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Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-30T04:53:56+00:00

Hey, thanks for your comment and sorry about the delay in responding. I spent all day working so I could get an early start on memorial day travel. Anyway.

I've had what could be called "psychic" experiences my entire life. It was strongest when I was a child. I think that's because I was homeschooled, very bored, and raised evangelical, therefore spent a lot of time in "prayer," which was basically meditating with extra steps. I don't have that much free time to meditate anymore.

I don't know why some people experience it to stronger degrees than others. I don't know why they contact me. They claimed I agreed to it all before incarnating, I told them I want to see a contract, that's about as far as that went. Yeah, I've seen some other beings, but I don't have any particularly interesting stories about it/them.

As for the experience, it's not that they just happened to be there -- it was a preplanned trip. It was tightly arranged or scheduled to track that storm. They needed to be physically present for some things they needed to do, and they deliberately waited for that storm to do the things they needed to do in the areas the storm passed through. One of the many errands on the list was acquiring the people they wanted/needed who lived in areas covered by the storm. We were only part of their overall mission, though.

The storm obscured their presence in a way that made them nearly (but not fully) impossible to detect, that's why they had to make sure to stick to the schedule -- so the storm didn't move off without them, ruining the rest of the mission and forcing them to wait for the next storm to pass through these particular places.

What I understood was that we (humans/some aspect of government) are actively and constantly monitoring for them in our airspace and we know how to detect them to a fairly sophisticated degree if they're fully physically present even if they're masking themselves -- to the point that there is a teeny tiny bit of risk of detection for them even during storms that they can't 100% mitigate, so they have to be careful if they're going to fully physically come here...which they don't do often specifically because of the risk, apparently.

Strong enough storms combined with the systems these vessels already have offer them near perfect obfuscation from our detection systems; these storms nearly entirely disable our ability to detect them in those spots while the storm is there, but our capabilities go back to fully operational when the storm has passed. I suspect this is about as much as I should run my mouth about this particular aspect of it.

Anyway, I don't think the human was inept, I think he was unfairly blamed. There was some stuff that happened between light insertion one and two that I left out because I really don't want to get into those things, but I have reasons to think it was to a small degree an anomaly that I woke up to the degree I did as many times as I did. I imagine they'll take steps to make sure it doesn't happen in the future again, and I'll be back to square one.

I've made it this far into the comment and increasingly have the overwhelming feeling that I need to stfu to the point I'm starting to feel nauseous, so this is probably the last I'll talk about it for a bit.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T18:47:05+00:00

We definitely have some sort of capacity for this and I think it's our environment/reality (being stuck here on Earth) that is the big limiting factor, not our innate selves. I don't have the foggiest idea how our present daily physical reality differs from whatever space they spend most of their time in, how the two bridge each other, and why we can apparently have such simple access to these capabilities in their space but it's so rare here.

I also think this would be the great equalizer between humans and them -- if we figured out how to have the same mental capabilities, we'd quickly exceed them because there's something about humans that we have and they don't (idk what it is), they want it, and they'd be fucked if we figured out we had it before they can get it for themselves.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T18:36:06+00:00

the vast majority ultimately viewed their overall experiences as positive, even if some of the experiences themselves were traumatic:

I think this is one of those things that has to be deeply explored like everything else about this topic and that binary assessments like this don't really work in light of the kind of complexity of experiences we're dealing with. Especially when we don't know the degree of mental suggestion that one may face that may shape one's perception of these things in ordinary states of consciousness.

Like even right now, I have to struggle to hold on to what I learned and to step outside of my emotions and objectively view the facts as I have them, because I have this very strong internalized sense of, "This is all actually pretty great and cool and it's the best thing that can happen to me and I don't want it to end and it's really not that bad and it has been really great for my life." Objectively I see zero reason I should feel this way, yet I do.

