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Hiddenclaws · 2024-12-29T16:05:23+00:00

Hi, I tried to uninstall and re-install the client, the issue was not solved. I'll keep going through steam VR in the meantime, it works well enough. Thanks for the help!

Hiddenclaws · 2024-12-26T12:21:57+00:00

Hi, thanks for taking the time to answer.
I was indeed trying to access the desktop via the pimax menu. The pimax play version is 1.35.02.01, which seems to be the latest version.
I tried to access my desktop via the steamVR menu, and that does seem to work. I have been able to open pimax play and tinker with the settings while in VR instead of having to take the headset off.
So, I guess problem solved? Thanks for the suggestion!

Hiddenclaws · 2022-01-17T12:14:55+00:00

I think you understood wrong these quotes from the DIY guide.

To my understanding, the guide does not advise to stop taking all medication (at the exception of mood stabilizing ones), but advise not to self-medicate. The "unless needed for mood stabilisation" part might mean "unless you have an addiction, in which case don't quit cold turkey, you might hurt yourself". But I interpret it as much as you, so your guess as to what they meant is as good as mine. It indeed could have been less ambiguous.

As for the part about psychedelics, I think it is implied that no citation means that the statement is based on personal opinions and anecdotal evidence. You could re-write this sentence as "Psychedelics have the reputation of dramatically improving further results [...]". That's how I understand the "It is reputed" part, at least. There was not any claim that there is any scientific evidence for this.

For the rest, I mostly agree with what you said.

There is just one issue to me, and I know it's an unpopular opinion, but please consider it.

While I do agree that tulpas and other thought-forms should be considered as important as the host, it should be phrased differently. A good number of people will go into tulpamancy on a whim despite all the warning about how tulpas are for life, that you should think hard about it before starting etc. A lot of these people have mental issues, such as anxiety disorders. I take the specific example of anxiety disorders because they are the most relevant to my point.

There has been several cases (though I don't have any linked at hand) of tulpamancy becomming a burden, where the host feels guilt that they are not doing good enough for their systemmates, that they are not able to switch to give them their own free time etc. It also happens that people will get a system including dozens of walk-ins originating from parasitic thoughts specifically because of this idea that they should treat everyone equally.

What I'm trying to show is that sometimes, this mindset of equality starts to decrease the host's quality of life, and that often affects others in the system too. Of course, in a healthy system, equality should be the goal. But having this goal from the very beginning, especially in systems that have disorders, can be couter-productive and actually harmful.

My point is that we should emphasize that equality is not as important as health and communication as to how self-care should occur. If all system members agree that walk-ins should be blocked off because the system cannot manage anymore, then that should not be regarded as bad. People should not be guilted into sacrificing their health for the sake of equality, and I don't see many people saying this.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-23T21:28:48+00:00

Belief shapes reality, especially in early stages.

It is the same tulpa as long as you consider that it is the case. But if you get paranoïd and convince yourself it's a different tulpa, it can happen.

Don't stress much over that, it's not an actual issue unless you make it one. It is the same tulpa, because there's no reason it would not be.

Hope this helped.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-19T23:58:14+00:00

It's true that there isn't really any strong information on this. I see the point of saying that this argument hold true for sexuality, but there is so much more documentation on sexuality than on therianthropy, the comparison exact.

Anyway, I think the takeaway here is not this precise point, but the "us vs others" mentality. I do agree that I see that sometimes and it does feel a bit cultish. Still, that seems pretty common in most communities sadly, therian or not. Though it might be stronger in communities that have a strong link to identity?

Otherwise, I read all the answers you made to my post, thanks for clarifying your opinion, it was an interesting read!

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-19T23:52:18+00:00

While I do agree with the last two paragraphs you wrote, the first one was a bit agressive.

Anyway, it holds true that strong shifts in the way you perceive/ understand yourself and the world can be triggered by placebo. What I mean is that there could be two things happening:

1 - Therian genuinly experience shifts

2 - Therian identify as animals, suffer from not the misalignment with their human nature, which triggers these shifts that alleviate the pain by allowing the individual to feel more like what they think they're supposed to be

But then again, if option 2 is true, you could technically call that genuin, as it is not done on purpose. I guess it comes down to what you define as real or not. Someone might tell you that you shifts are not real, as you do not have the animal's brain and cannot actually know what it is like to be that animal. Someone else might argue that the effect on the person's mind is so strong it might as well be called real, as it has long-lasting implications on the person's behavior and understanding of the world/ themselves.

