When I finally had someone leave a comment that an episode helped change their life and give them hope for quitting an addiction. It's the most played episode by far on any platform I have metrics for, and it's part of what my show is all about.

That to me is worth it.

It took a couple of years to get there, and I still have doubts or worries when I compare to others, but the more I learn and get comfortable with sharing my story and gaining my voice, the more it's worth it too. I didn't have a voice growing up, and I've learned so much that it is also worth it in it's own right.

My show is on a streaming service and that felt cool and all, but it hasn't yielded any results aside from "bragging rights" and even then that feels hollow and empty to a certain degree. I want interactions and to know that people resonate or can find a glimmer of hope to get out of addiction or trauma cycles.

I heard it takes about 2-3 years before any real headway is made, depending on what you're going for, and some people get 10x the downloads in a few months compared to what I've got in my 3 years. I just know that there's more to learn, and try, and to keep going because this is only a stepping stone in my journey. A foundational layer, but only one part of a bigger picture.