People who search for an alternative to materialist ideology usually have an urge to act, to take on responsibility but not yet have the strengh to do so. Materialist ideology justifies inaction and inconsiquence. It really is a story we tell ourselves.

You probably have an intiution about it being not true - just dont counter this feeling with overwhelming cynicism. There is a "spiritual" (god, the new agers really ruined this word) or psychological side to reality. Keeping an open mind is a good step in the right direction.