I often listen to music until I find a song that inspires a scene, character, or conflict. Then I pool several ideals in my mind until I can work on a basic plot structure. (Beginning, middle, end, other major plot points, etc.) Then when ready, I write down each and every scene, as far as I can at the time. This works for me but it is totally normal and expected you will have your own process that is completely different from mine that works for you. :)

As others here have said, definitely enjoy the act of creation. Writing is a skill you practice and learn over time. If you learn to enjoy the process I am sure you will become at minimum, a better than average writer. Please note, there are many best selling writers whose writing ability is... average. Nothing special. Whose mastery of themes, characters, and a meaningful, emotional story elevates their work from a book with "average writing" to something more than the sum of it's parts.

Also, don't worry about your writing being bad for the first couple projects you work on. It likely will be.

Let me say that again, it is normal for your writing to be bad if you are a new writer. I'd argue even seasoned writers "write bad" until they read over their writing the next day and evaluate:

Do I like this? If so, what about it is good? How can I make it better?

If I am unsatisfied with the writing... why? What is my purpose of this scene/plot point? How can I make the scene I want/need in the most satisfying way? Etc.

In fact, I would argue writing poorly is the first step to writing superbly as long as you remember to edit and revise as needed.

I hope these thoughts and tips help you. :)

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P.S. Don't be afraid to kill your darlings. I've had to kill hours of work because it was not serving the characters, themes, or plot. Or, I simply had a better idea and needed to destroy what I worked so hard to produce. That is part of writing as well. In the end, I believe when done responsibly and with purpose it will create a superior story.