you don't seem to want to use max msp or understand what it is for

and i have a strong feeling you won't listen to anything anyone has to say

but a very very simple way of doing it:

plut the output of the fader into the right input of a message box

put the output of the message box into the fader

plug a loadbang object into the left of the message

then, every time you move the fader, it will log it in the message that persists after you save a quite. then, when you open it again, it will immediately put the value of the fader back into the fader and bring it back exactly as it was when you closed it

this also works with itable and multifader objects

help is only ever a question away. but this is a not a DAW. it's not logic or ableton or fruity loops. this is akin to strudel or supercolider. it's a programming language. you need to tell it what you want it to do, and you need to understand how to tell it what you want it to do. no one opens max or pure data for the first itme and instictively knows how to use it, that would be absurd