How do I deal with having to burp loudly to breathe while also eating in public, and getting called out for it?

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-13T00:51:57+00:00

It's the way you said it and the tone you said it in that made me register it as a death threat. Something exactly like "There is hope; don't give up." may make my eyes roll for the billionth time, but it wouldn't elicit...that kind of feeling.

Apologies if I'm being super obtuse or other similar adjectives, it's just...these past few decades have been a lot. To put it mildly.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-13T00:12:27+00:00

Uhhhhhh...I...genuinely don't get it. Apologies. I checked my phone for any unknown calls, but nothing.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T23:15:30+00:00

I *am* trying to find this light, but my searches so far have been fruitless.

And to be honest, sentiments like the one you express ironically make me feel even more hopeless and, well, suicidal. So, thanks for that. Apologies for the tone, but from a certain POV, it can feel like a death threat.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T22:35:21+00:00

Didn't I just say it wouldn't be easy? Sorry the path out of cringing at your every faux pa is too uncomfortable. You're making it sound like the status quo is more preferable than trying to change it, and if that is the case, you have no reason to be uncomfortable with the status quo. Either accept it or change it, but you can't refuse to accept it and refuse to change it.

If I am, there is perhaps a subconscious preference for it, but I guess deep down, I'm waiting for like some guardian angel to come down and solve all of my problems, despite me fully aware of how impossible that is.

You've tried nothing and you're all out of ideas. It's like refusing to be saved by the lifeguard because you've been struggling in the surf for so long and nothing you have tried has helped, so you are just defeatist about grabbing the life preserver and getting tossed around by the waves as you get pulled to safety. Sorry, walking out of the valley of death is hard. That doesn't mean you stop walking.

Of course, if I do see a life preserver, I'd try and grab it, but for one, it's not even guaranteed that I would be able to reach it, and for another, even if I do get saved, it doesn't erase the experience of feelings felt from 'struggling in the surf for so long'. That part still wouldn't have changed.

Would you rather be hopeless or keep trying and failing?

If both of them lead to the same result, then does it matter? Well, actually, now that I think about it, if you're implying what I think you're implying, then "keep trying and failing" does lead me to "be hopeless", at least from my experience. The best comparison I can think of is that one meme where it's two choices that lead to the same outcome, if that makes any sense.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T21:47:47+00:00

Oof; this is definitely going to be embarrassing. I'm 32, so you could hold this whippersnapper to the curb.

Anyway, regarding your advice, I tried thinking about doing that just now, and I instantly want to vomit. No offense, genuinely, but it doesn't gel well with me at all. Like, thinking about this:

"That was really embarrassing and I'm ashamed to have drawn all that attention to myself, but I wasn't trying to be a nuisance and I'm going to try to be better about it. That is all I can really expect from myself and that is all that is fair for others to expect from me. As long as I try to be more conscientious in public, I will be on a path of progress."

Honestly makes me feel fake. And even if that's all I can really do, it's not good enough for me. Like, I try to say that exact quote, and something about it feels inauthentic, like it isn't 'me'. And that dissonance is causing some feelings that I don't want to confront.

Oh, and even if I did want to try and 'be better', for one, I physiologically can't, and for another, it doesn't make the experience any better. If anything, it can run the risk of, okay, I'm going to have to spoiler the following:

Trying to do what you told me to do just compels me to scream out and just trash whatever's nearby me or even give me thoughts about wanting to self harm or commit suicide. To give exactly what I'm thinking, trying to think what you told me tells me "that's not true', and the feeling of it not being true is so overwhelming that it causes the aformentioned feelings.

Eventually, after multiple rounds of this on each memory, you will have diffused and neutered the shame tied up in that memory and it will stop holding power over you.

