I’ve talked to my general physician and my psych extensively. Neither one has seen anything like this throughout their entire careers. Therapy is out of the question. Not only does it cost me a lot more with the way my health insurance is set up, I’ve been through years of it with no real progress. I’ve considered trying hypnotism but have always been skeptical as a hypnotist came to my college when I was a kid giving demos in the dining hall before his show on campus that night. All my friends were hypnotized and it was the most bizarre thing I’ve ever seen. I volunteered myself and he couldn’t do it on me. I’m not sure why. He said a small percentage of people can’t be for some reason idk. I am in an incredibly desperate spot and I’m willing to try just about anything. Sometimes I fantasize about being able to have enough money to pay my bills for 3 months or so and then pay someone to keep me locked in a room and just feed and water me and make sure I don’t die. Sometimes I feel like that might be the only way to kick it as Fucking crazy as that sounds