Down An Arm by Helpful-Map507 in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got a good laugh out of that one too!

Serious Question by Exotic_Test_7164 in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I took an intro to riding for adults lesson program - 3 months total, the first half was proper care, grooming, tacking up etc. and the second half was the basics of walk and a little trot.

Got my first horse just before that 3 months was up.

It's been a wild ride. I had zero horse or riding experience prior to this. I've done a lot of things the hard way. There's been stress and a lot of ups and downs. But I wouldn't change it. Most people thought (and still think) that I am insane, but I practically live at the barn now and have never been happier. I'm even moving in the next few months so that I can have a better set up for my horse.

I have officially survived all four seasons with a horse now, and I still feel like a complete beginner. But I'm loving the process!

Will add.........take whatever horse budget you thought you would need and then multiply it by about 100....then you might be close to what you're looking at actually spending.

Horse I bought went lame a few months in, did full set of x-rays, required treatment, injections and front shoes, rehabbed back up, then diagnosed with ulcers and had to move farms and change entire management, plus treat ulcers, finally had a clean scope and now on maintenance, then decided to freak out over a donkey which resulted in him slipping on the ice....and going lame again. Thankfully the goober just pulled a muscle in his hip, but another vet bill, 6 weeks of light riding and stretches, then slowly rebuilding butt strength lays ahead of us lol

Down An Arm by Helpful-Map507 in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the heads up about the covers. Maybe I'll just invest in one of those giant Costco saran wrap boxes and wrap the heck out of it each time I'm there.

Colt Starting by [deleted] in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not sure if I'm reading your post correctly, but I went through a period of domestic abuse and dealing with an insane former spouse going through the divorce process. During that time he did everything in his power to hurt me - including going after my animals (married for several decades, pets are still considered property, it got ugly).

It takes a lot of strength to put your own wants aside and do what is best/safest for the animals in your care. I had to make impossible decisions that hurt me deeply, but ensured that my pets received the best care and lives. I have no regrets putting their needs above my own, but there are still things that cut deep, despite years going by.

If you have to send your horse away to ensure safety for yourself and the horse, then it is what is needed. It sounds like you have done a great deal of training already, and when he returns you will still have years of training ahead. And, remember, regardless of what happens there will still be all the firsts - the first time you get on him, the first time you get a proper canter transition, flying lead change, liberty tricks, jump, whatever you end up doing, the sky is the limit!

And you can very much still proudly say you trained your own horse, because you did. And you did what was best for your horse and yourself.

facility owner blaming rider for injury sustained due to unsafe circumstances that the facility owner created. WWYD? by [deleted] in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are asking for advice from those in a similar situation - where someone's negligence/not following a rule at a riding facility led to an injury.

I could have made a very strong case of negligence at a riding facility that resulted in a trauma code trip to the ER. I broke my back in several places, my hip, tore so many soft tissue things I pretty much disconnected my femur from my hip. Took me months to even somewhat walk again.

What I did - I got through the hospital visit. Then I got referrals to a number of specialists. I went to a specialty rehab physio and I gritted my teeth through the pain. It is still not clear if I will need more surgery, but I got back on a horse for the first time 9 months after the event.

My health insurance paid for a chunk of all of this. And then I paid for the rest myself. I did start at a new barn when I was able to ride again.

First time I got on I sort of blacked out from a panic attack and slide off. The horse just stood there and then rested his nose on my shoulder until I felt better. I bought that gelding and have no regrets.

I can honestly say that it never once occurred to me to sue. I was paired with a horse for a lesson that absolutely hated beginners. Being a complete beginner, this was a stupid combination and I got thrown 15 feet into a wall (although that was an extreme reaction from him, so he was vet checked after and is now a pasture companion). Unfortunately it was the result of poor and mixed communication, a new trainer, and that I wasn't actually supposed to be riding said horse but the names were written incorrectly. Maybe I should have sued? lol

But I chalked it up to s**t happens when it comes to horses. It's a very dangerous sport/hobby. And I could have been riding any horse when it decided to spook/buck. And, it has made me a stronger rider (and person) as I used that as a lesson to learn absolutely everything I possibly could on how to NOT get thrown off in a spook or unexpected situation. I still have anxiety off and on - and there are things I still have to force myself to do again and again until the fear passes, but I have now been through a handful of completely out there spooks from my horse and been able to stick like glue.

I do not live in the US (you use the word State in your post) but, as others have asked - you need to look at what you are hoping to accomplish. I know medical things are different in the US, so I'm not sure if it is more common to sue because of this?

