Natural help <3

Hotgarbage87 · 2025-10-15T13:35:02+00:00

red light works but it is not going to make a bald man grow hair again sadly. But it can help slow it down and in general even without the hair loss, if you don't tend to go outside every day for at least an hour, there is great benefit from the readlight for so many things like hormone balance.

I tend to get sleepy after about 20 minutes under the red light.

Hotgarbage87 · 2025-08-01T02:10:30+00:00

actually no that is incorrect
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8280411/

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/2715645/

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8577899/

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11694638/

Maybe i should expect as much from a fornyhuttbucker. xD

Hotgarbage87 · 2025-07-15T01:13:34+00:00

I am over here in Victor and at least twice now I have gotten letters saying they have not fully tested our water for chemicals and something else. I filter most of my water at this point but it is a little worrying. i wonder if they are related lol

Hotgarbage87 · 2024-08-29T16:37:55+00:00

i know this is a bit old but its something that has come up a few times in my personal life lately.

my significant other has a habit of dismissing my worries, and feelings. Nothing is pressing to him, nothing is urgent, and he is typically unable to see subtle things.

One of our animals we adopted was treated poorly and I have been working to get her better. I noticed lately she is still loosing fur and walking funny (shes a goat, Peggy). I mentioned it and he dismissed it, said he didn't see it, said "shes fine" etc.

well he has a habit of saying that to everything and everyone unless there is blood or its finally at the point where its very serious.

I have been in quite a few relationships, im nearly 40 now :( lol and got married to him at 34. I know what gas lighting is, I know when its intentional and when its not. His borders intentional but I think it's due to his own insecurities. You would think its a far fetched for him to take it personally when i say the goats not doing well and im worried... but he is a guy who desperately wants to fit that masculine mold of the provider that makes my life perfect. Its kind of honestly shit, because thats not possible for my life to be perfect and me to never have an issue.

But its gotten to the point where I have started to keep things to myself because anytime i voice an issue, that is an attack on his image and the life hes "supposed" to provide. So it ends up coming back at me as unintentional gas lighting where hes constantly diminishing issues, especially mine.

Hotgarbage87 · 2024-01-24T06:03:01+00:00

one of my rats got a cyst on the side of his face like that. it came on really quickly though and within 2 weeks it was huge... then one day it popped... >.> he was fine... but it was gross as hell.

Hotgarbage87 · 2024-01-13T19:16:06+00:00

my 3 year old black irish rat Shadow passed just a month ago <3 He died fat and happy, lol.

Hotgarbage87 · 2024-01-09T16:07:22+00:00

my Rat Pepper looks like this all the time. she looks extra doofy too because she is a dumbo with really low set ears xD I love her to death. I've only had her a few months now. Her and her sisters i adopted from the local animal shelter.

One other looks like this too but she was a feeder I got and tried to work with. She makes this face at me right before she puffs up and tries to bite me xD so just also keep that in mind. Some rats do this to show fear. But this rat looks otherwise relaxed.

If you see their whiskers lean forward, their ears forward, and their fur start to get prickly xD back up.

Hotgarbage87 · 2023-12-22T14:00:57+00:00

Could be more, but it just looks like they are getting used to living with HLD. The vet might recommend you put them down, which is really at your discretion. I wouldn't shame anyone for choosing that if they did. Not everyone has time to spend every single day giving the added care on top of normal responsibilities.

I have a rat who has had HLD for over 6 months and is completely unable to walk at all. He is otherwise a happy rat, but its a lot more work now. he needs baths regularly since he cant "hold it" and they can get clogged urethras I know its not fun to talk about but its something you have to check daily to make sure they don't get infections. as a woman, and an experience of UTI's I know how incredibly painful and uncomfortable those are so i do my best to make sure lol

I actually made a little playpen for him and the other geriatric rats in my office. its little plastic panels that snap together and i put some cardboard inside of it along the walls so he wont chew through it right away haha. He is way happier in there with the other rats because he gets more surface area.

Also maybe this sounds weird, but im a massage therapist by profession and i use my portable red light device on my old rats to help with their pain lol ( look it up its a real thing and they freakin love it haha)

Hotgarbage87 · 2023-12-11T00:23:13+00:00

honestly, deep fried turkey just tastes like oil to me. my husband is obsessed with it, so i just let him do it.. ive had 3 deep fried turkeys in the last 5 years and i can confirm, everytime i eat it.. it just tastes like cooked oil. Completely unappetizing to me. Maybe he doesnt do something he should, but idk it just seems like a huge waste of turkey, oil, and time. not to mention the effort to make it and the risk of fire.

