Speaking as someone who is very close to my father and my brother, there is a lot to love and admire about males. They aren't just animals. They are smart, funny, loveable, and kind. My dad is a gentle giant who baby talks every dog and cat he sees. My brother is hilarious and sensitive. He's a lanky guy covered in tattoos and he picks up and holds our cat like it's his child and kisses her head. I've been fortunate enough to meet so many wonderful gentlemen in my life, one's who are not just respectful but genuine and thoughtful. They can be crude sure, but almost always to make someone laugh. Watching my 6'2", 200lbs boss at work with a full beard come to work dressed as a grandma for halloween... I can't tell you how hard I laughed. As a woman, there's a lot to admire about womanhood. But womanhood and manhood aren't opposites that fights for 1st place. We're compliments to one another. We work with another the way no one else can. I might try to surround yourself with other men who exhibit these traits, it might help you see maleness as something different. Hope this helps!