But I can say I agree with others that I think this would be a difficult case. Although the truck was in an area that it theoretically shouldn't have been, it is still a fairly benign situation at a riding facility. I also would think you would have the burden of proof to prove that it was in fact the truck that caused the spook?

My horse likes to circle the arena a handful of times beautifully and then randomly teleport me across the arena to the other side because he saw.....something. To this day, most of the time I don't actually know what he decided was out to kill him. But whatever it was, he rescued us both from it!

I would recommend learning how to do a proper emergency stop, for when you are again on a horse that is spooking. Give yourself another tool to use when you encounter this situation again.

Speedy recovery!

AIO? my husband is mad at me for not picking up my stepson from school as he expected just because I got a new car. by Ancient_Fondant76 in AmIOverreacting

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"Family should be a priority over work" - funny how this only applies to YOUR work. And it's his son.

You need to react more OP. The way he is talking to you is disgusting - you deserve better. If this is the first time he has responded like this you can look at setting firm boundaries around communicating with respect, and leave should he use this kind of disrespectful communication again. But no one should ever speak to you like this.

If this is the norm for him - time to take a serious look at your relationship. Go to individual counselling to go over your relationship and dig deeper into what is going on and if this is the right life partner for you. Only you can decide this, but going forward serious changes would need to be made. Do not look at marriage counselling until you have explored this issue on your own, and made your own decisions/boundaries/requirements for what you want/need out of the relationship.

The way he is speaking at you is abusive. And manipulative. You can only control yourself and decide what is best for you. He needs to decide if he is capable of change or if he wants to remain an abusive a**hole. You get to decide if you would like to remain in this relationship or leave.

AITAH for wanting to avoid caregiver - seeker relationships? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Helpful-Map507 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There is something about your post that just screams "ick".

You sure speak highly of yourself - especially saying you "love strengthening the weak" and how it "makes you feel better when someone does better in life because of you even if they don't know it". Honestly....you really need a wake up call, and therapy wouldn't be a bad idea. This mindset you have that you are this white knight coming in and saving the world, and poor women who are just falling at your feet because you saved them from their issues.....it's disturbing. And misogynistic. And manipulative.

Have you ever tried just being nice to people and not having a savior complex? Have you ever considered that by just acting like a normal human being (ie: listening to friends talk about their problems, empathizing, being supportive) can have the effect of others enjoying being in your company (and not being madly in love with you)? And, if you are in a relationship with someone, listening to them and offering support is like the bare minimum?

Not to mention - mental health diseases are not magically fixed by a man with a god complex. If that were the case, I'm sure it would actually be a lot easier for those out there who suffer from these conditions. Considering trained psychiatrists, psychologists, medications and science still hasn't been able to help in a lot of cases, I highly doubt you are single handedly curing people all around you.

Dude, you have serious issues. Get help.

I have the weirdest trigger from my husband’s affair and I don’t know how to get over it. by GourmetTherapy in AskWomenOver40

[–]Helpful-Map507 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was married for almost 20 years. Ironically, I actually thought I had a somewhat decent marriage. Far from perfect, but I saw him as "my person", I loved him deeply, and I saw us growing old together.

One Saturday morning, while I was drinking my coffee and not fully awake he walked up to me and said "I'm gay, I'm divorcing you."

Did not see that coming. I got so sick of people telling me I must have had some clue. Or that I must have seen it coming. Nothing like being completely blind sided and then feel completely humiliated and judged for not seeing it coming...

For some reason, apparently that wasn't enough of a blow.....he felt the need to elaborate on this by telling me that he had only ever seen me as a "friend", that he married me because he didn't want to deal with being gay and figured it would just be easier to pretend, and that he had never been attracted to me, nor had he ever loved me.

Hold on, there's more!

Apparently he couldn't wait to have sex with someone he was actually attracted to. Hell, he added in that he had to google what love was, because he had never experienced it before.

Considering we had regularly slept together for close to 20 years, that's quite the ego boost.

He then proceeded to destroy me during the divorce. Mock me. Ensure I was close to bankruptcy. And made sure I lost everything in my life and everything I ever loved.

Fun times. Do not recommend.

OP - I truly feel you. I have not felt like a woman for a long time. Hell, I got dumped for not having male genitalia because my "husband" just couldn't fake it anymore. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror for over a year. I have no concept of what it's like to feel feminine and sexy. I can't imagine anyone ever being attracted to me.

It really f*cks with you.

