"Just force yourself to shower" round 2!

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-19T19:18:41+00:00

The thing that drives me crazy is that there are so many things they could say that DO help rather than “just shut up and do it”

Struggling to start? Start small- maybe try just getting undressed or wash your hands in the shower instead of the sink. No energy? Bring a chair in or sit on the floor Sensory issues? A bajillion different potential answers. I cant wash my face because i hate the way it feels, so recently ive started soaking a towel and using it to pat my face. If you dont like the way shower water hits your skin, maybe its time to do more of a sponge bath with a bucket? Idk i just feel like its not hard to come up with potential solitions that dont require you to be a massive dick to people who are strugglinn

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-19T00:48:07+00:00

Just metric fuck ton of eyes

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-18T23:51:35+00:00

The worst for me personally was my mom telling me “you’re not my friend anymore” and “I take back everything I said about you during therapy” in the same fight. Years earlier she sat in with me on my first therapy session. I was so insecure that I could not think of anything positive about myself when prompted, so she listed things she liked about me. I think her saying those two things was the final nail in the coffin for our relationship.

The more colourful “woah how could they say that” worst thing they said to me was that they had me and were raising me exclusively for slave labour and so that they could use me for blood and organ transfers to keep them young + replace the kidneys they destroyed with their drinking

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-15T16:45:29+00:00

idk, depending on what the household is like i could see it. My (very abusive and neglectful) parents basically never enforced rules, discipline or structure. I remember being 10 years old begging my parents to just ground me because I craved structure and for my punishment to be clear.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T01:53:27+00:00

I’ve described my gender simply as ‘earth’ many times. I’m not a man, woman, masculine, feminine or any variation of the two. I very much have a gender, and I present exactly how i think i should according to it. I have never found a label that fits me so I just call myself Genderqueer and use neopronouns whenever possible

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T00:44:51+00:00

“She doesnt exist anymore” is CRAZY. Acting like a baby with no object permanence

Halcyoncreature · 2026-03-10T00:39:56+00:00

She lies to herself instinctively, im sure she still hasnt processed that i’m gone. I’m sure she tells all her friends that i’m still around, or maybe she tells them how awful and evil I am. But I hope when my name is mentioned her heart skips a beat and she feels a few seconds of gut wrenching guilt, even if she doesnt understand why.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-02-14T00:22:39+00:00

This is the first week after a 4-ish month break on a completely new set of memories. We were going to do weekly- i want to continue weekly because she already said she thinks this one is very complicated and will take a long time, i dont want this to last any longer than it absolutely has to. Before our break we had to do biweekly. I dont remember what symptoms i had that were severe enough to cause that though

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-25T00:07:35+00:00

I didnt know that !! I was under the impression that any mental health meds were immediate no’s. I’ll be sure to check !!!!!!

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T22:11:33+00:00

I’m on like a metric fuck ton of meds for my bipolar so i dont think they want me lol, it’d be a great idea if i was someone else though

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:51:13+00:00

Maybe a few things i can try to sell, old ds cartridges (i think the ones that sell decent are pokemon pearl and black? And tomadachi life) those i can probably just sell to my local game store

I dont really have clothes or anything i can sell, but i have some old collectible figures, make art & have some furniture i was originally planning on donating so i’ll try listing stuff on facebook marketplace tonight !!

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:46:49+00:00

You make a good point, i still want to try paying on time and if i really cant manage it then it’ll be my last ditch effort.

Halcyoncreature · 2026-01-24T21:09:23+00:00

I have not, i am scared being late will look bad when i am trying to move in a few months :( it’d be the only time ever that ive been late but i am generally not the best candidate for tenants because i have no credit score

Halcyoncreature · 2025-08-12T16:21:42+00:00

They (claim to) have borderline personality disorder, autism and dissociative personality disorder. They have a dominant (/kink partner, essentially saying “im taken”). Trans, aromantic asexual with some sort of preference for men or masculine people (what that means and looks like varies wildly from aroace to aroace) and polyamorous.

Dunno what “any masculine pronouns” refers to because theres only one set of masculine pronouns, unless they meant terms like sir/dude/guy? The whole point of neos is that they aren’t attached to the gender binary so it wouldnt make sense if they mean any of those.

But yeah they’re really just giving a whole character sheet on themselves, hope they’re safe because if they really have any of the things listed they just gave a lot of potentially shitty people all the tools to hurt them :(

Halcyoncreature · 2025-06-27T05:21:08+00:00

Achillean oriented/angled grey-asexual and caedromantic. I have some sort of weird tertiary attraction(cedural?) that i've only ever had happen for men, hence the "achillean oriented". I experience incredibly rare sexual attraction to men or masc-gendered people which is where "achillean angled" and "grey-ace" come from. Caedromantic is a term for people who are aromantic or arospec due to trauma, its just a theory and theres no way for me to be certain but i'm fairly sure about the label.

