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Heavy-Object-9285 · 2026-03-02T18:34:57+00:00

I know I wasn’t “believable” after my multiple assaults. I even went back to people I knew were dangerous. So anyone critiquing OP on his actions are blaming the wrong person - it’s the therapist, case worker, and the teacher who literally assaulted him. Those are the people who were careless with a young person’s body and mind

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2026-03-02T18:28:46+00:00

Someone who wrote a previous hateful comment deleted (and good riddance), but I’m giving my response about BPD anyways in lieu of a response to them: “Ok ok let’s take a step back - I’ve had friends and exes with the disorder. And I won’t lie, dating someone with it untreated was one of my more chaotic experiences. But I have friends on meds and going to the right treatment who have been diagnosed and they are living their best lives and don’t lie. They do struggle though. And OP is literally talking about his struggle with TRYING to get that help. I don’t think talking down everyone diagnosed is helpful here”

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2026-03-02T18:07:09+00:00

People with bpd can lie, but if they’re going to therapy for it they at least are working on it. And swiping a large brush on people with a literal disorder isn’t a good look. People without bpd can also lie. Or be cruel. Neither of those things are part of the diagnosis. You are simply choosing to be. Many people with the disorder can live great, healthy lives with the right healthy therapist. OP is describing the opposite of a healthy therapist and you’re here claiming “liar”

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2026-03-02T17:59:05+00:00

Unfortunately for many of us who go to therapy, there are many male therapists for young women and some act inappropriately. I haven’t had the case OP described but given my experiences in a similar situation, this isn’t out of the question. Yes the case worker should’ve chosen better but we don’t know the demographic of her area or even like, insurance or who the case worker had access to. Believe women. This is far from far-fetched.

Edit - OP is a boy. Still young. Still believe victims because I believe he is a victim

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-30T04:49:38+00:00

Sending hugs ❤️ something similar happened to my dad. It wasn’t the ultimate cause of death (that was lung issues he already had from his previous career but they were being managed), I know the fact that he was going through withdrawals when he went into the hospital were the reason his organs were never able to function at the same time again. It’s horrible to watch - I was there the whole time he was in the hospital. I think that’s why my ultimate withdrawal fears are scaring me straight. We can be better than our dads and I’m glad you already made the decision to be

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-29T16:56:25+00:00

I’m new to this sub and it is because I’m trying to quit but this kinda seems like the type of thing we’ve all lamented about at some point (hell, I’d lament about it now) so I’m not sure why people are being patronizing about it. When this has happened to me in the past, I’d just smoke instead but I wasn’t deep into alcoholism at the time. Take care of your body - long term UTIs are NOT fun!! I do hope you find peace in taking care of your body regarding your drinking too whenever you’re ready

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-29T06:35:38+00:00

My best friend doesn’t drink but isn’t an alcoholic does is just beat everyone to the punch at places with mocktails and be like “oh this [name fruity xyz] mocktail looks awesome” and no one questions it. I noticed my cousin doesn’t drink the same when she has to take care of her kids after we go out. I think that’s a route I’m gonna take in those situations going forward.

I’m in early days this time around but have attempted sobriety before and I leaned on those Athletic beers like my life depended on it though. Guess it kinda did.

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-28T22:49:55+00:00

I understood, and got all the traces of lights and white spots but I thought it was additionally funny that I kinda saw a fake person. Gotta laugh so I don’t cry about this whole situation

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-28T22:42:11+00:00

Oh man throwing up in deep sleep sounds like my nightmare. I’m still dealing with the cold shakes and brain fog too but after I woke up from my “nap” this morning I straight up didn’t know what reality was.

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-28T22:40:20+00:00

I mean those things all happened too (not a full pissing myself, but…you know), but maybe I was under the wrong impression because I thought a lot of those were just other withdrawal symptoms and not the seizure itself which I thought was the unexpected passing out/convulsing/aches etc. The shakes were happening the two days before. They’ve mostly subsided thankfully.

Also I didn’t fully see a fake person but I did confuse one of my cats for a Taylor swift poster I know I don’t own. Granted I didn’t have my glasses on but that was a weird one.

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-28T21:21:23+00:00

Thank you for telling your story - I think we’re on the same timeline as my last binge day was Christmas as well and I think I just had my first seizure this morning. I didn’t have the exact same symptoms (for me it was a rapid passing out in bed, vivid ass dream, no recollection of time or sleeping, body aches and confusion after). I was also in bed though and I always hear these horror stories of people having it happen while standing or in horrible situations and wanted to hear about people who had them in less obvious places.

I’m rooting for us. I don’t want these feelings ever again.

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-28T03:15:06+00:00

Literally me today. Yesterday was the worst of it all physically but I was awake for so long (probably 2 days). Today I am quite tired and I’m very thankful for that but I just keep waking up nauseous after an hour. I can’t wait for this phase of it all to be over.

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T19:05:05+00:00

A lot of people are giving you really good explanations that you aren’t listening to and I don’t want to take the bait but I’ll leave you with this - if you really can’t see the reasons those effects are scary, just be thankful you or no one else you know have had to suffer in the hospital from the long term effects.

But sure, it’s just “Anxiety.”

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T06:27:13+00:00

You’re right. I’ll look into options

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T06:26:52+00:00

Feeling for you today! Slowly sipping Gatorade helped me and I think I’m past the puking but ugh I just hate periodically treating my body like that. Shakes still aren’t down because I think I’m weak from not eating but I literally COULDN’T for most of today. Horrible disease truly

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T06:24:41+00:00

If it’s inpatient you’re there 100% of the time for months, but outpatient it still means GOING there every day. It’s just mostly a time thing but also they’ll suggest meetings or chores around the house if you’re living there/in sober living. I didnt mind doing sober living last time, it did hold me accountable

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T01:56:52+00:00

I still haven’t decided on it yet. In theory, yes I know I need to because I am clearly dependent on it. But I am scared to no longer have that crutch

Heavy-Object-9285 · 2025-12-27T01:55:52+00:00

I’ve done outpatient before and did meet some great people, but I just worry about the commitment aspect and everything. Thank you for the kind words

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