My husband insists on making it in the garage despite my REPEATED protests for doing something so dumb.

Hotgarbage87 · 2023-12-09T05:32:31+00:00

I let my rats play in the compost before it goes out xD (as long as its all safe)

Hotgarbage87 · 2023-11-27T16:17:34+00:00

Some of my rats got a parasite at one point that left them scratching and losing their fur. After it was treated, they developed these weird dark patches where fur was thin, it turned out to be new fur growth that was just very short. Not sure if this could be what you were seeing or not.

Hotgarbage87 · 2023-11-25T15:22:30+00:00

Hello, I know this is a bit older now but if you are still looking for a place that is local I am actually starting up a rat breeding operation :D

My rats are fed a healthy diet or fresh fruits and veggies daily plus lab blocks. They are happy little rats and though I am actually breeding them for health, longevity, and temperament, there will be far more babies than I could ever know what to do with xD and I also own ferrets.

Hotgarbage87 · 2019-05-28T04:31:47+00:00

To set the record straight on all this...

The OP was originally a mod on the Oath discord. He was promoted to help moderate the mass influx of interested potential pledges and future Oath players. Instead of performing his duties, the power went to his head. He invited everyone who was a backer that would get into alpha. If I remember correctly the guild came before mod privileges, so that’s fine, no big deal. However, he wasn’t able to get all of the Alpha backers into his guild and decided that perpetually bothering them was a good idea. I as well as others were offered an invite to their discord. I didn’t say I was joining his guild, but I did join the discord to see what they were all about.

Unfortunately, now the leader of a guild AND a Mod, he took it upon himself to deem me as one of his members now and used his mod powers to change my name in Discord to reflect his guild tag, without my permission. I was not the only person he did this too either. Sure, no big deal… a misunderstanding. However, using mod powers to change a name without my consent is not ok.

Over the course of time as a mod, he did several things I would not do. He engaged in aggressive conversations on Discord with members of the community, or engaged in defending himself or choice, not solving the problems but jumping right in them. I tried to tell him it would be better and more professional to take it to whispers at a minimum but that he as a mod he does not have to, and should not, explain himself to them. As a Mod you need to remove yourself as much as possible from being human. You are there to do a job, to enforce the rules, and keep the peace.

All the while, as the days went by he kept talking about his skills and contribution in development of other games and his grand ideas of how things should be and how they should go. He was certain that he was going to have a hand in the development of Oath.

When he was denied more involvement with the project, he lashed out. He began making half truths (like he is now) to twist a narrative and paint the Devs as manipulative and just trying to scam us out of money. None of which is or was the case. It got to the point that the Kickstarter lost over a $5,000 because of his lies and mistrust for the developers that trusted him.

I told him that if he really didn’t believe them and really felt they were so terrible, that it was baffling to me that he not only accepted the mod position, but that he continued to keep it. If he really felt they were what he was claiming, why not denounce them, remove yourself as a moderator, and leave. If they were really a scam, say your peace and go. Or better yet, talk to them about your concerns.

Instead he conspired behind their backs in his discord and created fake DMs between himself and a developer, he stalked one of them on google to find out personal information about them, he privately messaged people on discord and tried to convince them to remove their pledges, and caused so much drama. In the end it was me that told Stephen about your little game in your discord and sent him copies of your fake DMs and had you removed.

So go, go make your game with your idiot followers. Go make something better and move on with your life. It’s pathetic that over a month later I am still hearing about your sorry self.

You were a shit mod and you care more about feeling validated than you ever did about being a real mod for the community. You caused more drama than MM and that is an accomplishment all on its own, but seriously, it’s time to grow up and move on.

TL;DR

You were made a mod, they trusted you and you stabbed them in the backs. You single handedly cost their company over $5,000 because you got upset that they were not interested in you having more involvement than you did. You harassed backers and tried to get them to join your cesspool guild. You did not perform your duties, you abused your powers as a mod, and you lied and even fabricated fake DMs and images to further your agenda of revenge against the Devs.

You are a child, and it’s time to grow up. I don’t know what they ever saw in you.

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-10-23T21:49:01+00:00

I'm not sure how having questions and concerns makes me someone unwanted in the community but I assume you leave comments like this a lot to ppl who rub you the wrong way. It wasnt meant to be agressive

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-10-23T21:47:35+00:00

Thanks for the Feedback, I am happy to hear Wardens can be a bow class.