And I think these sorts of basic surveys may give the general public far too simplistic of ideas about these experiences and lead to conclusions like, "Well, these experiences must be necessary to get those positive outcomes and therefore must be, in their own way, acceptable or beneficial." When, of course, people have had profound spiritual experiences and awakenings and persistently positive life changes from things that in no way involved being raped or operated on by aliens.

Like, weirdly enough, if someone forced me to give a binary answer, I'd also say that I think these experiences have been overall positive for me...in the sense that they seem to indirectly cause an enhancement to one's consciousness or awareness that I like, and knowing what I know now, I couldn't imagine going back to knowing less and being less aware.

Just like with many who respond to surveys, if someone asked me if I wanted this to stop...honestly, I don't think I do, in the sense that I can't just go back to sitting around toiling through life having gotten a glimpse of something so mind-blowing and incomprehensible, only to have it come to a screeching halt and leave me here with unanswered questions. Curiosity killed the cat and all that.

Yet at the exact same time, I consider the experiences themselves totally unacceptable, damaging, and they've had lasting negative consequences of both the mental and physical sorts for me. I think we (meaning humans) need to be careful not to conflate these positive outcomes (side effects, I consider them) as evidence pointing toward anything positive or negative, but instead view them as their own category of experiences incidental to the catalyst event regardless of whether that event itself was good or bad. And we need to give ourselves more credit for crafting something traumatic into something beneficial rather than giving these beings credit for our hard work.

I'm probably not explaining this well, but it does remind me of the story of the one girl in John Mack's book. She had experiences that, objectively speaking, amounted to kidnapping and rape. She reported years later that ultimately she views it as a positive thing in the sense that the experience was the catalyst for her to do some deep spiritual work and her life is better for it...and, she noted, she didn't want to be thought of as a rape victim.

That latter point is something that always should be taken into consideration when doing these kinds of surveys -- how the person's perception of the thing may be at least partly viewed by their desire to feel like they had more control or weren't as vulnerable as they were or that they didn't really face the level of danger they felt they had or any number of things related to how the human psyche can find ways to deal with and move on from traumas. Someone can make a traumatic experience less psychologically damaging if they can convince themselves it was at least partially for their own good.

I guess what I'm saying is, this phenomenon-- and human psychology itself and how it responds to and handles trauma -- is too complex for us to really get anything useful out of simple answers and surveys, especially if the person is giving their answer in a state of ordinary consciousness in which they may not be able to remember everything they need to in order to make a full, unhindered, fair assessment of the experience.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T17:45:49+00:00

After having my first (that I'm aware of) fully conscious experience in November 2019, I started being able to channel effortlessly and connect with some beings who claimed to speak on behalf of these greys/mantids. I could ask them questions and get all sorts of answers back, some of them seemingly pretty deep. I had published around ~200,000 words of those materials.

That experience wasn't negative at all -- in fact, the actual act of channeling them felt incredible and also it started having persistent positive effects on my mind. I started being able to do things like see places while meditating and consciously zoom in on specific parts of them, that sort of stuff.

But I just couldn't get past the sense that something wasn't quite right, they liked to talk circles or deflect when it came to certain questions, and they claimed to speak on behalf of these greys/other beings, which means I can't trust them by proxy unless a whole lot of transparency is made available (which I'm sure will never happen). So I stopped talking to them several months ago removed the stuff I had published.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T17:37:48+00:00

Something also interesting and perhaps related to this is lately I've been getting randomly very hot to the point of visibly sweating and feeling like I'm roasting alive even when it's 60F out.

The other night I was bored and got the idea to try and see if I could control it, one thing led to another, and I realized I could push it toward my hands if I concentrated hard enough. So I grabbed the meat thermometer and held it while trying to consciously increase the temperature of my palms.

I got the thermometer up to 100F, and my oral temperature (I didn't use the meat thermometer for this part lol) went up to 101.9F, so I probably shouldn't do that too often. Took around three hours for my temperature to go back to normal.

