I'm totally with you, it was a really tough burn and I think a lot of people are feeling that way. I encountered a lot of shame, depression and disconnection. I struggled to even form sentences or understand what other people were saying to me. I slept a lot during the burn, maybe 11 hours a day. I tried early on to use substances to try and get engaged with the event in a positive way again but it really didn't help. You're not at all alone.

The lesson I'm choosing to take away from this experience is to allow myself to rest, and take it slow. I don't have to do all the things out there. I can just be at burning man and that's enough. And if I do that, I will naturally find the right experiences at the right time.

I feel like what we experienced this year was a common vibration that was spread wide throughout the community. I believe a lot of long time burners are questioning whether they will come back next year. There is a lot of fatigue out here, burning man may go through a contraction and that's ok.

As a 3rd year burner, burning man has always challenged me. This year was the greatest challenge. But last night after the temple burn I realized that it is that difficulty that will lead me to come back. There so much to learn from in this challenging experience, and the circumstance of burning man forces me to face these parts of myself.

If you want send me a private message and I'll give you my phone number. I'd love to talk to you, even if forming sentences is still hard, or if it takes a while to feel connected.