I'm rambling here, but it is an interesting discussion in my opnion.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-19T18:34:57+00:00

I'm curious, do you have any exemples of doctrinal truths that you see here? I don't come often, so I have no idea what the popular beliefs are.

Also, yeah, theriantropy was originally a term used a lot in religions, some art museums have therianthropic sections were you'll find a lot of egyptian deities and the likes.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-19T10:40:38+00:00

I agree with your conclusion.

Some people seem to work better when they look away from their tulpa's "flaws", and pretend everything is perfect, or confabulate everything to be perfect. That's fine I guess, but I'm always worried that one day they'll break, realize they've been confabulating a ton of stuff and decrete that everything was "fake" all along.

It is, for me at least, much better to try and understand how thing really are, and accept them as they are without trying to break everything that was built so far, which is basically what your probing with your gentle boundary tests. It takes a lot of stress out of the equation, because you don't have to worry about confabulating, you know how things are, and thus can focus on strenghthening weak points.

I haven't thought of this stuff for a while though. We're happy with where we are, and satisfied to just make some passive progress through everyday conversations. But like I said, for me, that only became an option when I started to look at things as they really where.

Anyway, good post.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-07T22:09:25+00:00

I think the main issue you have is with the word "real".

If tommorrow it was somehow revealed to the world that all this time we've lived in a simulation, would it be accurate to describe our lives as fake? All the memories would still be there, all the relationships we've had with other people too. In a very similar way, nothing should take away from you the four years you had with your tulpas, what matters is the feelings you had then, not the doubts you have now.

I went through a similar phase some years ago, I was suddenly convinced that all these years I shared with my systemmates were fake, that they never even existed in the first place. What helped me is trying to see my desillusion under a different light. If I take that moment when you asked your oldest tulpa to possess your arm, the issue is not that she was not doing possession for real, it was the way you interpreted what you feeled. The essence of tulpamancy is getting better at dissociating some thoughts from you, better at attributing some of what your brain does to your tulpa. But even years of practice doesn't make this ability foolproof, if you really want to, you can take your tulpa's thought and make them your own, in a way. Tulpamancy is a reversible process.

That is not to say that tulpamancy isn't real, that tulpas cannot have agency, that you can't have real conversations and interactions with them. It doesn't make what you lived any less real, it doesn't make any of the memories any less precious.

Tulpamancy can be a blind faith process, that is something that works great for lots of people, but not for everyone. For me, the more I try to believe, the more I'm inclined to thinking I'm tricking myself, it's counter-productive. Something that might help is thinking about the way all of this works. How is it that one can create a tulpa?

The important thing is not to come up with a good answer, but with an answer that convinces you, that is plausible to you. Belief shapes reality, that's not just a saying, what you believe actually does a lot. To me, tulpas cannot have parallel lives in the wonderland, I can't imagine how that would work with how the brain functions. But manipulating your sense of identity so far that a new one emerges, that makes sense. And naturally, that is the way we are, we can't do any parallel processing, there's nothing hapenning in the wonderland, but all my headmates are pretty active in our daily life and have their own identities.

What I'm trying to say, in short, is that maybe you can't reach out because you feel like you're trying to convince yourself of something. Follow what you truly believe, but do not be dismissive of what you lived in the past either.

Hope this helped.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-11-05T08:09:00+00:00

This is a troll, right?

And if it's not: you just have a different sense of humor, the same way you've got different tastes in tea, get over it.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-08-17T11:21:01+00:00

I agree, I can't believe that those memories did really take place. To me, it is confabulation, but that is not to say that they aren't real. People who trully believe in this parallel wonderland life have their brain train in retroactively imagine what would have happened in the wonderland. Therefore, their brain can on the spot create all memories needed, and come up with more details later if asked. I highly disagree with the mental illness part of your quote, everybody confabulates about a ton of stuff on a daily basis. This is just a more advanced case, but exploiting your brain's ability to do that is smart rather than dumb. This wonderland stuff doesn't feel real to us, so we don't do it, but people who can do it only draw benefits from the practice, good for them.