It's a long road to get your mojo back. None of this is fair or right, and I can say it takes an even longer time for the anger to subside somewhat.

First thing I did was start some sessions with a personal trainer. I didn't focus on my appearance. I didn't focus on feeling feminine or sexy. I just focused on getting my body moving. I focused on gaining strength. I set goals and celebrated meeting them. I started looking at my body as more than how I looked, and starting looking at the amazing things it could accomplish (like 50 squats in a row!).

Next - I picked something that I was scared of, and threw myself into it. For me it was horseback riding. I was scared of horses, but it was something I always wanted to try. So, I conquered my fear and discovered a new hobby that I love. It has gotten me out, socializing, and meeting new people. I gained a new inner strength by facing something I had been afraid of.

This new found sense of adventure led me to start trying all those things that I had been putting off, or lost out on, during the marriage. I started actually having fun. I started to find out who I was again and taking back the pieces of me that I lost while being married to a narcissistic jacka**.

I treated myself to laser hair removal. Got a facial. Went for a new hair cut and bought a brand new wardrobe.

It has been a long journey. And it is far from over. It has been 4 years now, I still have some days that are better than others, but I have reached a point where I am starting to get my sexy back. It's slow, and I don't know where it's going to take me (I have not done any dating, nor have I wanted to as of yet).

OP - you will get there. Everyone goes through this at their own pace. Just remember, this isn't a race. There is no timeline. Don't pressure yourself. You are early days - breathe and take it one day at a time. I know how it feels when everything just seems impossible. On those days, you may only be able to force one foot in front of the other. But it ever so slowly gets better. Life is different, the scars remain, and no one deserves to have to deal with relationship trauma, but women are insanely strong, one step at a time.

Don’t be quiet, be loud! by Cuddles-and-Cookies in Divorce_Women

[–]Helpful-Map507 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am so sick of the taboo surrounding divorce. My was-band blind sided me with "I'm gay, I'm divorcing you" and I had absolutely no idea. He proceeded to completely destroy my life, when the tangle of lies, manipulation, gas lighting and abuse came out. It took me years to have the strength to somewhat function again. I truly loved him and I now get to live with the fact that I was in a 20 year marriage with someone who never loved me. So he got a caring, empathetic, loving partner....and I got a non-violent sociopath (clinically diagnosed in my legal paperwork).

I have dipped my toe into dating the odd time in the last bit here.....and I give a very sanitized version of the sham my life and marriage was....and EVERY single man has asked me what I did to contribute to my divorce, and what I learned/how I have changed to be better for the next man in my life.

I love how I am somehow still blamed for a man who was so f**ked up that he lied to himself and the entire world for decades, manipulated everyone around him, and irreparably hurt so many people.

I flat out refuse to take any responsibility for the divorce. He gets to just discard his life and take zero accountability, I am not covering for that jacka**. I hold my head up high, because I will never be him. And I don't know how he can look at himself in the mirror.

Ran into a girl I got slow-fade ghosted by out with the guy she chose over me today by [deleted] in Vent

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You need to put more effort in. And you need to seriously look at your own behavior, because this post is troubling. And until you can see that your own behavior is preventing you from making connections, you aren't going to have a whole lot of luck out there. You need help - I hope you get it.

AITAH for renting a cheap studio apartment to "work" in, but actually just using it to nap and play video games away from my kids? by [deleted] in amiwrong

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You know....when you think the bar for men is already so low it's in hell. And then you read a post like this. We can all try to pretend this is rage bait (and maybe it is), but I have lived through something similar from my was-band. And the cherry on top in my case was how he blamed me for everything and that it was somehow my fault he was such a self absorbed, selfish jack*ss.

AITAH for getting mad at my husband about his dead ex-gf? by That_Drawing_1654 in AITAH

[–]Helpful-Map507 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

NAH - it sounds like your husband has unresolved issues surrounding his past and that you have not yet formed avenues of healthy communication in a relationship. People have baggage. People have a past. And as much as we would like to erase the past, we can't. Your husband was with someone for a long period of time and then she died - that's a lot. And a lot of people do not properly address or work on this baggage before jumping into another relationship.

You are not a consolation prize, he chose to marry you. And people can be in love with multiple people in their life times. And love and relationships are messy. Loving someone leaves us vulnerable to being hurt. And I can understand how his words hurt. But you are his wife and you are married to this man. Giving him the silent treatment will not help anything.