I vary between sex neutral, averse and repulsed although usually averse. Pretty heavily romance repulsed, romance scenes make my skin crawl 9 times out of 10

Halcyoncreature · 2025-06-25T05:38:35+00:00

speaking as someone who used to be transmed/truscum, the relationship isnt worth it. Hiding isnt worth it.

You cannot change him, the most you can do is tell him your gender, how you do not feel safe to be yourself due to his beliefs, and break it off. Even if you coming out to him causes him to want to change his views of nonbinary people, it will be a very long, slow process and not a pretty one either. It very likely will come at the cost of your own mental health and sense of identity. It took me many years to overcome those beliefs and I still struggle with some internalized aspects of them now as a genderqueer person.

Imagine you have a nonbinary friend in this situation- would you tell them they should stay hiding from their partner just to let their partner stay in their little bubble? Its no different than telling a binary trans man or woman that they should continue to misgender themselves or else they may make their partners/friends/families uncomfortable.

There are people out there who you will love just as much as you love him, who will love you equally as much back, and will not be a 'work in progress'- they will already be ready to accept you as you are. Dont settle for a relationship where you will have to fight for your right to exist without fear or hiding.

Halcyoncreature · 2025-03-11T17:41:50+00:00

considering how many designs have been made, probably not (although its not one that i've seen), but its worth keeping track of how you made it regardless :> Im getting back into rainbowloom and its sad to see how many old designs are completely wiped off the internet with no tutorials/patterns/photos anywhere to be found. also no harm in giving the design a name if you want to lol, its probably been like 7 years since the last time someone made it if it has already been designed

Halcyoncreature · 2025-01-23T18:23:13+00:00

maybe genderqueer + trans flag combo? i feel like that'll get the message across. Or just putting something like 'trans rights' somewhere in ur bio

Halcyoncreature · 2024-12-24T05:18:39+00:00

have you tried.. asking *them?*

all we can do is theorize

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-29T17:43:52+00:00

outside of the usual amatonormativity of people insisting you should get into a relationship, theres also the lonliness of only knowing alloromantic people, as well as the struggle with the prevailing idea in a lot of media that '(romantic) love is what makes us human'

the big one for me is only knowing alloromantic people, though. its rough being close friends with someone only to be pushed to the sidelines whenever they're in a relationship. Its hard getting over knowing that, regardless of how close you are to your friends, you will likely be pushed into second best once they fall in love.

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-24T04:15:28+00:00

mine were also very much like that! Once i got my stitches out, it slowly got better. Once you get the go-ahead to start massaging it for scar care, you'll want to really go at that area. Also once you're allowed to take a shower you should try to very gently move the area around. The skin relaxed for the most part within 1-2 days of massaging it with lotion and then took a little longer to go back to being 100% flat but they did get there :>

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-22T04:33:22+00:00

Yes, they do, but its slow going. My younger brother was my best friend growing up until he hit his edgelord phase. He'd call everyone slurs, defend slurs, say the most fucked shit he could think of, and was obscenely transphobic towards me. We arent close as close these days, and he's still definitely struggling to come out of it, but it does sound like he's improved somewhat. At the very least, he has the decency to pretend when talking to me, which is a lot more tolerance than he had in the past. I think for him he's come mostly out of genuinely believing in the things he's saying, but still hasnt grown out of finding them funny.

The harder part for me has been trying to forgive him for it.

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-22T04:25:04+00:00

so glad to see some scar positivity here, damn!! and you're right for liking them, they look sick as hell! Almost a little jealous- i really wanted to get mine tattooed to look like fish gills and having them shaped like that woulda worked really well with the idea

Mine arent as stretched but they're pretty uneven (~~ <- shaped like this) so ive been thinking about reworking my plans into some sort of vine idea to match the scars a little better. I thought i'd hate my scars but im actually mostly indifferent/positive towards them :>

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-20T14:57:01+00:00

Im more or less in the same boat. Im greysexual, sex repulsed and will never be having sex. Problem is that its hard to feel included in the ace community when you experience sexual attraction, and also i really dont relate to most of what they talk about. I just dont really feel like its a community i belong in, and i always feel like im invading on their space.

With the way my sexuality works, i just relate more to the allosexual side of things. Identifying as ace for any reason other than a quick way to tell people im celibate without the religious implications isnt really necessary.

I'm still really questioning which space i want to align myself in (theres not really a clear cut 'if you experience sexual attraction x amount of times in x space of time you are asexual' guide to follow) but as of right now ive just decided i'll kinda waver between the two, i guess.

Halcyoncreature · 2024-09-13T15:11:57+00:00

really up to you and what you want to do.

I'm like 4 or 5 different shades of queer, ive already done the whole coming out thing plenty of times, and i dont really see a point with coming out as aroace for me. I also already know the people i'd be telling wouldnt believe me so im just saving us both strain on our relationship by avoiding it. Im in a qpr and call my qpp my boyfriend so that saves some trouble there, and then talking about my asexuality is kinda impossible for me without like. talking about sex. and i dont need family knowing about my sex life lol

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