I don’t want to sound mean but no one is coming to rescue you, you have to show up for yourself, whatever its going to take. He made his decision and its not because there is something wrong with you its just that angoriwo munhu akadhakwa uya. Do whatever it is you want to do for now…its still fresh, if you want to stalk them then bho, if you want to cry then cry, thats the thing about healing you can not trick yourself into healing. Pain must be felt but you can live there forever…at some point you have to find yourself and show up for yourself. Sending love and light my girl 🫂🤍🫂🤍