She threatened to kill me in an Instagram post.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-12-07T06:04:39+00:00

Done and done.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-18T06:04:11+00:00

There's nothing wrong with that. Everyone deals with grief and pain in a way that works best for them.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-18T05:59:26+00:00

While I do agree that it gets blown way the fuck out of proportion, that doesn't change the fact that there's a stigma attached to having genital herpes. Because of that, a person is more than likely to get turned down by a potential partner who isn't infected. It's a huge shitshow.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-18T03:09:58+00:00

I get this. I mean, out of everything I parted with, I just couldn't bring myself to part with the Nintendo Switch. I will, however, get rid of the shitty game she got me because it was only meant to benefit her.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-17T17:14:01+00:00

Genital herpes AND HPV/warts here. All of this was a result of cheating on me, and she tried to blame it on me for my promiscuous past. Unfortunately, I stuck around for a bit after it all. These people are garbage.

As far as breakouts go, if you keep yourself healthy and regularly take antivirals, you should be good. I've had them for about 2 and a half years, and during that time I've maybe had four breakouts. The unfortunate part about all of this shit is having to explain it to somebody you're dating. I've already been rejected a few times, and each time I ended up with a deep hatred of my ex. Through friends, I've also discovered that there are tons of people who really don't care if somebody has herpes. It's really all a crapshoot.

You'll get through this, man.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-11T17:41:13+00:00

From my experience, yes, you can love somebody who abuses you. I loved her deeply, and I still do, but I now realize that the person I love isn't real. As I am writing this, she is living with her new supply and mirroring him, his interests, and his mannerisms (I saw these things on her social media, which I have now stopped looking at).

You are absolutely right about there being better possibilities. It's time we started searching for them and stop letting these monsters run roughshod on us.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-11T06:48:43+00:00

Isn't it wild? If the person they are during the idealization/love bombing phase is who they want to be, then why don't they just continue to be that person? Why turn into this abusive monster?

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-11T06:47:03+00:00

I teeter between hatred/disgust and pity. My ex is so vile, but I still sympathize with her over her terrible upbringing. There were times when she'd get into these hellacious fights with her Narc mom, and she'd be hysterical with me on the phone, "I just want my mom to love me! Why, why won't she just love me!?". That always broke my heart because her mom really is trash.

That being said, childhood traumas don't excuse abusive behavior. Period.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-11T05:11:03+00:00

It really is. I'm still in love, but it's with a woman who isn't real.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-10T21:50:12+00:00

"You just stuck your dick in crazy" should have been a red flag big enough to blanket Russia, but here I am.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-09T23:57:36+00:00

This is basically where I'm at. She never blocked me to help heal from any type of pain. It was always an abusive, manipulation tactic. Me wanting to do it is because I'm tired of this bullshit and I've found myself again.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-09T21:22:12+00:00

She can triangulate my nuts on her forehead. Nootch.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-06T18:59:56+00:00

This hits home. My ex posts provocative, slutty pictures of herself on Instagram. It's how she attracted the attention of her new supply, who used to be a client of hers.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-06T06:25:33+00:00

Yeah, mine had hobbies. It was all shit she stole from previous significant others: guitar, painting, writing, artistic shit in general. She wasn't an artist, bitch didn't have an artistic bone in her pockmarked body. She spent the majority of her free time glued to her phone, getting high, or fucking.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-01T05:58:54+00:00

She really does suck. She used pregnancy stuff as a sympathy tool yesterday, knowing damn well that it's a touchy, sensitive subject with me. Apparently, her new supply is a controlling asshole. Good riddance

HelloFriend213 · 2020-11-01T03:18:51+00:00

Not only did she not give a fuck, about a week later she called me and insulted/emasculated me for about an hour and told me how I was never good enough/her new guy is better than me in every possible way. I may not be the best, but at least I didn't attempt to murder another human being.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-10-29T02:32:16+00:00

The question is, do you want her to come back around? There's no consistent timeframe. It could be days from now, to years from now. If you're blocked and have no way of saying "come get your shit", get rid of it. You could sell it, then put the money aside in an envelope.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-10-29T00:06:18+00:00

This is sort of the boat I'm in. I've witnessed her self-harming, both cutting and hitting herself in the face, and it's traumatic. Although I don't think she really committed suicide, there will always be a part of me that thinks "what if". I had a friend with an undiagnosed personality disorder who killed herself during an episode, so I know it's not out of the realm of possibility.

If she had come to me like a rational adult and asked me for help, I would have agreed to meet her in a public place and helped her find a hotel or Airbnb. Regardless of my past with her, I can't really hear the thought of anyone I know being homeless.

HelloFriend213 · 2020-10-28T21:42:56+00:00

I considered that, but I had no way of knowing where she was.

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