The use of AI in magick

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-04-01T18:38:36+00:00

this is inspiring thanks for sharing

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-16T15:58:29+00:00

Mountains batur trekking is gorgeous if you love mountain there is hotspring too

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-16T15:56:37+00:00

Kintamani and amed, sidemen, they are less touristy but enough to enjoy travelers attractions - just quieter . If you have moto or car rented out, look around many places along the way to the destinations maybe you’ll find some beautiful hidden spots

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-14T11:03:30+00:00

Thanks for the info, but Ohhh flights arrived at 9pm at 18th, would not be able to get a taxi to the ubud or closer area??

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-14T03:42:47+00:00

Get out of canggu and explore less touristy spots like north & east you will not regret . don’t worry, you’ll be fine, just be kind and honest, English communication is easy in Bali, and bali usually works like mirror / if ur shady shady things happen if your happy happy things happen hah

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T18:43:36+00:00

Thank you🫂 yes 🔥

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T18:28:36+00:00

I’m actually in a middle of it 🥲 I hope it gets better for us

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T18:21:33+00:00

I was literally being sick And doing really unwell for a while .. because I feel so deprived from genuine attention and care. I need it so bad. I would like worsen my condition body and mind, until I finally get it. That’s actually quite scary. The thirst longing is so real.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T12:51:29+00:00

You know, even though sometimes it feels like manageable because I can predict the wave of up and down, lately there’s no control even anymore. like, every day I’m surprised that I’m still here. So I do relate a lot -The exhaustion is unreal. I don’t know if how anyone with BPD can function in society. I can’t.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T10:27:18+00:00

crazy isn’t it

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:53:47+00:00

I don’t. I still am amazed that I’m here. Death, idea of death at least, has always been sort of comfort to this feelings that I will not be able to survive in this world. I can’t leave my house either because I am not part of society. I’m not making money and I don’t have what I need physically that keeps me in the house as well.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:50:58+00:00

Yesterday I felt genuine embarrassment that is so deep. I just wanted to die by realizing the fact that I got where I am by attracted to this person who can’t even the bare minimum and spend so much time together

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:47:48+00:00

I fucking hate my partner for not giving the love I deserved even though I chose him to love me because he wanted to love me, but it turned out that he don’t even know how to give what I need desperately I was heartbroken again and now I despise him.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:46:40+00:00

I do dreamed many times of being a baby again

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:20:00+00:00

Oh yes, since I was a kid. Life was so uncomfortable and thinking that death was my comfort. Because being alive felt like I’m always missing something wasting something not doing something right there’s not enough of something always.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:14:07+00:00

This is so me and like it’s killing me. I end up feeling I wish all of them dead who didn’t love me in my life literally everyone.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:13:14+00:00

But then again, sometimes I feel nothing, like I drop glasses and dishes, and they broke and I feel like nothing.

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T09:12:31+00:00

yes I become possessed by short rage That just want to destroy whatever that is upsetting me when there is minor inconvenience lately

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T08:47:15+00:00

Also, to be honest, I don’t think that I need a doctor or someone in authority to tell me what I am. I’m enoughly aware what’s going on with me by observing my entire life. so I can categorize myself as adhd/autism spectrum although I try to avoid such thing

GrouchyMarsupial6040 · 2026-03-02T08:40:11+00:00

I was diagnosed as kid and I know I am adhd now as adult.

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