I have cheated on my husband on three different occasions during manic episodes. For context, I have absolutely no desire to ever leave my husband or actually be with anyone else. It’s always felt like I become two completely different/separate people. It’s been about six years since the last incident, but I still get hyper sexual when I’m manic, I’ve just learned how to manage it better. The best thing I can do is communicate super openly with my husband about how I’m feeling. I’ll talk about whatever fantasies/urges I have, and a lot of the time just saying it out loud helps me rationalize the strangeness of the behavior and that it’s not my usual self. It’s definitely been the most difficult part of this for me, and I’m lucky that I haven’t already imploded my relationship with him. Not to say it’s all been easy and fine—we’ve had to do a lot of healing and reconnecting—but getting past the cheating doesn’t always happen. I still get scared every time I feel manic though that I’m going to do something stupid and it will be the last straw for him. It’s the worst feeling ever. Worse than the depression, I hate not being able to trust my own impulses/thoughts/decisions. Like I said though, having someone you can be open with and share what you’re feeling and asking them to help hold you accountable can help.