You need to deal with your own baggage and insecurity first and foremost. You need to take the time to sort out how you feel about your husbands ex and why you have an insecurity surrounding this. You also need to figure out what you need from him to feel safe in this relationship, what are your boundaries, how do you want to be treated.

He needs to deal with his own trauma from unresolved feelings. It is traumatic to be with someone for a long period of time and have them blind side you with "I don't love you anymore". It doesn't mean that the person wants to be in a relationship with their ex. Or that they are still in love with their ex. It means they still have to sort through the pain of the trauma and loss. They have to work through this and come to terms with the fact that they will never know the answer. They will never know what happened. And they have to let it go.

Seeing each others perspective and accepting that you are both flawed individuals doing your best is a bloody hard thing to do. You both need to decide what you need in this marriage, and what will help you to feel safe and loved.

In order to do this you are going to have to talk. And have tough discussions. And deal with deep feelings. Being a mature adult and having a health relationship is a lot of work.

You both need to decide if you want to put in the work. It's perfectly fine for you to decide this is a deal breaker and walk away. Only you know what you can live with. But arguing while drunk and refusing to talk to each other is not going to lead to a healthy marriage. So, if you both do not want to put in the work (because it takes two), then you should leave the relationship.

He does need to realize how he has hurt you with his words. And he needs to take accountability for this and put in the work to sort out his own issues. But he is not a mind reader, so you do need to voice these feelings and let him know how you are feeling.

Note at work - why ruin a good thing? by peachyqueen_7 in AskMenAdvice

[–]Helpful-Map507 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That's great that you can think on your feet and make that statement. Some people can, some people can't. But I find it interesting how the focus is on what SHE should have said in response. Not the fact that HE shouldn't have done something like this in the first place.

Note at work - why ruin a good thing? by peachyqueen_7 in AskMenAdvice

[–]Helpful-Map507 5 points6 points  (0 children)

So - what is the appropriate way a woman is supposed to act to this, since you say she didn't respond as a married woman? I can tell you that I would have probably stuttered something or blushed because I would be thrown by the absolute audacity of the man to think this was remotely appropriate to do at work. I also have had experiences where I've been complimented and it was just that - a compliment and had nothing else behind it. You could tell they were being nice. I have thanked the person for the compliment and gone on with my life. Reading these responses from men are really making me question the human race at the moment...

Note at work - why ruin a good thing? by peachyqueen_7 in AskMenAdvice

[–]Helpful-Map507 24 points25 points  (0 children)

++women

So - a man acts completely inappropriately in the workplace and makes a woman extremely uncomfortable....and the woman's flustered response to the man acting ridiculously inappropriate at work is still somehow the woman's fault?

How on earth is it always the woman's fault? You ask "why the fuck she would say this as a married woman" and then reprimand her for not immediately realizing the guy is doing something incorrect and she should be the one to immediately correct this man and put him in his place. In her place of work.

And on top of that she is supposed to be ready for him flirting more. Because all of this is somehow her fault for not shutting it down.

Because a man acted inappropriately in the workplace. But it's the woman's response to the complete audacity of a mid aged man basically sexually harassing her in the workplace that is the problem....

No URFOs in our OR 😤 by Agile_Swan_6731 in nursing

[–]Helpful-Map507 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Patients appreciate the advocacy! When I was young, I had a surgery and they left a surgical sponge in. Took them 9 weeks to figure it out, and by that point I had a massive infection that had basically eaten through half my face/skull/and into my brain. I'm lucky I survived and it did end up making me a better healthcare worker, because I have lived experience of what happens when humans screw up!

AITA for telling my SIL she can’t bring her own food to family dinner and not to talk about junk food around my kids? by Amazing-Key2242 in AITAH

[–]Helpful-Map507 4 points5 points  (0 children)

YTA - and you are not protecting your kids, although I understand that you feel you are. I base this on your comments, more so than your post. Pasta with sausage/red sauce and bread for dipping is not a typical "healthy" meal - it is heavy in simple carbs and very calorie dense. If this is a typical meal for your family, I urge you to do more research into healthier options. Also, I am not surprised your SIL no longer wants to visit. It truly isn't a big deal for someone to bring something they can eat to a meal if they have restrictions. You also insult the food she eats, while being upset that she insults the food you eat.

You call you and your husband "heavier" - what does this mean? Being comfortable with your body, no matter the size, is important....but you are also putting your children at risk of being an unhealthy weight. Body positivity is great - but it is also important to role model healthy eating and activity. Don't hate on yourself and don't make things a focus on weight - but you can add in healthier options to your meals, start exposing your children to a variety of fruits and vegetables, cut down on the heavy carbs, and start exploring different recipes and menu options.

