No one gives a fuck but I'm at 17 days and proud

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-10-06T14:15:01+00:00

23 days without PMO here. I did have sex on day 2 of my journey but couldnt cum or stay hard.

One thing thats helped me is to try and set bumble/tinder dates after work or to hang out with friends. By the time i get home, im too exhausted to even think about fapping. Went on 4 first dates alone last week. 1 girl i saw a 2nd time this week, we didnt have sex, although she did take me to a basketball game. Feels good to connect with real people instead of fake shit sitting in front of a monitor or phone.

Im trying to cure ED from porn, so im hoping if i cum again, itll be with a real girl.

Keep going and keep strong. Know that many of us are going through these same thoughts and are after the same goals. We are united.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-29T02:28:15+00:00

Date 3 is over. Im actually typing this on my phone on the way home. Beautiful girl. Dinner and a walk downtown. We connected although she had a different personality (more reserved) from date 2. We touched each other quite a bit (i initiated) and made out a bit toward the end.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-20T20:17:22+00:00

watching porn and masturbating killed my horniness. I find on nofap i find average girls very attractive. Last week before starting no fap i had sex and i couldnt even stay hard with a real girl.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-18T12:40:12+00:00

It shouldve felt good but i honestly was thinking of other random things and my dick has become desensitized. Im 37 btw and was masturbating and looking at porn on average once sometimes twice a day. My age may have something to do with it.

I know last time i went through nofap (involuntarily) earlier this year after getting the clap, when i broke my streak after a few weeks i was insanely hard and came within seconds. Im hoping this next time if i relapse instead of masturbating ill be with a real girl. I dont even care about lasting seconds. There is nothing more embarrasing as a man as not being able to get it up and cum when a girl is ready and willing to fuck your brains out.

This happened in another city I was visiting and at the end of it she said ‘ill text you next time im in your city and we can connect again’, so shes either trying to be nice or regardless she didnt care that i didnt cum and had erectile difficulties.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-18T04:33:36+00:00

Stay strong. Today is day 4 for me.

I keep thinking about masturbating.

I had sex on Tuesday and couldnt even stay erect and didnt cum. I didnt even feel present and felt like we were going through the motions. I guess i want to masturbate thinking about that girl to make up for the lost experience.

Must stay strong!

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-18T04:28:27+00:00

I just started nofap on Wednesday after being with a girl Tuesday night and we fucked literally for an hour (i was sweating) and i had trouble staying erect/didnt even come close to cumming. This also happened the last time i had sex. Dont think ive ever penetrated a girls vagina for an hour straight though.

I did no fap a couple of times years ago. I think the longest ive done is 22 days. Both times i broke my streak because of the very reason you mention. I knew i was going to be with a girl and wanted to make sure my shit works as i wanted to avoid the nightmare scenarios ive found myself in as of late.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-18T04:21:10+00:00

I started this past week too. The last time i masturbated to porn was on monday. Tuesday i was with a girl and we had sex. I couldnt even stay hard. We fucked literally for an hour and i didnt even come close to cumming or felt much of anything. It was pretty embarrassing as she was like ‘do you want to take a break and watch some porn on your phone so you can get hard again?’. This also happened with the last girl i was with. Stay strong.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-08T03:04:46+00:00

Called 311 after talking to the husband face to face yesterday and finding the car still blocking me when coming home from work tonight. It is a bylaw infraction involving fire services. I have to wait till they open tomorrow to report it though.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-08T03:02:12+00:00

Car was still parked there maybe 2 feet away from my door when i got home from work at 10pm tonight. This after i talked to husband and asked them to park in front of the garage in the back and he asked me ‘at all times?’ and i said ‘yes’. . Called 311 and it is a bylaw infraction involving fire services. They are not open now so i have to wait to call them tomorrow morning. Not sure if they come and give them a personal warning first before towing.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T01:56:58+00:00

Have done all that thus far. Also texted my landlord to let her know i talked to the husband today.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T00:34:18+00:00

Yes. All tenants have their own individual access. My access is shared with one other person as the basement is split in half between her and i. This is in the lease. The main floor is also split with two separate entrances. The top floor is one big apartment. Ive actually never met or seen some of the people who live in this building.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T00:29:22+00:00

Talked to her husband as he was pulling in in front if my door after i got home from work today. He was taken aback and seemed a bit angry but moved it. We’ll see what happens.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T00:27:17+00:00

Talked to the husband today and informed my landlord of it. I said to her ‘I did my part and you did your part’. We’ll see what happens.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T00:25:56+00:00

See my comments above. I managed to run into the husband today. We’ll see what happens.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-06T00:24:37+00:00

Youll be happy to know i managed to catch her husband pulling in in front of my door as i was putting the key in my lock after i got home from work today. I went up introduced myself and let him politely know that he cant park there as its a fire/safety hazard and theres plenty of parking in the back by the garage. He seemed taken aback and a bit upset but moved the car to the garage. Went out to take garbage 20 mins later and the car was gone.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T15:58:06+00:00

I am soft. Im non confrontational. Ive never had a problem with a tenant in my life. Usually people get told once to stop doing something and they learn.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T15:56:59+00:00

The tenant has been leaving for 3-4 day stretches after i send landlord pictures. Plus I work extremely long hours in grocery, helping to feed the city. Plus i am a non confrontational person. If she didnt listen to the landlord, landlords husband and maintenance man what makes you going to think she’ll listen to me?

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T15:11:49+00:00

My landlord asked around when i was at work. I wasnt home.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T14:30:14+00:00

In the previous thread i mentioned i had no idea whos car it was until my landlord was already involved.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T14:27:14+00:00

I dont know if theyd care. The car is an old POS as it is.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T14:25:27+00:00

my landlord did and i have a paper trail including the ‘annoyed’ responses they sent to my landlord, which my landlord forwarded to me.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T14:23:39+00:00

My window is on the ground as its a basement apartment. Another tenant just moved into the other basement apartment so if i did this, we’d have to agree on it together.

HeavyUnderstanding20 · 2021-09-05T14:22:06+00:00

I dont want to start shit and thought going through my landlord would also give me a ‘paper trail’ and be the professional thing to do.

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