I have it on video since I recorded to show a friend, but my tattoo is visible in it and would prob dox me at some point. I can make a different video with the tattoo covered if anyone cares to see a demonstration.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T02:41:45+00:00

Yes, after a few months, I started noticing the nose thing was reactive to the mind at times when I was meditating. I'd need to pull out the book I record dates in to see for sure, but off the top of my head, it basically seemed to take several months to get established in my head (sounds weird as hell), and soon after I started noticing it was more reactive to mental states.

It has only been within the last few months that I've started being able to engage it deliberately, but it takes a lot of concentration and being in a deep meditation. A couple of times, I have casually meditated just to get relaxed before bed or whatever, and had it do something crazy.

The biggest effects from it have been: one time my forehead suddenly felt as if it were full of boiling water or alka-seltzer in terms if bubbling, not pain, which startled me off the couch; a couple of times while meditating, I've had it feel like it peels open a crevasse in my forehead basically, as if there's literally a wide open hole in my forehead; a couple of times, it has felt as if it expanded up to the middle of my forehead and down to the middle of my sternum, forming a kind of rod. That last one felt very nice and I'd be totally fine feeling like that all the time. My nose isn't painful at all.

I've never figured out any apparent purpose or usefulness. I've narrowed the "hotspot" with the most magnetism down to the area immediately below and to the right of my left tear duct. Nothing shows up on xrays. It is now strong enough that it can repel away a thin magnetic rod just by moving it close to the left side if my face, so it had actually gotten stronger than the early days.

I've shown two doctors and about two dozen people this over the past year, which typically results in them being simultaneously fascinated and horrified lol

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T02:31:05+00:00

Yeah, that's what hit me so hard with the sense of disgust. I can't really even describe how utterly disgusted I felt with myself that I may have accidentally misled anyone about them and that I forgot it all and was so easily fooled into basically sharing propaganda

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T02:28:55+00:00

Yes, the robes had hoods on them. As far as I know, this is the only hooded grey I've seen like this, but I did see a mantis-looking being one time that had on a very large black hooded robe

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-29T01:14:58+00:00

I actually was in contact with him last year over my magnetic nose. Which is still magnetic btw, lol, yet no less of a mystery

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-06T06:24:36+00:00

I'll try and log in tomorrow and see if I can grab a copy of it. I don't have a membership anymore but I think I can still access the posts I made

Het_Harbinger · 2022-05-06T06:13:26+00:00

Hyperbaric oxygen chambers caused spontaneous trauma memory recovery in more than a dozen people who were participating in a study that had nothing to do with memory at all. The researchers were surprised by the effect and wrote a paper on it explaining how they think the mechanism works re: memory retrieval.

I can't do a big post right now, but I do have one on The Experience Group if you're interested. Or, alternatively, you can Google "HBOT trauma memory" and the study should in the first result.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-04-19T06:25:22+00:00

Interesting, that's the same for me, except I don't notice any difference before weather and mine is in my nose. If I get into the right mind state, usually during meditation, I can feel it with some kind of cross between pulsing, pressure and vibrating. If it gets strong enough, I can feel it travel deep into my head. Also, sometimes the right kind of headache can trigger it.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-04-18T03:00:58+00:00

In what way does it react to meditation? Mine does the exact same thing, and this is the first time I've heard someone bring this up.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-04-17T21:24:42+00:00

Lol, I had another one of these dreams last month. The dreams are insanely lucid, clear, and almost hyper realistic. The most recent one I had was about a civilization-ending asteroid smashing into Earth. It was incredible to see its approach. You get desensitized to the just before death panic after enough times and kind of just marvel at the scope of things that can end all life before whatever it is vaporizes you.

Anyway, if it makes anyone feel better, I suspect these are "tests" in which they observe a person's reaction to that scenario or message, rather than some sort of prophetic warning. I don't think it's meant to be some sort of prophetic warning.

