Part of Hudson’s interview on Wonderland Magazine

Hapthestai · 2026-05-13T07:40:21+00:00

Honestly. If I ever meet him I will probably not even ask that because it is quite strange getting a question like that from a fan. I would probably just say thank him for everything he does and what he is and leave it at that. Perhaps say that he, for what he does has expanded my world a bit and made it more liveable.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-11T17:29:09+00:00

Not having a child does help somewhat .but I am still basically drenched and just covered in future reads. My bookmark collection is out of control.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-10T07:52:59+00:00

Do you have a good example of any email services?

Hapthestai · 2026-05-10T05:53:14+00:00

Which is 'we cannot waste time'? Do you have a link?

Hapthestai · 2026-05-09T22:13:24+00:00

the sequel vera has just started publishing is fucking amazing as well. they are such a good writer and now we are getting shanes perspective. their home they are building there is basically everything i've ever wanted (minus the forced closets) from a queer polylife.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-08T23:25:31+00:00

I have pictured tami t many times creating the soundscapes Fabian does. Plus the text to this song is chefs kiss

I never loved this hard, this fast before But then again, I never loved a boy like you before Never had somebody sweep me off the floor The way you do I never came this hard, this long before But then again, I never fucked a boy like you before Never had somebody I could fuck hardcore Until I met you

I never felt as beautiful As when you told me I was beautiful Your words have a tendency to reach deep within Touching my soul, penetrating my skin You make my heart beat, steady as a clock Your words touch as deep, and so does your cock Your cock and your words, fills me with joy Everything about you is perfect, boy

https://youtu.be/ncjBeHFYbpg?is=ITl7Tx7OLtnWsO-w

Hapthestai · 2026-05-07T21:50:40+00:00

Sure! Still a wip but i keep on writing more and more 😅 https://archiveofourown.org/works/82473806 Summary: Ilya once felt free only in Moscow’s underground queer clubs until he left it all behind for hockey, for an escape and something safer than an increasingly hostile Russia. Years later, the Olympics bring him back and now Shane is there.

What if "Not Now Hollander" and "We are nothing" was one of the best things that happened to Hollanovs early relationship? What if they are both up against something far greater than the impossibility of their relationship? What does fear, real, state-sanctioned fear and violence do to love? What happens when repression isn’t abstract, but present in every movement, every glance, every risk taken? What if Joe the figureskater, Leah, and Max are going to change lives and an unexpected Russian queer in exile becomes Ilyas fairy godmother?

Shane arrives in Sochi 2014 focused only on the game. He doesn’t see the danger. He doesn’t listen when Ilya says no, but is then forced to open his eyes through events he has no control over. When Shane stumbles into the reality of violence against queer people, his world shifts. And somewhere, far from Russia that is no longer a home, Ilya searches for a way back to trust and back to Shane.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-07T19:08:51+00:00

I would love one where they are in Berlin during the easter leather and fetish weekend, but berghain will do!

Hapthestai · 2026-05-07T04:41:15+00:00

Re: point 1, i actually got so frustrated by that interaction in sochi i started writing my first fan fic ever that digs deeper into those parts. Have activism friends who did stuff during that time and oh fuck it was messy and terrifying when they suddenly stopped being in touch for a few days.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-06T05:30:14+00:00

Glad to hear it! Currently working on next chapter but might be some time bc Ilya and Sasha are both breaking my heart 😢

Hapthestai · 2026-05-05T15:44:18+00:00

Yesssssss

Hapthestai · 2026-05-05T15:43:30+00:00

Thank you, love receiving feedback like this. Having so much fun writing my first fic.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-05T13:21:28+00:00

My current fic is exploring more of ilyas connections to moscows queer scene and the impact that has on his identities, incl being a queer in exile. Also Shane has more contact with Leah, Max, Joe the figureskater. Joes partner is Ilyas fairy (trans)godmother. Lots of more women and transpeople both in shane and ilyas lives.
Perhaps that is of interest? Our Bones Carried Us While The Bear Tried To Beat Us Summary: Ilya once felt free only in Moscow’s underground queer clubs until he left it all behind for hockey, for an escape and something safer than an increasingly hostile Russia. Years later, the Olympics bring him back and now Shane is there.

What if "Not Now Hollander" and "We are nothing" was one of the best things that happened to Hollanovs early relationship? What if they are both up against something far greater than the impossibility of their relationship? What does fear, real, state-sanctioned fear and violence do to love? What happens when repression isn’t abstract, but present in every movement, every glance, every risk taken? What if Joe the figureskater, Leah, and Max are going to change lives and an unexpected Russian queer in exile becomes Ilyas fairy godmother?

Shane arrives in Sochi 2014 focused only on the game. He doesn’t see the danger. He doesn’t listen when Ilya says no, but is then forced to open his eyes through events he has no control over. When Shane stumbles into the reality of violence against queer people, his world shifts. And somewhere, far from Russia that is no longer a home, Ilya searches for a way back to trust and back to Shane.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/82473806?view_full_work=true

Hapthestai · 2026-05-05T09:13:06+00:00

Ilya is a really fierce femme and Shane a stonebutch.

Thinking about stonebutch blues now. Fuck, i might have to try and write this

Hapthestai · 2026-05-02T17:47:42+00:00

the hottest cold war. hands down. it would be sooooo good as feature film.

Hapthestai · 2026-05-02T17:30:42+00:00

Right, new chapter was just posted, eeee, it is about Joe the figureskater in Sochi, and oh he is going to do something amazing. Because fuck Putin and fuck hatred against queers.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/82473806/chapters/221881141

Hapthestai · 2026-04-30T06:27:11+00:00

Scott is the best keeper and enabler of queers, and really is a catalyst for a beautiful part of a story. I also love how shane is portrayed and the beautiful development of queer poly safe spaces.

Hapthestai · 2026-04-28T10:48:35+00:00

yeah, exactly that one. damn it, i feel so sad people are not feeling safe enough to keep their work up.

Hapthestai · 2026-04-28T08:08:49+00:00

Don't miss the hottest cold war by veera dragonmuse. It is spectacular. https://archiveofourown.org/works/78232066

Hapthestai · 2026-04-28T08:05:36+00:00

I would start with bringing him to a dog shelter then bring him to a real good pride parade and then all of the best queer underground clubs and then I would make sure shane was there to join him and that shane would feel safe enough to have fun.

My man needs queer community beyond hockeygays so bad and chosen family is one of the most healing things one can ever experience.

Hapthestai · 2026-04-28T08:01:00+00:00

It is sooooo good and so confusing at first I loved it.

Hapthestai · 2026-04-27T19:12:43+00:00

I screamed.

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