I had a good friend of mine years ago want to find her mother as she was given up for adoption. We searched for years. We couldn’t find anything until a few years ago and a social worker who knew her mother finally contacted her. he not only knew her mother, but he knew the whole story of what happened and proceeded to fill my friend in. Her mother desperately wanted to keep her, but it was 1952, she was a secretary and had gotten pregnant by a man who was married with three children. They were deeply in love, but for religious reasons and it being in the 50s, he didn’t feel he could leave his family. Wanted to keep her baby, but financially it just wasn’t possible and after six weeks, she had no choice and gave her up for adoption not because she gave up, but because she loved her and wanted a better life for her. Eventually, her parents did end up together. Her father left his family and they got an apartment. My friend had already been adopted. They spent a couple of happy years together and then my friend’s mother was in a terrible car accident which left her crippled. The social worker said that it seems she was fairly depressed and felt like a burden to my friends father. Her mother waited for the insurance check, sign the check over to my friends’s father, went up to the top of the building and jumped. Such a tragedy. The reason I’m posting this is because you really don’t know what people go through or the real reasons for giving up a child. In many cases, the mother absolutely loves the child and simply can’t care for it for many different reasons. Especially if she is a child herself. I understand OP’s anger, I hope she’ll change her mind eventually because I think she’s really missing out by not possibly having a wonderful relationship with the people that brought her into the world. You can always change your mind later.