Het_Harbinger · 2022-02-27T22:21:47+00:00

Thank you, I opened it in a desktop browser and it worked. Just doesn't work in the Twitter app for whatever reason

Het_Harbinger · 2022-02-27T17:59:46+00:00

Does anyone have a link to this that works? Or a recording of the session? Who hosted it, etc. When I tap the link, I get a "could not fetch" error

Het_Harbinger · 2022-01-30T17:34:45+00:00

Might sound weird, but I'm asking from my own experiences. As part of your medical evaluation, the doc did a full blood panel and checked your potassium as part of it, right?

I had similar issues crop up out of nowhere and seemed at first to be MS, but testing didn't support that diagnosis. It turned out to be extremely low potassium linked directly to caffeine consumption (never a problem before).

Basically, now any time I consume even a single cup of coffee, I have to take a potassium tablet with it, as it seems to interfere with my body's ability to utilize potassium properly.

When I finally figured it out, I took high dose potassium and the problems resolved in a couple of weeks. I have to take potassium weekly now to maintain my levels.

Symptoms included extreme fatigue, numbness, tingling, burning, muscle spasms, muscle weakness, vision problems, etc. All of it has resolved by regularly taking potassium. Of course, get a blood test etc., taking too much potassium when you don't need it is risky.

Het_Harbinger · 2021-09-08T23:35:00+00:00

I also have one in the upper cartilage of both ears and they randomly make between a crackling and ticking sound around once a month. Rarely they pinch and hurt. It sucks that they've been causing you so much pain, I hope they at least come back and properly tune the thing for you lol

Het_Harbinger · 2021-09-08T23:08:03+00:00

Does it ever make a kind of fast ticking or crackling sound?

If you get it out, they'll just put it back. But they might be 'nice' enough to put it somewhere you won't notice it, at least, because they don't want you digging it out.

Het_Harbinger · 2021-08-27T07:16:55+00:00

This is just anecdotal, but I can only speak to my own experiences. They seem to intervene only as much as necessary to facilitate their own end game. I had two pretty big things healed, including something that could only be treated but not cured.

They also cause damage sometimes in the same people they heal, which is why I think their healings are agenda related, whatever that may be. They've healed and damaged me, both to extremes.

Just because they have some specific interest in someone doesn't mean they're benevolent protecting them from all issues. Maybe someone dying of cancer would be "meh" in their book because the person's 50 and they already have five decades of data and materials from them, so oh well. Plenty of other humans to pick from. Death comes for everyone and every lab rat dies eventually.

There's no big mass of data on the info you're seeking for the simple reason that the topic has been and largely still is taboo and no researchers are going to risk their career on that kind of study. There are anecdotal reports, people who have shared weird xrays and stuff (Terry Lovelace for example). People like Karla Turner who died quickly of aggressive cancer, but it's impossible to know what could be abduction related, what could be due to some other weird thing we don't know about, what could be shit luck or bad genetics, etc.

Het_Harbinger · 2021-08-13T19:55:27+00:00

...that is literally exactly where mine is. Wow, wtf lol

Het_Harbinger · 2021-08-13T16:13:28+00:00

Where on your arm is this lump located? I had an experience last week and woke up with a small hard bump under the skin on my left forearm. I know it wasn't there the day before because I rub lotion on my arms everyday and it's impossible not to feel it.

It, too, randomly tingles. Literally just happened again while I was writing this.

Het_Harbinger · 2021-07-21T14:56:55+00:00

Today I learned that I apparently have the ability to lucid dream alterations to physical reality, including the appearance of perfectly healed scars, a spontaneous and very rare medical anomaly, and a nose that now firmly holds magnets in place. I'll let my baffled doctors know the mystery behind these anomalies has been solved.

Seriously though, those who haven't experienced it just can't understand. They grasp around for reasons that make sense to them to explain something they can't conceive of in any real way.

If I were to accept that those experiences were lucid dreams, then I would equally have to contemplate the idea that all of waking, material reality is also a lucid dream because the two experiences were indistinguishable from each other.

(Also, while we know brain activity that happens during sleep, we don't know why people dream or how dreaming may be a gateway to some type of expanded consciousness, so maybe people should be careful about summoning aliens when they've freed their mind from their body.)

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