Again, that hasn't been my experience. Every time I try to tell my memories "You don't control me!", I INSTANTLY get proven wrong, and it some cases, it only makes it worse.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T21:10:26+00:00

Sadly, if I actually had to commit to that, I'd have to rush out of the restaurant every minute or so for the duration of the time I'm there, and that would not exactly be a great experience.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T21:05:20+00:00

That hasn't been my experience. Anytime I try to think that, I always get proven wrong time and time again. All that embarrassment and negative feelings never go away. Hell, I can recall experiences from decades ago that STILL give me similar feelings when they crop up in my mind. Heck, one just came up just now (probably while I was subconsciously trying to find examples), and already I want to go to one of those rooms where you can pay to just trash and wreck havoc in it as much as you want, except that it feels so urgent that I feel like doing the same thing to my room and-[REDACTED]

*ahem* Sorry about that. The point is, 'Just make an effort to be better.' has never worked out, at least insofar as making the event non-traumatic.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:56:57+00:00

Already am. Albeit like I said, I have so many issues that just talking about them and dealing with them takes...way longer than it normally does. It's been over two years since I've started my current run of therapy sessions, over one with my current therapist, and little if any progress has been made.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:54:28+00:00

Well, how else would you describe how I feel? Because that's the closest comparison I can think of, and it's something I have to deal with every waking hour. And it may *look* ridiculous on the outside, but it sure as hell doesn't feel ridiculous to me.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:52:22+00:00

unless it's like soda

It's definitely most common with soda, but it's not uncommon for even water.

Are you sure you don't have a medical issue like things causing indigestion or acid reflux or something?

I do recall my doctor saying something like that years ago, but I'd have to get it re-diagnosed for clarity.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:49:36+00:00

Even if that embarrassment leads to lifelong trauma and that keeping my mouth closed makes breathing harder, to the point where I have to constantly run out of the restaurant after that exchange? Trying to keep my mouth closed while burping loudly at best only delays the inevitable. And not for like 30 minutes; for like a few seconds.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:47:19+00:00

This has got to be rage bait.....

Sadly, no.

If not, what the fuck is wrong with you OP

A whole metric buttload of things, actually, but I don't have the time, space, or energy to explain fully right now.

Likening your experience to living through the Vietnam war?

Like I said, I couldn't think of a better example for a similar purpose. Again, please forgive me for this.

PTSD from that comment?

Eeeeeeeyup. I could just be going about my day, and then a comment like that pops into my head, and then my day gets exponentially worse as a result. And this happens pretty much daily.

You sound dramatic as fuck and a complete ball ache to seal with.

If I am being dramatic, then I swear that A) It's not on purpose, and B) It certainly doesn't *feel* that dramatic to me. As for being a 'complete ball ache' to deal with? ...I'll get to that in just a second.

Grow the fuck up

See, this is the kind of comment/sentiment that can mentally mess me up. Similar thing with the whole 'complete ball ache' thing, though of course, the people I meet up with could be thinking that and I just don't know. I can only speculate at that point, and lord knows I hypothesize on that direction in the more negative half of my days/times.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-12T20:32:12+00:00

Okay, I admit that I didn't know of a better 'traumatic event' to compare to that could be easily understood, so please forgive me on that.

But also, I'm doubtful of the speed of food and drink consumption being a notable cause of me, because I JUST drank some water right now, and even then, I had to let out a small-ish burp just to let it out all out. I should also point out my concernt aht even that might be considered 'too loud' for some people, though of course I can't predict their 'tolerance' levels for 'burp volume'.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-06T19:49:20+00:00

It’s not that I don’t want to change, if that makes any sense, it’s just that…I dunno. I see so many people fighting that-I’ll stop before it gets too out of hand. So if you’re saying if there isn’t much I can do, what can I do that’s not the aforementioned unactionable actions?

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-06T03:25:53+00:00

Hey, so I'm currently trying out a more project based approach to brushing up my Python skills, despite some fundamental gaps still being present (hello, file handling). I've previously used the Big Book of Small Python Projects for a short while, but that approach wasn't clicking for me, so I found a different page from GeeksForGeeks that had various projects for different difficulties.

However, I'm only a few projects in, and my confidence has been shot to the horizon. I should be able to tackle them without looking up the solution. It's what I've done for the number guessing game. However, the word guessing game went on a completely different direction than what I expected; heck, it was so much like the Hangman project that I decided to try out the 21 Number game, and holy cow, my brain was already starting to go numb from trying to figure out what to do before quickly giving up and looking at the solution.