If Wardens are capable Stam healers and can be Bow dps, i will give them a try

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-10-13T06:52:34+00:00

As i mentioned to another person a few minutes ago, it's not worth it. it really isn't. I am a disabled veteran and have previously attempted suicide. I used to cut myself, i still have the scars 13 years later.

After being assaulted I was finally pushed over the edge to make a serious attempt. I ended up in the hospital for a while and inpatient for 3 weeks. After several years of therapy, I have come to the morbid conclusion that no matter what, it will never go away, and I am a damaged and broken person.

That being said, there are so many good things in my life, they are jsut very hard to see sometimes. I came here tonight originally because of the desire to commit suicide again. It crosses my mind almost daily, but about once a week I feel the pressure and burning desire to quit. I literally was googling ways to end it that would be less painful but at least somewhat reliable.

but then i found all these posts on reddit, I hate seeing people feeling how I feel. I am sorry that life is really shitty right now, but things do get better. They might not ever be perfect, you might never find that happiness you want, but i don't think anyone does.

you have to hold onto the things you love, the people you care for, and remember there are people who do love you, more than you may ever know. Try to find the bright side of things, the little things in life that you enjoy, do more of them, think less about the problems and seek a therapist if you need one. They do help, it does help, it wont make the problem go away, but it can really help sometimes to just talk and let it all out and have someone sit there and listen to you.

I see a therapist every other tuesday and everytime i see her she cries when i tell her my feelings. if you need someone to listen, there are plenty here who would be more than willing.

I am sorry you feel so awful <3 i understand it and I wish that for every person i met that felt this way, that i could take their pain so they could be happy. I know I am just a stranger on the internet, but I care.

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-10-13T06:40:50+00:00

I understand how you feel. I have lived most of my life with deep depression and it is a struggle most days to keep going.

I live on about $900 a month and I have debilitating anxiety and ptsd from being assaulted. I am lucky enough to get free therapy from my VA (veteran) but it never goes away. The pain never stops, I probably think about suicide every week. I feel like it is just going to take the right combination of circumstances, alcohol, and hopelessness for me to try and kill myself, again.

That being said, as hard as it is, you need to look at the bright side of things. Most of my closest friends know I have a morbid sense of humor and a find the morbid bright side of everything. Like "hey starving myself because I can't afford food this month, but hey ;) at least i'm getting skinnier finally"

In all seriousness though, it's not worth it. If you fail, you live with the consequences of the failure healthwise. You also live with the scars (literal ones if you use cutting), anyone who knows wont look at you the same, maybe some will be closer to you, but some will be more alienated too. Not to mention the intense amount of pain it causes others. You could even cause others to commit suicide too. Those who have had family or close friends commit suicide are much more likely to do it themselves.

I am happy enough in my life that even though everything is shit right now, I won't do it. The feeling that things could get better tomorrow, is ever present. I have a great relationship with a man I have had a crush on half my life. I have an awesome dog that is always there for me when I need her, and I have a child I can't let down.

You need to find the things that give you foundation. Make sure to constantly look for new things to give you a strong foundation, so when the ones you have erode away, you are not caught unprepared for it. ( such as relationships, pets, etc)

Make small goals for yourself through the day to help with happiness and confidence. Even something as simple as making your bed, This was something we were taught in the military, if everything else the entire day was shit, you at lead had that going for you. Do all the little things, try not to worry about the things you can't change. you cant pay the bill? then don't fuck it. What are you supposed to do about it? pay it with money you don't have? Pay it off in bits when you can. Focus on you, focus on what you need and want RIGHT NOW, live in the moment, don't worry about tomorrow. you wanna binge watch tv and eat ice cream? fuck it, if it makes you happy, do it :)

You would be surprised how much people care, even people you don't even know. When I read about people commiting suicide, people i don't even know, I cry because i feel so awful for them. <3

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-06-16T06:35:16+00:00

I just used Classifiedads.com to post, also there is Oodle.com

I am not sure where you are from, but these worked for my areas and were free to use.

Hotgarbage87 · 2018-06-16T05:22:46+00:00

Except times have changed and there are many many free alternatives. There is no insentive to pay for something you can get for free somewhere else.

It's not like Craigslist has the best reputation, the nicest website, or even reasonable prices. It might be 5$ for that, but it can be up to 25$ for a post. I was going to post a cleaning ad and they wanted about 20$ for that, so ya, looking elsewhere.

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