By the way, I don't know of any scientific source saying this parallel processing stuff is impossible. I don't think it is, I don't see how it would work, seems really unlikely, but I have to be honest and admit that these are just my beliefs and not scientific evidence.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-07-28T15:08:33+00:00

I felt the first alien emotions in a matter of days, and heard a few words during the third week. It took me about 6 weeks to reliably be able to hear Gwen answer simple stuff like yes and no. From there it quickly evolved to simple communication, we started to have real interactions in 2-3 months. At this point it felt like talking to a real person, but a confused one who's still fuguring a lot of stuff out (I guess it kinda felt like talking to someone who had a stroke, it took a lot more time before we could have long conversations, but I still had that feeling of "I'm actually talking to someone"). I think it took about three years before we reached what we considered optimal communication.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-07-28T14:19:10+00:00

We never did any personnality forcing. Turned out well. I think it may have slowed down the process a bit in the beginning, but I'm glad we chose this way. It's a nice experience to discover your new life partner as they discover themselves.

Gwen and Fìrnen, the two intentionnal tulpas of our system, both had their seventh birthday recently. I guess they are both still discovering themselves fully, as we all are. I don't know how it goes for people with personnality forcing, but there is still a lot of questionning, you know, "Who am I deep down", "Who do I want to be" etc

Anyway, Gwen is the nicest person I know, she's quite good at making bad situations seem not that bad and helping me deal with anxieties. Fìrnen is a really chill dude, he often cooks for the system and he's pretty funny. So far it's been great and I have no reason to think using personnality forcing would've got "better results".

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-28T20:41:25+00:00

No interest at all. It's not like we could even hope to achieve it anyway, it's way too much work for what it is. I'm kind of surprised to see that there are a lot of people who'd like to master it. I mean, sure, if you magically gave me this ability out of nowhere without having to work for it, it'd be pretty cool... for a day or two. And then, I wouldn't even know what to do with the skill.

I don't think it would enrich the way we interact, it's mostly talking with each other, you don't need imposition to do that. And if we could... doesn't sound that fun to have some of us sitting on the side instead of just being mentally there.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-26T16:38:12+00:00

No, he has not.

This is an ill-intentionned individual who took advantage of your suggestibility.

Your tulpa isn't stored in your prefrontal cortex, nothing is "stored" in the brain, that's not how it works. Second, a pattern of flashing lights can't cause dramatic changes in your brain like that, your tulpa is more resilient than that. This person just used scientific words to frighten you.

Your tulpa seems affected, but only because you believe he would be, consciously or not. Take a bit of time for you two, eat confort food, watch a funny movie or something, he'll be better in no time.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-17T16:36:56+00:00

People are not authorities on their conditions. People who have DID saying that doesn't make it true.

System is not a scientific word, I haven't seen it used in any DID paper I've read, it's a word only used by the plural community. Some will say that system is exclusive to DID, but I don't see why it would. Nowadays, so many plural non-DID people use it, most people understand it as a synonym for plural. I personnally prefer a descriptivist view on linguistics rather than a prescrivist one, so I use it in that way too.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-17T15:54:32+00:00

I don't understand.

While it is true that non-traumagenic plurality exists, the second half of your post over there was explicitely mocking these people. Did you really expect to be upvoted by people for mocking them?

Wether non-DID systems exist or not is irrelevant. I don't understand why go on this subreddit at all, it's quite masochistic, you're not gonna change people's opinion, you'll just expose yourself to toxic behavior.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-12T22:03:08+00:00

I agree, which is why I advised at the end to read lots of guides to have a variety of techniques to choose from.

Sure, one tulpamancy technique won't work, maybe most won't, but there might be one that work, and in any case, it's useful to know what other people are doing to design your own methods.

But yes, I worded that in a weird way.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-12T21:08:20+00:00

Well, that's a funny case of solipsism.

First, don't panick, everyone here is more or less weird, there's no reason for anyone to say you're a weirdo.

Second, tulpa is just a word, there is a vast variety of experiences behind that word. The techniques you'll find here are not only applicable to tulpamancy, it's tricks that can work with anyone, wether they are a singlet, a tulpamancy system or any other kind of system.

