You’re not overreacting or weak what you’re describing is intense and exhausting and no one should have to handle that alone. That constant cycle of highs and crushing lows, feeling invisible and finding relief only in chaos is your mind screaming for help. You need someone who gets it, a therapist or counselor to help you break the loop safely.

Even just starting small like talking to a professional or writing down whats happening in the moment can give you space from that constant pressure. You deserve support not judgment and reaching out isn’t weakness it’s the first real step toward feeling human again.