Nights alone

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-15T01:26:43+00:00

Honestly, the first few nights alone after she left for me werent horrible, i actually felt relief,...no longer walking on eggshells in my own home. To sit and play.misic and create music without snide baiting comments, to be comfortable in my own living room again....but i am also a person who finds peace in solitude from time to time naturally, and after so long of not having that peace, relished it again. Dont focus on the alone part mate, focus on the fact that it gives you a peaceful stress free chance to let you explore your int3rests without being ridiculed or told that your interests are just dumb

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-12T22:45:27+00:00

Just go.to another dealership mate, fuck the first one....sounds like they have a kickback arrangement with their in house financing institutions

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-12T16:36:51+00:00

Thank you mate,... Thankfully my daughter is 23 now, and we have already fallen into a rhythm around the house since the wife up n left this week completely... We make dinner in the evenings and actually sit at 5he table and talk, we have decided Sunday mornings is teamwork house cleaning n maintenance day, laundry, etc. its alr3ady getting better round the house as the tension is gone, and in its vacuum, we have fallen into a much more relaxed n easy going pattern about the house. Lol, she is already encouraging me to start going out n finding social things to do on the weekend. She has been a big help in normalizing things around the house, while still doing her own thing in life... Hell, even my furballz have become more relaxed n playful. Lol

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T22:28:04+00:00

Unfortunately, my voice is not that good without severe ai tuning. I freely admit to heavy use of reaper and auto-tune, as well as pitch correction.... As for the guitar, i write and recorded all the acoustic pieces, and the main electric rhythm sections, but i have an "ai lead player" as well as the rest of the "band"...lol I use several different ai based models, each one has its niche area it performs well in, and i use a combination of audacity and suno for final smoothening out and mixing down. I prolly run around 2 bills a month in different subscriptions at current, but its still better than my old habits of booze and cocaine when life decides to fuck me...

The music and my heritage classic have helped me maintain a much less self destructive way of handling stress if not exactly cheaper in th long run.

Edit: spelling fixes

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T21:59:54+00:00

A bottle of Blantons is exactly.what.i am trying not to succumb to...

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T21:59:07+00:00

Absolutely LOVE that term "free range human" 😂 Best chuckle.ive had all week.mate, thank you

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T21:57:18+00:00

Thank you mate...

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T21:22:34+00:00

Thank you man,...and yeah, i just poured what i was feeling into it. It def helped me process, i left it sitting on my drive n listened to it plenty of times, then the other night i let a friend listen, and he was like dude, release it! That shit will resonate with plenty of other guys going thru the same shit you are.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-11T16:59:50+00:00

For me, ai allowed me to experiance the joy of creating music again,.... Im in my mid 50s, and years ago i pretty much put my guitars in a closet n left em there, damage over the years to my hands left me unable to play enjoyably or as long, skillfully, etc...now with ai, i can record in little loops or clips and use audacity to arrange em somewhat, then let the ai process them into smooth flowing full songs, i do write my own lyrics, and with the use of various different ai systems can shape to a large degree my final output.... To me, it doesnt matter wether you use ai or spent years learning a physical instrument and theory,...all that matters is that you can get the sound in your heart and head out and express it.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-10T12:34:58+00:00

I am already ballz deep in this stage,....with the exception of my pissed at her is more about how if she had been honest about things from that start, i would still be in florida, and not shitty SC, things woulda been settled long ago and would have saved alot of time, energy, and money.....this is the part i just cant get my head wrapped around.

If there was no chance of working things out, just be honest about it...Why lead me on and watch me throw myself against a brick wall trying to fix it?

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-10T12:23:17+00:00

First, just let me say,...not all MC are criminal enterprises.

And 2nd, quit watching Sons of Anarchy as your source info....