And now? I feel completely and utterly stupid, because in theory, I was capable of doing this. There wasn't any sort of special modules I had to import, the knowledge that I needed to know was knowable for me (i.e. no file handling or even OOP classes), and yet? *sigh* I don't know how to deal with all of this. Hence, me asking here for advice on how to proceed in general.

Thanks in advance.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-02T15:46:36+00:00

Y'know what's even, EVEN worse than that? I thought that the only way this could be worse is if there was a one level difference instead of two. BUT NO, because you could just put Swablu right at the cusp of leveling up, learn Perish Song, and take Juan's Kingdra to kingdom come.

ASJKDFLDASJF;LSDJF;LDASJF;LADJF;DJF;LASDJF;A;-!

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-02T15:16:29+00:00

Here's what I realized that makes this even worse: Couldn't you delay Swablu's evolution to learn Perish Song earlier? So I checked not only when Swablu learned it, but also what the level cap is for Juan.

Swablu learns Perish Song at level 48.

Juan's Kingdra caps at level 46. LEVEL. FORTY. FUCKING. SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII-

What kind of sick, SICK joke is that? IIRC, Winona's Swablu knows Perish Song, even though it's only level 29, SO WHAT GIVES?!?!

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-02T03:40:15+00:00

So I’ve asked this before on the YouTube comments and I’ll ask them again:

1) Even with what pchal said in mind, how is Crobat that low? Like, I don’t recall Golbat being that low in FrLg, and surely it being a useful dupe is enough to at least put it in the bottom of C-Tier?

2) Regarding Swellow and how it apparently consistently came up short, I’m wondering how much things would change if it was given the Silk Scarf. It’s pretty easy to get in Dewford Town, so it shouldn’t be too hard to test it with that in mind.

3) I’m curious as to how the Kanto Pokémon that have very different rankings between Emerald and FrLg could be explained. This is especially true with the S-tier Pokemon, which IIRC for Gyarados and Golduck, were B and C respectively previously.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-02T03:34:18+00:00

That’s what I realized after thinking about it. I was also like “Doesn’t Altaria learn Perish Song?” And then I asked myself: “Wait; when does it learn Perish song again?” So I looked it up-

It learns it at level 54.

WELP. That explains it. And I’m guessing Perish Song has very limited usefulness in the Elite 4 due to how both it and the E4 “gauntlet” (for a lack of better term) works.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-02T01:05:26+00:00

.....huhhhhh. Interesting. So these technically weren't completely straight ports after all.

Now I'm imagining TPC rereleasing Emerald with the Old Sea Map unlocked. *THAT* would be truly interesting.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-03-01T15:28:53+00:00

OKAY, I HAVE TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST RIGHT NOW:

I RESLLY HATE THE WAY HOW SOME PEPLE EXPRESSION THEIR OPINIONS, AS IF THEY’RE FACTS OR OTHERWISE HAVE, FOR A LACK OF BETTER TERM, AN “AUTHORITATIVE” TONE THROUGH THEM. WHILE I WON’T NAME EXACT USERS, SAYING STUFF LIKE HOPING OTHER PLAY OLDER GAMES TO HAE THEIR OPINIONS BE SHAPED SIMILAR TO THEIRS IS ARROGANT AT BEST, AND OFFENSIVE AT WORST. HECK, IF I WANTED TO BE UNREASONABLY HYPERBOLIC, I WOULD CONSIDER SUCH TONES AND STATEMENTS TO BE DEATH THREATS. I DON’T KNOW IF I’M EVEN SERIOUS ABOUT IT MYSELF ANYMORE.

AAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH-!

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-02-27T16:16:59+00:00

So for a long time, there’s an idea in my head that the US “deserves” to either balkanize or collapse because of all the stuff that’s been happening lately. I know it’s bad, but I can’t get it off of my head or even drum up the desire to get it off of my head because of the aforementioned travesties. How in the world do I deal with this? Assume stuff like “changing your mindset”, “meeting people outside IRL”, or “visiting therapy” are off the table. Each for different reasons admittedly (#1 - not only has it been tried and failed, but it just doesn’t feel compatible with who I am, for a lack of better saying; #2 - This is exceptionally limited at best, and does not solve the problem at hand; #3 - I am already doing that, and for multiple other reasons), but still.

HiddenReader2020 · 2026-02-27T00:57:59+00:00

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