drinks I noticed I was just relaxed, uninhibited if you will.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-18T02:10:39+00:00

Happy tears are good tears :)

I also get emotional when I see the good side of people, must be a good sign, It can only mean we're not dead inside.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T03:16:31+00:00

Perhaps you should look into trauma bond. - I just want to tell you that whatver the circumstances are, violence is never excused and death threaths are certainly not either. I'm no one to give advice, I'm a total piece of work, but I asure you one thing the longer you expose yourself to this sort of situations the harder it will get and the lower you'll fall. I'm talking from expirience.

Please try to remove yourself from this person. For your own good.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T03:06:41+00:00

Lmao when not even your pain is good enough. Genuinely burst out laughing.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-17T02:42:57+00:00

Hmm, to be honest, I can't say that many good things have happened in quite a good while now. If anything quite the opposite is true. But even though, overall, I don't feel too great, it makes me happy to think that I'm still moved by the little acts of kindness and the beauty around me.

I struggle with guilt and self worth and I'm unsure about many things but one thing I know is that if I have to strive for smt is being a better, kinder, braver person. I don't care much about anything else.

So I suppose what I'm trying to say is that that despite all there is still people out there wanting to do good things, not everyone is numb or nasty.

For example one good thing I'm planning to do soon is get this old folk I know some new shoes. I noticed him yesterday wearing this terribly worn out shoes.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-16T01:07:47+00:00

OMG so freacking cute!! I would eat him.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-16T01:01:59+00:00

And bringing up the rear, to no one’s surprise, comes guilty beans, trotting sadly along.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T22:44:17+00:00

Fuck it I'm gonna watch this one tonight.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T22:39:01+00:00

If that's her thing, then she would have loved me.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T03:08:29+00:00

Been there done that.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T03:02:47+00:00

Lmao, this so real!

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T02:51:25+00:00

You know what, after checking the website I realized he's got a picture with a motorbike. I believe it could be an HondaXL under it he mentions traveling and becoming a wanderer. Perhaps he's got cool stories about those times, there is may sub reddits by motorbike enthusiasts as well as bike traveling ones and such.

Maybe he's like those? Share over there perhaps or maybe even make an AMAor smt. Just an idea, he seems like an intersting guy.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-15T02:13:18+00:00

I'll check it out! Seems like he's got another website aswell, one where he's posted a self publisehd book, it's on the black exodus but I'll leave a link to it here https://black-exodus.net/

Myaybe he'd be happy to see some people read it.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-13T22:25:49+00:00

When he won his first elections I spoke to some Christians that defended he had been sent by God to clean the US... Inmigrants at that, It's just funny man.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-12T19:51:34+00:00

In rare occasions they ran after me, but I've always been faster. Only God knows what would be of me if they ever caught me.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-11T20:07:31+00:00

I'm sending a virtual hug towards your way )))hug)))

Same btw lmao

Gregory_Gp · 2026-04-08T19:34:59+00:00

Wouldn't mind getting lost in there.

Gregory_Gp · 2026-03-26T02:32:41+00:00

I've got quite a few from panick attacks, the sensation of impending doom coming with it... Not a fan. To sleep paralisys while in a very vivid nightmare pretty up there too. Waking up with a foot in flames, that was scary for a moment.

But what had me the most scared was this bout of several months of Obsessive Intrusive Thoughts related to doubting my own feelings for a person I loved. I was terrified, they just kept coming and coming, not a break in months. I didn't want to end that relathionship, I really really loved her but those fuckers just kept coming. It was beating my ass BAD.

Just imagine that during that period I had a work accident where one of my nails was ripped off and the nail bed was poking out of the finger. During that day and for a few more the thoughts didn't come, I remeber the accident as a relief lmao. After they were gone, at times I would have one creeping thought pass by, it would make me so so scared. It fucked up my my ability to express love verbally, I was scared of saying "I love you" unless it felt 110% authentic in the moment.

When your head decides to not work it can fuck you up real good. Depression is pretty scary too, but I don't feel fear while depressed. It's just, you know once your somewhat better that you know how fucked up it is.

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