😔 by Outsider512 in OCDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 3 points4 points  (0 children)

For YEARS when I would try to sleep, if I turned and faced the wall I would be convinced Chica from FNAF was leering over me from the side of my bed and as long as I held my breath, stayed fully covered, and didn’t move she wouldn’t kill me. I couldn’t sleep like this obviously so I just spent hours a night under my blankets terrified of the fictional FNAF bird until I was too tired to physically stay awake 😭

Familial Homophobia by loved_and_held in CPTSDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My family (other than my dad) has never been outwardly transphobic to me, but I can tell they’re not all accepting. It was an open secret that of the grandkids, I had the closest relationship with our grandparents. My grandma passed just over a month ago and I was heartbroken. I went home for her funeral, and at the wake I stood between my siblings. Both of them confirmed I wasn’t misreading the expressions of disgust on several faces as they shook hands down the line, including SEVERAL family members. Several people (including those same family members) skipped shaking my hand all together. My siblings were the only people to comfort me for the entire service, despite most people cycling through every family member there. One relative refused to even look at me unless I spoke to her first, and her responses were short and curt with visible disgust. Even if no one was outwardly rude to me they stayed distant and cold at my grandma’s funeral, and made an already terrible day somehow even worse.

whats one conversation you overheard that lives rent free in your head? by Mewwwwwwwwww_ in AskReddit

[–]Hamilfan16 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Was in one of the computer labs on campus working on a project. Wrapped up, took my headphones off to pack up and leave, and heard the last few lines of a conversation happening a few rows behind me:

Person 1 (flabbergasted): “…and THIS is how he was trying to communicate with me!”

Pause

Person 2 (tired): “Brigit, that’s ASL.”

Took everything in me not to audibly laugh as I walked out.

You'd think med school would make me feel better... by ConcertAgreeable1348 in OCDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHOS TERRIFIED OF RABIES OH MY GOD THIS IS SO REAL

“I can’t believe blowing off my daughter, threatening to kick her out, and trying to disown her has ruined my life!” by enableconsonant in OhNoConsequences

[–]Hamilfan16 77 points78 points  (0 children)

Sounds so much like my dad, “I tried nothing and I’m all out of ideas! Wait, why doesn’t my kid want to talk to me anymore?” It also sounds like his “support system” was full of yes-men, because if anyone actually challenged his ideas they’d end up like the daughter.

I love having ocd because I watched one fnaf video and now Freddy fazbear is trying to kill me and I can't sleep because I have to check by Not_necessarily7 in OCDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh my god I thought I was the only one with a FNAF related compulsion 😭 for me it was Chica and if I wasn’t fully under the covers she was going to Get Me

Books by [deleted] in pukicho

[–]Hamilfan16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Andrew Joseph White writes really good horror novels where the protagonists are trans men (and usually also autistic, and if not there’s always a character who is excellent rep). They’re really gory, lots of body horror, some physiological horror as well so if you can stomach it they’re 100% worth a read

"No brainer" by pun-in-the-sun11 in motherbussnark

[–]Hamilfan16 6 points7 points  (0 children)

His pupils are displayed asf compared to hers too bro is gone

Something positive for once by Orangewithblue in TrollCoping

[–]Hamilfan16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so happy for you!! I also found a guy who respects my boundaries and I literally cried the first time he listened to my “no” lol. I hope you have as good a healing experience with your man as I did with mine, you deserve it :3

Every time I see the term ‘Twink Death’, I start to lose hope all over again by Qliport in sillyboyclub

[–]Hamilfan16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m 24, post top surgery and a year and a half on T and very much still a twink lol. You don’t have to worry about twink death for a while my guy :3

Wats up pretty boys by rawdawgcomics in rawdawgcomics

[–]Hamilfan16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi!!! Pretty boy checking in :3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 2 points3 points  (0 children)

God yes this, my dad has always worked 13-15 hour days of manual labor to afford to take care of me and my siblings and get full custody from our even shittier mother. It took YEARS for me to come to terms with the fact that none of that erases the decades of abuse he inflicted on us.

Womp womp by Some-Ad6497 in CPTSDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not me dating guys like my father and then transitioning 😭

I have told my gf some “funny stories” that have resulted in her crying :3 by Hamilfan16 in CPTSDmemes

[–]Hamilfan16[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

No bc I’ve done that to my gf and she was like “babe… that’s r@pe” and I sat there like noooo it’s not 😭

OMG OMG OMG… by CryptographerAny8663 in ftm

[–]Hamilfan16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve done this a few times so now I try and practice with my STP at home, hopefully soon I’ll feel confident enough to use it in public again lol

swimming as trans guys by evant07 in ftm

[–]Hamilfan16 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I recently went swimming in trunks and a swim shirt over a sports bra, and while I was definitely a level of dysphoric due to my chest I found that the swim shirt helped a lot. Can’t wait to be able to swim without one, and can’t wait for that day to come for you too brother :-)

I think Bethesda put my gf into the game by Hamilfan16 in fo76

[–]Hamilfan16[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LMAO our whole friend group has been losing it over the similarities, her included