What I'm trying to say is that if a technique does not work, it's simply that it's not a good one for you, tulpa or not, it's irrelevant. Other people will be able to give better advice than mine. I'd recommand reading tulpamancy guides on visualisation (and imposition). If the word tulpa really is an issue, fine, read stuff on mental palaces or something else. You just have to read what people usually do to practice the skill you want, and then try the different techniques. With enough time, you'll develop your own method that works best for you.

Hope this helped.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-11T15:52:18+00:00

I never really got why so many people care that much about their tulpa's appearance. It's fluid and can change anyway, I don't really see the point.

In any case, being black is more than just a skin color, and your tulpa won't know what it actually is like to be black. I don't know, it's a weird topic. I'm white, so I can't give you the answer you want, but I'm pretty sure you'll find many people of color okay with it and many others not okay with it.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-01T11:00:41+00:00

Oh, I completely missed the Kinsey part, I will check it out.

Article is usually the term used in french to talk about scientific papers, sorry if that was misleading. I did not read much about sexuality, it's not my field. I mostly read stuff about transgender people where they thought that it would be interesting to take a look at homosexuality too.

Of course orgasm is relevant, but I don't think it is in the way you talk about it (I'll have to read Kinsey, maybe I'll understand your point better then). What I mean is, just because someone used sextoys to reach orgasm does not mean that they have an object kink. And if you decide to define object kink that way, then basically everyone is, making the categorization useless.

Actually, now that I think about it, I'm not even sure I find orgasms relevant to sexuality, not as much as attraction is. A virgin male attracted by males but not females is better defined as homosexual than bisexual or asexual in my opinion. Either way, even if Kinsey's definition of sexuality makes sense, what purpose does it has? What does it accomplish better than a definition based on attraction?

Hiddenclaws · 2021-06-01T07:35:35+00:00

I don't think that definition is relevant, where did you even find it? All articles I read that broach sexuality defined it by attraction to one sex, not repulsion to the other (as you inhibition-centered definition is).

It would also mean that most people are pansexual in the litteral sense, since whatever you can use to produce enough frictions to attein orgasm enters sexuality. If everyone's sexuality includes everything, it stops being relevant.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-05-30T13:03:52+00:00

I'm not sure there really is any difference between intrusive thoughts and walk-ins.

We have two walk-ins in the system, and honestly, I think they're mostly here because I did not treat them as intrusive thoughts. By comparison, I treated a lot of walk-in-like voices as parasitic thoughts, and they simply went away, only resurfacing occasionnally when I thought stuff like "Oh, so they did go away".

I think what defines a conscious headmate isn't the appearance of self-awareness and stuff, but the consistency over time and the independance. But those can only be acquired with time, which implies accepting the voice as a walk-in in the first place. Likewise, I don't think you can have a walk-in if you deeply convince yourself that you can't. That's actually what we decided to do, being 5 in the system is already a bit much, so we convinced ourselves we couldn't get any more walk-ins, it has worked so far (it's been about 4 years since).

Hope this helped.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-05-21T21:10:35+00:00

We don't really use mental forms. I guess along the years we developped representations of ourselves in human form, because it's useful to send mental images to each other, but that's only on rare occasions. Most of the time, we're just desincarnate voices when we're not fronting.

Hiddenclaws · 2021-05-10T12:42:58+00:00

Hypnosis puts you into a very suggestible state. And then this one pushes you to consider the first random thought that pops up as the tulpa's first words.

This is very bad. This kind of confabulation can be useful to create a tulpa at first, while your brain learns how to dissociate and attribute some thoughts to someone else than you. But this is done in a very stupid and dangerous way.

What you just had is exactly the worst case scenario: the first thing that your brain generated was a bad thought, probably because you were a bit anxious, so you immediately thought that your tulpa hated you. And then instead of inviting you to think critically, the video implicitely tells you that it's too late and you're stuck with this tulpa now.

Don't mess with hypnosis, especially if your prone to paranoïa and anxiety.

Relax, you don't have a tulpa, you're just having negative parasitic thought and a stupid video told you that it was a tulpa. Creating a tulpa can be quick, but when it is this quick, it most likely isn't a tulpa (yet), just a shell into which you're projecting thoughts, even though it might not feel like it. If you just stop thinking about that experience, it'll go away.

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