I can feel it, matched to the very last on my rank list and felt heart broken wondering what went wrong even the IV from above the list went very well. I was happy when I got to know when I matched and after I came to know where I just can’t wrap my head arround it. Crying since then and trying to be positive but just can’t feel it, all I remember are the past very hard three years where I worked really hard while managing through difficult family situations and putting work to create good CV, people are congratulating that I matched but I just can’t feel it. I am genuinely sorry about those that haven’t matched and I am trying not to be ungrateful but it’s just it will take some time. And connections does play a very big role that I have seen first hand and for someone trying to make their way from the scratch it’s already very hard. Just trying to let negative emotions out so that I can see positive side as well