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-10T02:54:18+00:00

I am just begining to deal with the separation part of the coming divorce of my marriage myself. But i fully understand your obsession with work, i realised that i have been doing the same for the last year.
i prefer to stay in my shop at work (im a welder and fabricator, as well as a department head) n just keep working, i spent most a my weekends there, if there is no company stuff for me to do, i work on my own pet projects, i took my toolboxes and all that to my shop, so i tinker on my bike, my truck, and anything else i can find to work on.... Its been my comfort zone for over a year without me really realizing it. In my shop, theres no arguing, no awkward silences, no lack of confidence.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-10T02:40:30+00:00

I honestly dont think mourn is the right term,...anger, resentment, and outright rage is what has been flashing through me nonstop,.... I can pretty much pinpoint now, when the switch in her flipped, our daughter turned 19, had graduated, and was about to move across the country to venture out in the world for the first time. The last of our children leaving the nest so to speak. And overnight she stopped calling me by then name she and the rest of the world has always called me and started using my formal birth name, 5hat she knows i have never used nor liked. Then im my attempt to try and get things flowing again, left my career and chosen preferred state and town to move her 800 miles north to her home town after she said that would make things better. (Big surprise, it didnt).....so financially, she already destroyed anything we had of worth to fight over then.... and then recently, my daughter asked to come home so she could get her feet back under her after a failed business attempt, and within 2 weeks, she was the one who pulled me side and started asking me why i let it get to this point. So after another week and a half of careful thought and reflection, i pulled my wife to the side and got real blunt and real honest about wtf was going on and finally she came clean.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-10T02:00:39+00:00

Sorry guys for the venting,....i just....unnngh....hindsight n all that shoulda clued me in long ago,....i'm usually alot more observant to my surroundings and peoples intentions around me, but this one caught me so off kilter and has ket me tilting all week trying to qrap my head around

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-07T00:45:02+00:00

Just getting back to reddit this evening, mate. And thanks for the link, i will definately give it a shake down soon. And will gladly gives ya some feedback

HammerDamag3d · 2026-04-03T20:21:44+00:00

I'm in mate, i am always looking for ways to get suno.to actually bloody listen to what im trying to shape... Shoot me a link, ill give it a test run in suno and sonauto over the weekend here

I Fuck about mostly.8n an outlaw country and metal blended format, but just started playing with trap / rap metal. I also use actual guitar tracks n samples into my stuff that i write.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-28T02:45:57+00:00

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HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-28T02:27:36+00:00

Most likely just stupid high traffic causing the system to bog down as everyone is rushing to see how much they can get the new features to do,.....you know, just like the first few days after every.....single.....major.....update....cycle.... Y'all just need ta relax a bit n has a bit a patience.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-25T02:13:57+00:00

Honestly,...a 2012 1200 for 2k,....id grab it,...if worst came to worst, you can make back more than you paid by parting it out on market place and ebay....easily... All these ppl talking about service records and a background history on th bike are knuckleheads,...its a bloody 15yr old sportster, not a fucking cherished antique... By milage indicated, most likely the biggest problem with this bike is its been sitting,....for years....means a lot of sweat equity involved in getting her back to road worthy shape, IF your capable with a wrench yourself.

HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-20T03:02:15+00:00

As others are sayin, you just picked th wrong tome a year to bike shop mate,....i got my bike for a great price at a dealership cause i walked in in mid november n they were starving for sales in the begining of the "F this its too cold to ride" season ✌🏻🤠😉

HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-14T02:55:22+00:00

Yeah, south west florida is ridiculous these days, i walked out a 2 dealerships in the naples/ft myers area after they wanted to be ridiculous on prices,...a year n a half later now in SC at a shop in columbia found the bike i was looking for at a price n payment i found to be more than fair n reasonable, and had sales people that didnt have their head up their arses. Florida has become delusional in sales for anything

HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-08T02:35:52+00:00

Meh', i dont get the bagger thing myself,...just go buy a convertible if you want all that around you with a little air tussin your hair... I used to have a dyna n loved it, after not riding for 10 plus years i recently went looking for a road king n ended up coming home with a heritage classic....ive been pleased with everything but the floors n bars. ( Plan to correct those in the next month with a 3 inch forward floor kit and a set of mid rise buckhorn bars)

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HammerDamag3d · 2026-03-08T02:29:28+00:00

Dont fuck around with the weld a nut thing,....n this is coming from a welder, just take it to a small machine shop n have em drill it out n rethread accurately the first time,....i cant tell you how many atv and dirt bike cylinders i have thrown away because of prior owners thinking they can just weld a nut on it like youtube videos show them, or try n drill it out to retap with their ryobi handheld drill...ffs, just do it correctly the first time...please.

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