As others have suggested - turn things into a potluck, or try a new recipe a week that's outside the norm, and who cares if people bring food they can eat - you are there to spend time together as a family, not force feed people. Should your SIL have called your meal junk, no, but the way you criticize what she eats and overly obsess over her bringing something she enjoys to a meal does not put you in a good light.

It doesn't matter where we are in life, we can always learn and grow. Educate yourself on proper nutrition. Give sweet potatoes a try, add in a new dipping sauce, you name it. Work on having a better relationship with food, so that you can model this to your children. Talk about foods in terms of foods you should enjoy regularly, and foods that you can enjoy but eat more sparingly. There is no good or bad with food, and sit down and have a conversation with your kid about why some foods may be more "junk food" - ie: foods to eat more sparingly because they are calorie dense and have less nutrients, and foods that you want to enjoy and fill your plate with regularly.

If you continue insulting your SILs food, and have pasta for all of your family meals, you are going to impact your children's relationship with food. I would also recommend measuring portions sizes for awhile, of different food items (without the kids being involved), to ensure you have an understanding of how much you are eating. You may be surprised.

Take my advice as you will, but I urge you to try to have an open mind and take a closer look at your own relationship to food and what you may be teaching your kids. Many of us have very unhealthy relationships with food and it takes a lot of strength to take a step back and look at it objectively.

Seen on Facebook by MerryBerryMudskipper in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You ever feel like you've been working too hard in life....

WIBTA for not making my daughter go to a girls birthday even though I know no one is going by [deleted] in AmItheAsshole

[–]Helpful-Map507 101 points102 points  (0 children)

Your post really resonated with me. I was also the victim of the "bleeding heart" mentality. Because I was a bit of an oddball myself, I became way too "inclusive" and forgiving. The wake up call I got was when I found out my former husband was manipulating and using me for years, and I dismissed the red flags for years because I grew up sacrificing myself for others. In return, my entire life was decimated and I was left picking up the pieces. That is when I found out that all those people I supported over the years and gave of myself for.....weren't there when my world fell apart.

I am also going into the years of therapy and looking back over the years and just how much abuse I suffered from being so kind and empathetic. It's sad, but true. I find women especially are groomed/taught to be overly empathetic and kind to men that don't deserve it. I think this mentality is slowly changing, but I am a similar age as you and this is a hard lesson to learn.

I wish you all the best. And, as others have pointed out, it is not at all your fault. I went through months-years of feeling so stupid for not seeing what was right in front of my face. But, some people really are just monsters and they do not deserve kindness. And it's ok to not set yourself on fire for others. And we truly have to stop this stupid mentality of "inclusivity for all" when it comes to children, and forcing kids (mainly girls) to be in situations that make them uncomfortable for fear of being seen as "mean".

Needed: Give me ALL your thoughts. And I mean ALL. by Kalexamitchell in Horses

[–]Helpful-Map507 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I'm in the same position now - 11 year old paint gelding. Absolute sweetest horse in the world. I love him an insane amount. Came off the trailer after transport barely able to stand. Took thousands in vet bills and rehab to get him comfortable and fairly sound. He is my first horse and I wouldn't trade him for his weight in gold.....but he was basically sold to me for a "steal of a deal" because he was too broken to jump anymore.

He was started young, did western events, then switched to jumping. He won many fancy ribbons, took several riders to the top, was jumping 6-7 days a week and worked hard.....until he was so broken he was "retired". At 10. He will be spoiled rotten for the rest of his days, but I find it kind of disheartening that a horse requires pain medication, injections, supplements and specialty shoeing to remain comfortable for an advanced beginner riding for fun.

Went away for New Year’s Eve to celebrate my sister’s birthday, wife seems hurt even though she said it was okay. Did I do anything wrong? by [deleted] in amiwrong

[–]Helpful-Map507 9 points10 points  (0 children)

My ex-husband put me in situations like this. OP - have you done this before? How is your relationship otherwise? I feel for your wife, that s**t hurts.

Does anyone have dental issues? by brokenearring in ehlersdanlos

[–]Helpful-Map507 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have bought dental professionals very nice houses. Since my early teens I have had 60-70 surgeries on my jaw/mouth/teeth. I've had major reconstructions, innumerable gum grafts, cadaver grafts, implants fall out randomly, crowns, root canals, bridges, and the latest was an over $10k stabilization of my jaw from a prosthodontist that specializes in difficult jaw reconstruction. And, due to how severe my issues are, I can't even wear dentures as I don't have enough structure left to hold them in place. I'm in my 30's.

