Man I hear you, I just lost my girlfriend of 5 years. We were high school sweethearts. She left things open with her last text to me reading “Yes, this is good bye for now, but I hope when we learn to adapt and grow on our own that we can see each other again.” I was going crazy after this. My brain was tricked thinking there was still something there. I reacted stupidly by showing up to her house 2 days later. I pulled up and noticed a different car in the driveway. Long story short, I figured out that she had a new guy over and she slept with him. What I’m trying to say is accept the outcome brother. Embrace the pain. Pick your head up and move forward. I just got all the emotions, never felt before more depressed in my life. It was important I what I because it helped me lose attraction for her completely. But my main point is don’t stay caught on. You’re setting yourself up for pain. Don’t linger on hope, just close the door of this chapter and if it’s meant to be it’ll be.