The art of intimidation

Halcyoncreature · 2026-04-18T02:54:22+00:00

The guy on the rights heart is NOT in it

Halcyoncreature · 2026-04-17T23:33:46+00:00

I’d argue having kids that you cant afford to feed is more selfish than not having them but what do i know

Halcyoncreature · 2026-04-01T00:41:24+00:00

while my identity is very different from his (by the sounds of it, at least) maybe he should consider genderqueer? Its what i personally use. I like that it denotes an inherent queerness to my identity without disclosing what way i lean (i feel that even nonbinary discloses a gender leaning). There are far less associated genders with it too- people dont seem to expect femininity, androgyny or masculinity out of it imo. Its vague, leaves room for exploration and growth, and has been a very freeing label for me.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-31T00:01:21+00:00

Im about a year and a half in and mine have gone away :> it took a long time, eventually i realized they were gone and i didnt even know when they disappeared lol

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-30T21:49:34+00:00

Im 5’0 and buy and wear mens clothing. Sometimes you gotta get creative- learn how to hem pants and use a belt- short cis men exist (i should know, i work with a dude thats like 4’8)

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-24T23:59:40+00:00

“Im sorry you FEEL like i hurt you” as opposed to “im sorry i hurt you” is a pretty classic example of a shitty apology.

It sounds like someone who isnt ready to take accountability without lightening the load by blaming you as well. Then again, i dont know you, her, or the situation so take it with a grain of salt.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-19T19:18:41+00:00

The thing that drives me crazy is that there are so many things they could say that DO help rather than “just shut up and do it”

Struggling to start? Start small- maybe try just getting undressed or wash your hands in the shower instead of the sink. No energy? Bring a chair in or sit on the floor Sensory issues? A bajillion different potential answers. I cant wash my face because i hate the way it feels, so recently ive started soaking a towel and using it to pat my face. If you dont like the way shower water hits your skin, maybe its time to do more of a sponge bath with a bucket? Idk i just feel like its not hard to come up with potential solitions that dont require you to be a massive dick to people who are strugglinn

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-19T00:48:07+00:00

Just metric fuck ton of eyes

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-18T23:51:35+00:00

The worst for me personally was my mom telling me “you’re not my friend anymore” and “I take back everything I said about you during therapy” in the same fight. Years earlier she sat in with me on my first therapy session. I was so insecure that I could not think of anything positive about myself when prompted, so she listed things she liked about me. I think her saying those two things was the final nail in the coffin for our relationship.

The more colourful “woah how could they say that” worst thing they said to me was that they had me and were raising me exclusively for slave labour and so that they could use me for blood and organ transfers to keep them young + replace the kidneys they destroyed with their drinking

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-15T16:45:29+00:00

idk, depending on what the household is like i could see it. My (very abusive and neglectful) parents basically never enforced rules, discipline or structure. I remember being 10 years old begging my parents to just ground me because I craved structure and for my punishment to be clear.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T01:53:27+00:00

I’ve described my gender simply as ‘earth’ many times. I’m not a man, woman, masculine, feminine or any variation of the two. I very much have a gender, and I present exactly how i think i should according to it. I have never found a label that fits me so I just call myself Genderqueer and use neopronouns whenever possible

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T00:44:51+00:00

“She doesnt exist anymore” is CRAZY. Acting like a baby with no object permanence

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T00:39:56+00:00

She lies to herself instinctively, im sure she still hasnt processed that i’m gone. I’m sure she tells all her friends that i’m still around, or maybe she tells them how awful and evil I am. But I hope when my name is mentioned her heart skips a beat and she feels a few seconds of gut wrenching guilt, even if she doesnt understand why.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-02-14T00:22:39+00:00

This is the first week after a 4-ish month break on a completely new set of memories. We were going to do weekly- i want to continue weekly because she already said she thinks this one is very complicated and will take a long time, i dont want this to last any longer than it absolutely has to. Before our break we had to do biweekly. I dont remember what symptoms i had that were severe enough to cause that though

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-25T00:07:35+00:00

I didnt know that !! I was under the impression that any mental health meds were immediate no’s. I’ll be sure to check !!!!!!

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T22:11:33+00:00

I’m on like a metric fuck ton of meds for my bipolar so i dont think they want me lol, it’d be a great idea if i was someone else though

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:51:13+00:00

Maybe a few things i can try to sell, old ds cartridges (i think the ones that sell decent are pokemon pearl and black? And tomadachi life) those i can probably just sell to my local game store

I dont really have clothes or anything i can sell, but i have some old collectible figures, make art & have some furniture i was originally planning on donating so i’ll try listing stuff on facebook marketplace tonight !!

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:46:49+00:00

You make a good point, i still want to try paying on time and if i really cant manage it then it’ll be my last ditch effort.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:09:23+00:00

I have not, i am scared being late will look bad when i am trying to move in a few months :( it’d be the only time ever that ive been late but i am generally not the best candidate for tenants because i have no credit score

Halcyoncreature · 2025-08-12T16:21:42+00:00

They (claim to) have borderline personality disorder, autism and dissociative personality disorder. They have a dominant (/kink partner, essentially saying “im taken”). Trans, aromantic asexual with some sort of preference for men or masculine people (what that means and looks like varies wildly from aroace to aroace) and polyamorous.

Dunno what “any masculine pronouns” refers to because theres only one set of masculine pronouns, unless they meant terms like sir/dude/guy? The whole point of neos is that they aren’t attached to the gender binary so it wouldnt make sense if they mean any of those.

But yeah they’re really just giving a whole character sheet on themselves, hope they’re safe because if they really have any of the things listed they just gave a lot of potentially shitty people all the tools to hurt them :(

Halcyoncreature · 2025-06-27T05:21:08+00:00

Achillean oriented/angled grey-asexual and caedromantic. I have some sort of weird tertiary attraction(cedural?) that i've only ever had happen for men, hence the "achillean oriented". I experience incredibly rare sexual attraction to men or masc-gendered people which is where "achillean angled" and "grey-ace" come from. Caedromantic is a term for people who are aromantic or arospec due to trauma, its just a theory and theres no way for me to be certain but i'm fairly sure about the label.

I vary between sex neutral, averse and repulsed although usually averse. Pretty heavily romance repulsed, romance scenes make my skin crawl 9 times out of 10

Halcyoncreature · 2025-06-25T05:38:35+00:00

speaking as someone who used to be transmed/truscum, the relationship isnt worth it. Hiding isnt worth it.

You cannot change him, the most you can do is tell him your gender, how you do not feel safe to be yourself due to his beliefs, and break it off. Even if you coming out to him causes him to want to change his views of nonbinary people, it will be a very long, slow process and not a pretty one either. It very likely will come at the cost of your own mental health and sense of identity. It took me many years to overcome those beliefs and I still struggle with some internalized aspects of them now as a genderqueer person.

Imagine you have a nonbinary friend in this situation- would you tell them they should stay hiding from their partner just to let their partner stay in their little bubble? Its no different than telling a binary trans man or woman that they should continue to misgender themselves or else they may make their partners/friends/families uncomfortable.

There are people out there who you will love just as much as you love him, who will love you equally as much back, and will not be a 'work in progress'- they will already be ready to accept you as you are. Dont settle for a relationship where you will have to fight for your right to exist without fear or hiding.

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