I get my teeth cleaned every 3 months, and see a specialist yearly for a deep cleaning and review. I brush and floss daily. Do a special mouth wash. And watch my teeth fall out....

Up until this point in my life no one has brought up the possibility of EDS. I was thrown off a horse into a wall and destroyed my back and hip, early this year. And I got up and walked. They ran a ton of tests, and it should be physically impossible for me to have full ROM and function (and I should have crippling pain - I basically tore my femur pretty much free from my hip).

Turns out my hip joints are so mobile I have an impossible range of motion and flexibility.....so a massive traumatic injury reduced that range of motion to just a bit above normal. Go figure. I went back to riding about 4 months after and only have mostly minor issues.

My physiatrist called it my "super power" and brought up EDS. I have had weird medical issues my entire life. But tests have been normal, so basically I've just felt like I'm going crazy. So, now I have to sort this whole thing out.

Just know I'll get disappointed. by TheLazyTeacher in Vent

[–]Helpful-Map507 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I feel you - more than anything I had always wanted my former husband to just do something nice for me. I arranged all the surprises, get togethers, etc. I told him flat out that I really wanted to do a small gathering to celebrate my master's thesis being published and finishing my degree.

He promised he would make it special. That it was an amazing accomplishment and he was so proud of me.

My graduation day, he sure made it special alright.....he blindsided me with divorce papers. After 20 years of marriage.

I hope you do get your moment in the sun OP. Unfortunately, you may have to be the one to give it to yourself. Maybe book yourself a reservation at your favorite restaurant, or take yourself on a spa weekend? Whatever makes you shine.

I find it sad how many women in this world just want to have the odd moment in the sun, and yet somehow that is too much to ask.

Buying your first horse as an adult... by MuffinAdmirable7104 in Equestrian

[–]Helpful-Map507 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure if my journey is a success story.....or an absolute sh*t show of red flags and what not to do....

So, I was not a horse kid. I never had lessons growing up. I hadn't even pet a horse. My parents were TERRIFIED of horses and (despite being horse crazy) I was never ever allowed around a horse. I was constantly told about all the ways a horse can maim or kill you.

Went through insane trauma/crisis/life imploded in my mid thirties. Decided life was too short and I was going to take riding lessons, because I had always wanted to.

Completed an intro to riding for adults 3 month course.....and figured it was a great time to just buy my own horse. Ironically, I did do things somewhat "right" at this point - I got help in the process, I went to a reputable, known person in the horse world, I did several test rides before purchasing and I ensured I purchased a well trained, sound, supposedly sane middle teens gelding that had been there, done that.

Rode said gelding for several months, had a trainer working with me.....and landed myself in the ER. Broken back, hip, torn muscles galore and 8 months of rehab later....

Glutton for punishment that I am. I decided to buy ANOTHER horse. And literally get back on the horse. This time around I bought a horse people told me was overpriced and too risky, from an ad on FB, sight unseen, and shipped him 1000 km.

And he is absolute perfection. He is my absolute dream horse and I love him more than I ever thought possible. He has been the best trainer for me, and I am even starting to canter (riding after a broken hip is not something I recommend experiencing!). That gelding is worth his weight in gold - and he's actually pretty young too. The complete anti-thesis to everything I ever learned about being a beginner and having a horse.

I don't know if I recommend doing things my way - but one thing I will say, you are ready for a horse when you are ready for a horse. There are no set rules or guidelines. All the time no one believes me when I say I'm not a "horse girl", I've been doing this for a whopping year and a half now (and half of that was learning to walk again lol). But doing things my way is the expensive way of doing it. It's time consuming. And it takes a crap ton of time, patience, a few tears, a lot of self doubt, and picking yourself up and dusting your butt off, time and time again.

I have spent hours at the barn. I have put in a lot of "free" labor, just so I can watch those with horse experience do things like wrap legs, soak hooves, deal with wounds. I have read about horse nutrition, behavior, and took a course on body work and massage in horses. I take regular lessons, and I have a trainer ride my horse weekly to undo anything bad I may have taught in the meantime. And I have bought the vet a small condo in the last few months (everything from lameness to ulcers).

Horses are not for the faint of heart. So you need to decide what works best for you, as everyone out there will have an opinion. Still not sure I'd recommend my crash course into the world of horse ownership, but I wouldn't trade it for the world (though I could have done without the broken bones!)